The power of FLAME of FROST Returns

2010 is over, now moving on to 2011

2010-12-31T01:08:00.000-08:00

Wow, how time flies. It's already end of 2010 coming to 2011, another year more im am estimate to graduate from NUS!!! (Depending of course whether i take honest or not)by 2012 i would probably have a degree waiting to enter into a good job /business which ever, but seriously can you imagine after you graduate the world is going to end in 12/12/2012? Quite lame right, hence i refuse to believe such rubbish that the world is going to end at such a date. Nevertheless coming back to 2011, i look forward to next year, as alot of exciting events will be happening. My book, another business and online business etc. Of course there are problems yet to be solved like PJ0. The more i think of this business, the more indifferent i get, so much effort has been pour into this public speaking business and at this stage im losing passion for it, to be honest my current members have the potential to make it big, they are smart, talented and hardworking, however something is lacking in them..which lies somewhere between commitment and pro-activeness. This includes doing last min work, only doing things that have been instructed, not going beyond own duties. As such, i blame myself for allowing this, perhaps i really lack the proper leadership skills required to motivate them and myself..i think i should better do something about this...or maybe not? Should i just give up? Why im i giving up? Every time i think about PJ0 i think about MIP and the value brothers, are we copying them? Or just becoming a watered down version of theirs..this of course is unacceptable and i really dun see myself following their footsteps, this is really one heck of a problem that i must face when the time comes, either we go all out or not at all.

On a brighter note, ever since i wrote my last entry, i realize i was going thru a lot of tough times but one key important decision i made was to trust God. As it turns out, i didn't really end up having the shortest straw, in fact all those bad events turned out pretty well and i have God to thank for. Can you believe when i sat for Managerial Accounting (somebody say EEEE) the final exam 70% of the paper i do not know how to do and yet i manage to get an overall B for it, seriously miracle sia..and the rest of the modules.. well very very good is all i can say =]

2010 worst highlight was having to go thru Managerial Accounting

and best highlight was going to Taiwan with my brothers, the trip was excellent, never had soo much fun before. Thank God for them. =] PS tml 1/1/2011 im going to send matt off for his SEP and many other friends, wish them all the best and mercy journey (this is so that i can keep track of what has happen)

As i leave 2010 behind, moving pass of those hurts, disappointments, loneliness, giving thanks to all the opportunities given to me, all the love shown to me, all the new friends i have met, i lookforward to more trails and adventure that lies a head. Im going to change my personality drastically to be friendlier, more confident, more outspoken and more proactive. Cheers ^_^v

The short end of the stick.

2010-10-06T09:35:00.000-07:00

Have you seen movies or stories which show of a group of people gathered together to decide who does the dirty work? A solution would probably always be to draw sticks. The person with the shortest stick will be chosen to do the task everyone is trying to avoid, take for example, the movie "Amagadon" the person who has the shortest stick have to stay behind and push the atomatic bomb to destory a destructive comet heading to earth.
That's exactly how i feel nowadays in school. I feel im always the unlucky one recieving the "shortest" stick. Why i feel so? Simple. The midterm papers have just ended for me. Ive got back all the results. MA below average, Econs average at best, Fin well done. You see, 2 out of 3 papers, i didnt do soo well, escpially for MA..i really want to say..fck this module, i spent the entire 2weeks studying for this module and in the end my results like shit, yes i know myself, im not particularly good at operations since the begining (Operational management) yucks to both topics, but the least i gave my best.. apprently my best isn't enuff and i envy people who can immediately get the concept right the first time and score 49/50 for the test!! I wonder what this people eat also..haha. But the thing is, i just don't like to be belong average or let alone be average, i desire to be the top, i desire to do well
I hunger for growth and power.. to be very frank the greatest fear to me is not cockroaches (yes im still scared) but is being average.. yes i hate this word average, i refuse to live simply, i refuse to be label as middle income , of couse this is not to say living simply and middle income is bad, it's just that i desire more.. to be acedamically well, financial free, impacting people etc. One of the things i dislike about my mum, is that she always tell people and me to live simply, this doesnt suit me at all..definately not.

But it seems that no matter what i do, how hard working or focus i am, i just seem to end up getting the short end of the stick..why is this so? Why god? Why is my academaic interlligence only soo much? Sometimes i even ask myself "im i really stupid?" "Do i belong in this school in the first place?" these indeed are negative thoughts and i try my very best to stop thinking such things. But sometimes it can;t be helped, my GPA is already trying to hit 2nd upper and banks they want is the minimum above second upper..wth. I have fears that i might be unemployable or worse end up in an average job.. damn. Perhaps this is where faith comes in, faith in the lord that he will provide whether thru business or employment or investments and guide my life. The future for me seems quite uncertain.. i don;t know what i really like or passionate about, i don't know whether my GPA will maintain or raise or fall, i don't know whether the current businesses im in is the right path, i don't know if im really qualified to be in this school etc soo many uncertainties. Sometimes it's really sad to realize you are not in the same ledge as others in terms of academaic and smartness. Seriously, im not happy in school, i havent been happy since the trip in tawian. I feel the things im doing is to meet expectations, i dont like it!.

But i have to reaffrim myself, that i am indeed "smart" yes i am.. i am SMART beacuse to realize that im not smart enough and reaffirming it, to counter the negativity , is indeed a smart move itself.. get it? lol. Coming back to the problems im facing, i will do my best again, perhaps try a different study style? i don;t know.. People who watch the anime bleach will realize this is the same problems many acrancars go thru , like they eat many other hollows can still cannot evolve into an espada. How can i reach this espada stage? I want to know..i really do!!!
something i wish i can have someone to talk to this about,someone who knows what im going thru , im i being spoiled? Im i being reactive? im i doing something wrong? Tell me plz.. tell me the right way and i will definately do it. I wish i had "him" back, though we have gotten quite apart recently, i wish i can go back in time to change somethings that happened between us (and perhaps put all my money into genting stocks..lol) but i can't turn time , the only way now is for me to move forward and trust the lord. And if i can send one sentence to Jesus now, this would be it "Hey God, help me to trust you and direct my thinking , my business, my book,studies ,investments and my life..surprise me plz!" amen.

Back to school

2010-08-11T21:01:00.001-07:00

"The best investment to start with, is the asset between your right and left ear..your brain"

Life's dream.

2009-12-13T01:18:00.000-08:00

Today church’s service was by far the most enlightening message I’ve ever received. It was sort of unexpected when I hear Pastor Kong said that he will be referring to a Christmas story in the bible, I expected something typical and plain but guess what..i was so damn wrong! I have to be honest, that I’ve underestimated the “Christmas story” from verses (Luke 1: 30 to Luke 2: 52) which depicts the happenings between Mary-Birth of Jesus and the angels talking to her. The main topic of the sermon was “Life’s dream” how to make it successful and meaningful. Many a times we (especially Singaporeans) are thought to strive it big out there, to earn tons of money, to lead a successful and rich life in order to feel good about one’s self and other will respect you..respectively. Another school of thought is to live simply and enjoying life as it is. Search your inner peace, live happily, contented, plain and simple is good do not care what others think of you etc
I’m a type of person that cannot live simply to be frank, I prefer much the latter school of thought , which is to strive for big things. But then again, I’ve seen people who are deemed “big” in life living miserablely , having make so much money but still not really happy inside(yes this is very true), I’ve also seen people because of making it that big, their egos turn them into haughty monsters with demeaning eyes, in addition people who just like to live simply, not having goals, pointless in whatever they do, they lead a boring uneventful life, bluffing themselves that life is like that, not giving a shit about what people think about them is also one situation I would want to avoid leading my life into. So since both sides of living the prefect life have their weaknesses, which type of life should I go for? That was today sermon all about. The pastor highlighted the importance of achieving a dream from GOD, by following that dream, will lead you to a better if not a perfect life. So the very first step is to

1) Get your dream from GOD (Luke 1:30-33)
In order to succeed in life, you got to get a vision /dream from none other than our creator GOD/Jesus. Having said that, you need to first have an encounter with Jesus, which is what I managed to wrote down. What I think the pastor is trying to say here is to constantly repent (because sin draws you away from God) and make an effort to draw closer to GOD by reading his word, lovingly him wholeheartedly, building a relationship with him and then ask him for a dream, a purpose, your purpose, what are you supposed to do on earth in accordance to his will.

2) Asking God for a strategy (Luke1: 34) The pastor talked about asking God through prayer, like which school should go to? What subjects should I take? Which career should I choose? etc Ask him to open doors for you not you opening doors for yourselves. Perhaps then it is best to always pray before making major decisions in your life. In addition, once that opportunity or door is open, or going to open you must have faith that it is the right path for you. Having childlike faith is important, shows that you trust him with your life.

3) Let the Holy spirit come upon you (Luke 1:35) With regards to praying, there are many forms of prayers, it could be casual like just talking to God, telling him how you feel about this, gossiping to him about certain people etc lol..another type will be serious praying, pray until you break into the spiritual realm, like what pastor Kong said about him spending 30mins speaking in tongues until he focused on God without any distractions in his mind. I find his revelation about “pray until you enter into the spirit realm” quite fascinating. I’ve never prayed like that before, could always try. Also mentioning about speaking in tongues, the main purpose of doing so is not for others to hear you speaking it but to allow the holy spirit to enter your soul. Constantly speaking in tongues will allow the holy spirit to guide you in life easily as time goes by. I must admit, until now I cannot speak in tongues, I always pray with understanding , I find tongues very hard to achieve because I’m a very logical person , perhaps again I should give this a try. =D

4) Balance. Next is this step whereby you need to have a balance between being spiritual and knowing and applying the word. Some people are so spiritual that they are so obsessed with getting slain, constantly crying and getting deliverance, they are people who everyday they claim to see angels and hear voices in their heads. On the other hand one also cannot be so obsessed with the word, they are people memorizes the bible and easily shoot out verses at a moment’s notice, having their hearts so stone cold that they are not sensitive to the holy spirit or God. Just like eating everything in balance is important, so does one have to have a balance between two important aspects of being a true Christian.

5) Surrender to the will of GOD, trusting him by having faith. This point is the most enlightening among the 7 steps, it basically asking you, that at the end of the day GOD must be more important than your dreams, desire and your blessings. If you get a vision from God telling you to follow this path in life, can you do it without any guarantee of having a blessing? Even if there is no financial blessing by following the path chosen for you, will you still obey? Pastor Kong said that, even if there is no heaven, him walking with Jesus alone is MORE THAN ENOUGH! Wow!

6) You will face threats of losing your dream (Luke 2: 42-44) This is a short point he shared , that there will be attacks, trails and tribulations, events, happenings, problems created by yourselves or Saturn to derail you from your dream, what is important that you always come back to the house of the Lord and be deeply rooted in the bible. Therefore I always pray to God to help me love his word despite it being a bit boring during some of the chapters Ive read.

7) Finally the last point is that God’s dream will grow and increase in your life. (Luke 2:52)
God doesn’t want you to live a plain normal life AMEN! That what i really want to hear, beacuse im soo scared to lead a boring plain life. He wants me to be a world shaker, a history maker for his kingdom. Sounds more like the first school of thought yeah? This time however if God is really incharge of your life, you’ve have a dream or vision from him, to know which direction or path to take on, I strongly believe nothing will overcome you for he is greater inside of you then he who is outside? Something along that line..LOL.. a merry Christmas to all and a warm and welcoming new year ahead! ^^

University of Stress.

2009-10-10T20:58:00.000-07:00

Today im be sharing with my readers somethings that are not soo pleasing to me since entering into uni. At first i was looking forward to uni, having thought that NS will a pure waste of my time and wanting to move forward with my life. Thinking that life will be much better in NUS then in NS, but i was dead wrong. It seems there is almost no difference in the level of suffering whether you add in a "U" between the "N" and "S".

Ever since entering into uni, the work pile just slams right into your face, projects, presentations, group discussion, research work, report reviewing, essay writing are ENDLESS! Not only that, the tutorials and lectures are fast and difficult to understand. All these with the grace of God, im can manage (bearly actually)... what makes my suitation worse is that many students in school are doing much better then me, they are soo damn smart , some of my friends don't even bother to come to lectures and yet can scored very well for their mid term whereas my results are borderline 50-60/ 100 marks <-- shocking arh.. yes i did study, i spend many hours studying ,doing projects , reviewing hmk etc and yet my results are disappointing.

Sometimes i feel very left out in terms of intellect , how can some of my friends be able to enjoy sch CCAs like ruby, mountain climbing, dragon boat, investment clubs and yet be able to do soo well? Some are able to grasp what the lecturer is saying immediately , some are soo damn rich they really dun give a damn because they can fall back on the pile of $ that their parents left for them. Sometimes i can;t help it, i swell up with envy and jealous , even though i keep a smiling poker face everytime some idiot ask me "hows you're result arh? I got full marks you know?"

I must also admit, i feel stupid at times, i have thoughts like do i really deserve a place here? Im going to drop out soon ..

But like always, God and his word is always there, to not only comfort me but show me the right direction.

What im going through now, are one of the many trails in my life. Perhaps the lessons i going to learn or have learnt from entering uni is this

1)Learning how to cope with arrogant people

-the way they talk, act, showoff, can i control my own emotions being around these people? How will i react? Can i learn not to feel jealous or envious? I really need to STOP comparing with others, for others have their own strengths and i have my own.

2)Learning to deal with disappointments

-Results are already like that, ive tried my best, i will try harder, i must not give up, trusting the God, whether im going to drop out or not, whether i get all Bs and Cs on my result slip, whether i'll be able to take honors, it doesn't really matter, what really matters is whether i tired my best NOT for my own achievements but for God's glory (this law is damn hard to apply btw ) If everything im going to do is for God's glory, then there will not be a need to feel jealous at all.

3)Increase inner endurance and determination to move on despite the disappointments

-Perhaps then these mountain of workload is to help me manage my time well, to study the important points, to quicken my understanding, to be able to think quicker, to learn to cope with mental study stress and i must not insult God to think that im a stupid person. For stupidity comes in many forms like not learning from life's trails and tribulation, blinded by past achievement and own arrogance.

4)Reminding that im just a steward , that nothing on this earth actually belongs to me.

Trails and tribulations in life are always there, God wants me to experience these situations so that i may develop inner endurance (Perseverance) , to drill in the fact that we are stewards on this earth and to cultivate more of my faith.

Im i saying all these to comfort myself? Maybe.. but i want to be able to be like Job, when he was suffering terribly in his time, he not only not curse God, but continue to give praise, he came out of his situation a matured & doubly blessed man. I want to be like those three who got thrown into the hot furnace and wasn't harm because of their faith, in turn impacting the people around them.

I have indeed alot of learn, there are more trails coming as my uni's final year exam is coming next mth, how will i react, what will i do? . (soo damn fast, ive only been in uni for like 2mths...) God please... i ask only for one thing help me get thru this by giving my more faith.

It's as simple as that(Purposes of life)

2009-08-22T20:47:00.000-07:00

* We were planned for God’s pleasure, so your first purpose is to offer real worship.
* We were formed for God’s family, so your second purpose is to enjoy real fellowship.
* We were created to become like Christ, so your third purpose is to learn real discipleship.
* We were shaped for serving God, so your fourth purpose is to practice real ministry.
* We were made for a mission, so your fifth purpose is to live out real evangelism.

Johor TBC

2009-08-13T09:13:00.000-07:00

QET-mentally bombarded.

2009-07-15T22:19:00.000-07:00

I've just finushed my QET today as of 11.45am at the NUS Sport hall. The purpose of the test is to ensure "poly" students have the proper standard of english before they let us commence on our respective course. The test, consists of 1)Spotting grammer errors 2)Comprehension and 3)Eassay writing 15marks allocated for the first two segememts and 70marks for the latter.

Sounds simply right? I should pass right? Now come to think of it, i could very well not pass this test and will be forced to take additional classes to 'improve' my english. The thought of it makes me feel very annoyed and of course unhappy la. Why the negative thought? I don't think i did well beacuse of the eassy writing part... it's not that i don't know how to write, but my mind blanked out when trying to establish certain points for the eassy , points which of course must consist of 'for' tand 'againist' the argument and must also have counter argument points in addition must make sure the eassy writtern must be convincing and must used the passages and cite example in Singapore. With soo many variables to consider and remember, my mind not only blanked out at the in approiate time, but it kept on thinking of many unessary thoughts, thoughts which of course have little value in passing the QET. hiaz.. i don't understand why i think let that also, keep on emphasing on wirting properly but end up not doing so, keep jumbling many other points together and its not well planned or organised.. wa lu ..come to think of its going to be jia lat liao..zzz

I wish for the best no doubt, just pass also can for me, and come to think of it this is my first eassy writtern since O levels i shouldnt be soo hard on myself perhaps. But damn it la, if i fail means it will be my very first failure in NUS and its not a good omen or starting to begin my uni education lor. Btw i think i saw Elvin from media corp buying sandwhich at Subway this afternoon. He is sure good looking and musclar, not that im gay or anything, but i get envious and jealous of good looking people male or female for that matter and i blame/look down on myself for not being soo. Aiyo.. why soo many envious thoughts le.. perhaps if i really understood that the phrase "Only for the glory of God i should be concern" dumb mind of mine. >_<

The Fire within

2009-07-05T21:27:00.000-07:00

The fire, refers not to passion, heatiness or the holy spirit. It refers to the hatred within me that i want to lament about in this article. Yes, any normal individual will experience this feeling and it's probably not a concern if one is able to maintain proper control over it and not let this feeling overcome ones' action, speech and thinking. Yet on my side of the argument, i feel that as im about to finish my national service at a certain place which cannot be mention due to the possibility of defamation suits, the anger experienced these two years have been kept inside my heart not realising that i have low inability to let out this feeling.

Of course im grateful to God that he placed me in such an ideal setting that is properly the best vocation ever for any NSFs, i still feel angry beacuse i do not like to be bullied, manipulated, used or forced to do stuff that i do not like such as the compulsory greetings of higher ranks etc. But that's just insignificant compared the misused of rank power, the degrading eyes which i always felt being issued to me, the petty complains and jealousy felt by other NSFs etc. i just don't understand why some of my camp friends are soo jealous that they have to resort to name callings and casting irksome looks, what's there to jealous about? Yes, im basically given almost no work for long periods of time, it's not that i didn't ask for work or im lazy for that matter, i did ask, but there isn't really any work to be given to me, so what can i do to satisfy these green eyes monkeys? Beg for work? Maybe, but i don't beg. Self volunteer to do extra work? Maybe, but i already made a commitment never to do more then i'm given because i hate the organisation and have really no interest in what they say,do,plan or think. My interest and theirs' are worlds apart. Soo maybe the blame can be on me "heck" caring about them. But i still do see the point.

Of course those name callings like "Ivan is lazy" wasn't said outright in my face as most cowardly gossips are, but i've spys planned in almost every department in this camp, these spies could also be the ones instigating on such gossips and ill-talks but who cares, as long as i know who are the ones bad talking about me that's more then enough to me.

Another thing that angers me even more is that fat egg whose name i also cannot say, talks soo god-damn loud inthe office, noxious and inconsiderate like a buffoon on the lose. Although these two years, our paths have not crossed until last week , it was the very first time i and him disagreed on a certain matter which revolves around me taking off for my Birthday . Too, cut the long story short, to me, he abused his authority and forced me to accept punishment that is established on very weak basis, he didnt let me finish my argument , let alone allow me to justify my case, speaking soo loudly that even the sleeping crows outside my office woke up.
Every sentence that came out from my mouth was rudely interrupted and ignored. Is this what the next generation leader is all about? What about those philosophical lessons that you keep repeating to others? Like "treat others like you treat yourselves" "Listening is one vital aspect in life" tsk tsk, come to think of it, that fat egg is damn hypocritical.

Yet the bible says, that one should look at their own faults first then onto others (something about the plunk in your own eyes and the speck in others) , didnt i just called someone a "fat egg" despite really looking like one? Why can't i deal with people who rub me the wrong way properly ? Like forgiveness and stuff.. hiaz.

I properly need to reserach more on how to deal with diffuclt people , because in my world, im very sure there will be alot more shit heads to deal with .

Killing the green eyed monster.

2009-06-21T23:19:00.000-07:00

An article given to me. It reads:

" Are you feeling jealous of the success, beauty or intellect of a friend? Do you find yourself wishing you were as lucky as him or her? Is it possible that unconsciously you may wish them wrong , look for faults in the person in older to feel better about yourself?

Envy..happens to us all. When we perceive qualities we deem to be superior to our own in others, it's normal to feel dissatisfied. But what do we do about this discontentment? Do we allow it to faster and reveal itself in hateful forms?

The green eyed monster hurts the person who possesses it the most. While you are busy worrying about what the next person is doing , they are busy pursuing their own lives. They may be chasing after their dreams, concentrating on a strict fitness regimen and so on. So what is the outcome of this situation? While they get the results they want in life you are still standing there. Bitter :(

So if the green eyed monster is slowly taking hold of you, here are some ways you can get rid of it. Take time to get to know your self better . Instead of squandering your precious time on other people, identify your own talents and strengths. How you can develop them? Once you know your true emotions and desires the less you would want anyone Else's life or success .

Work continuously to improve yourself. People are not born perfect or superior to others, but successful individuals have the ability to stay open-minded and acquire or enhance their skills

Understand that everyone is different. There are attributes in others you could not possibly possess no matter what you do, but in the same way you have wonderful qualities nobody else has. Remb always focus on your advantage.

Measure success in your own terms. A CEO may earn tons more then you but do you really want his life? His workload , his responsibilities , his duties? You can be successful in your own way.

The reality of life is that no matter how powerful, rich or successful you may become, there is always going to be someone on top of you. But, do not forget , this rule can also be applied the other way too. There 's always going to be someone less fortune than you.

Appreciate what you have.

And go after your dreams, develop your interests. Once you materialize some of your goals yourself esteem will receive a boost and the less space you Will have in your life for the green eyed monster."

So basically to sum up what i have learnt from this article in terms of dealing with jealousy

1) Analyst the situation you are in. Why are you feeling jealous/ envious?

2) Ask yourself, what can you do now to achieve that standard? Is it possible? If so, start doing something about it.

3) Do also keep in mind that everyone is different, life is unfair get used to it. Acceptance is crucial

4) Appreciate what you have now/ or done through out your time on earth.

5)* Of course Christians' have an advantage in this, we should concentrate on honoring God instead of ourselves, then why feel jealous in the first place?

Enlightenment!

2009-04-23T18:52:00.001-07:00

Its been a long time since i blog anything personal in my life. Been busy with a lot of stuff like planning what to invest next, researching on how to value Reits, learning more about the finnancial world and commincation skills. Recently, these pass few mths, i have been feeling rather jumpy about myself, there were many negative feelings such as jealous/envy/hatred and anger. Very obvious why im developed these feelings... NS.. damn it.. i always feel i hv wasted my entire two years, serving these people, doing things i don't like etc. The feeling of jealousy probably came from some of my friends..a particular group to be precised, their rich and they countiue to get richer, they can invest a lot, they know many things, their more experienced, respected etc etc, i feel damn jealous and envious, and with these feelings, i always ask myself , can i do better? Can i be like them one day? I fear i might lead a boring life, i fear i become an AVERAGE ASIAN, i fear that i will not be respected , i fear i might not be able to make a million bucks next time and of course i feel lonely, not beacuse i dont have friends, i have them , plenty, but i feel i lack good friends who really care about each other (people like Xiao Shi and my cousin).. again "good" is subjective soo just leave it as that.

So one evening while walking back from camp, this beautiful BMW run passed me, i feel all jealous again.. then i stop for a min and ask myself.. why the heck im i like that? Why feel soo upset over a damn car? Why is my mind soo chaotic?Why is my life soo F**ked up? I suddenly felt soo pathetic..soo many questions i cannot answer, but then again there might not be a need for these answers , all i need to do was to pray, this sudden thought came to my mind.. soo ok lor. I stated a short prayer, asking God these answers, and of course i didnt get anything vocal out of that prayer, there was slience after that, but i suddenly felt assured and comfortabled. As i continued to walk back home, a sudden realisation hit me, i remembered reading some where before, that my exsistence on earth is not about me, but it's ALL ABOUT GOD. I realised that i was too arrogant, self centred and self expecting too much, that is why everything is going chaotic and felt not right, i also realised that many (in fact all) of my friends are arrogant , they work, study, invest, talk soo hard bascially for themselves..and the worse one is none other then me, the person who felt jealous over these people who put themselves on the throne! That's how pathetic im, i really have to set my paroties right, not to put myself on the throne, but Jesus. I have to die inside every singal day according to the bible. Its not easy, but im trying. Beacuse when i first came into these world, my main goal was to get to heaven right? Yeah.. (self answering) soo in order to do that is thru knowning and believing in Him, sorry mistake again, is to love him first.

Yet God also expects me to do my best and be good at what i do soo, there also shouldnt be not excus why i can't lead an exciting life, or earn a million bucks or having many good friends, those are important no doubt, but what really matter is my relationship with him and all these "thing" will be added onto me? Well, guess i have to read up more.. :]

3mths to go.

2009-03-30T23:34:00.000-07:00

Yes 3mths to my pre ORD date..opps ROD date, mistake mistake. Am i happy? Yes of course, the chains of my service are weakening and once the 1000 years are over (actually only 22.5mths) Ivan (which is my current name) and his angels will be release and we will rule the world (take over singapore 1st la) . I feel very pointless in serving my nation thru doing only things like fileing, reading emails, guard duty and doing up powerpoint. I also have no right to complain, as God (don't know if its his will or grace or both) have put and blessed my tremedously me in a beautiful camp with alright supervisors and everyday can come home which was what i really desired. Having said that, there are of course some people in my camp that are not happy with me, apprently i can sense their jealousy and resentment , espically from a certain department. But im not angry at these people, beacuse jeslous ppl are all around and i do get jealous myself. What makes me angry is the reason for causing them to be jealous at me in the 1st place. And what is this reason or reasons for causing this anger towards me? What i gathered soo far is probably a lesson that can be both learnt by me or people who reads this post.

One of the most possible reason is , beacuse im not deemed "useful" in camp which was a result of many mths of soo called "slacking" and doing the things i like. Now, i myself also hate "lazy and un-useful" people like KY. But the fact is there is really NO work for me to do in camp!! Then what im i supposed to do? Beg for work ? Maybe..but i choice not to,beaucse i rather i invest my time learning all the finnanical skills and other skills such as "how to teach an adult to swim within 3mths that kind" that will be useful to me in the future, im very sure i was not wasting my time in camp, beacuse of another fact i used the time to prepare for NUS, to plan out my portfolio, to test out different market approaches, to learn A-maths and Japanese etc etc But even though i was actually wasting time in camp, its really none of their business to show resentment at me.
I think the people i know in my camp should really think about this espically my bubbies

1)What use is there to be soo commited in office?

2)Whats the point in building relationship with these people? What use is there once you leave the camp and have parted ways with them?

3)Whats the point in getting envious about me when the fact is there is NO work for me to do and i really tired asking for work?

4)What is the reason in getting on the "good" side of these bosses in camp? Do you think they will keep contact with you after you have left

These are questions to ponder about escpially if your working in a place where you really have no desire to countiue to work but forced to work for two years if not you cannot live in singapore.. ==

At my Wits End.

2009-01-11T18:53:00.000-08:00

Wow, its been awhile since i came back to this blog! Not much has happen, as usual, my current friends are still like this #### ##*, also not much has happen in Nothing Speical^ also. In fact i feel kind of bored these few mths, lucky there are entities like the stock market and my portfolio to keep me sane and happy. "Nothing Special" has really wasted my time.... time and time again i keep saying this , time and time and again i keep telling myself, to make full use of the time given. But the question is, have i? Have i growth intellectly/Spritually/Confidently and sociably?
Looking at my 2008 goals i did up in Dec 14th 2007. I stated the following goals to accomplished

1)Improve on Knowlegde about finnancial world/Stocks/Warrant trading etc
(Which i did and im quite proud of it)

2)Set up Swimming lessons and other related businesses like Drum/Tuition to get extra income
(Which i did, i collected about a few thousands doing so)

3)To know God better and improve my relationship with him
(This is the part, i think i didn;t do soo well)

4)Learn Japanese
(This part also, struggling, i lack to discipline to memorise the words)

5)Improve on communication skills and make more friends
(Say about 60%, more needs to be done here)

Looking at my goals and the level of progress at hand, i think im proud to say i did manage to reach some of them, but again more needs to be done, like improving on finncial knowledge (Learn Valuation, Learn Merger , Learn swaps , option trading etc)

One thing i have to confess though, for the whole year of 2008, i only attended my "CHC" only twice, yes TWICE!! My cell group friends have been pastering me to join them and they finally gave up in 15th March 2008. 3 main reasons why i don't attend church

1)I wanted to test whether im a happier person, without going physically to church , but to listen to surmons on the internet, i wanted to test out, is there really is a need to be physically there, can the internet streaming sermon be enough (so to speak) for my soul?

2)CHC is located at Expo hor, i live in Jurong hor, the distance is like going to Tekong every sun hor, quite tiring and exhausting hor!

3)Busy with things like Tuition/Swimming Lessons/Drumming lessons etc

And now the funny thing is, my hypothesis for no.1 is internet sermons CANNOT subsitude the experiences and soul enriching experience being physically there. I feel very drained, tired and unhappy these few mths, could it be mostly due to "Nothing Special", negative thoughts like envy, jealousy, hate , revegue kept arounding me.
And surprisingly , my swimming lessons and drumming lessons some how stopped. No more, gone out of the window due to reasons like close down, economy not good cannot countiue to swim, misunderstandings between me and the boss etc Tuition, omg, parents nowadays can't even afford $250 for 3 subjects for primary sch lessons. Wao lao, they expect cheap cheap lessons like $80-$90 a mth. Reason? Again the economy is to blame. I can;t help but feel that God is also responsible for this downturn in my life [Downturn =Recession in Temp job+ Nothing Special] maybe he is trying to get me back into church , maybe he is trying to install perservence in me.. whatever the case, it dosen't feel good, i want MONEY! I like to save ok! WHo knows, things might get even worse in the future like Uncle David getting retranched, like the garden in church caught fire, or Nothing Speical gets thougher to deal with, whatever the case, its best not to anger God, I think its time for me to go back to Church. ^_^

*Don't want to elaborate more if not get scolded
^NS

Warren Buffet Wealth by Robert P.Miles

2008-11-27T21:33:00.000-08:00

Warren Buffett WealthHaving a disastrous record of 50% paper losses from my portfolio with another 3k of realized losses, I been pondering if I am a cut into trading/investing and kept asking what wrong with myself as some peers that I met online achieving a good track record in their investment and one friend of mine who has influence me into stock investing reaping a good profit by both trading and investing...My friend had mentioned that I have started off using trading techniques without cutting losses, ignoring crucial valuations, suggests that I read some books about investing and recommended me Warren Buffett Wealth – Principles and Practical Methods Used by the world’s Greatest Investor.This book gave a brief introduction about Warren Buffet, the investment talent he processes and his investment journey showcasing some of this brilliant investment he made since he was young such as reselling the coke from house to house with a decent return on investment of 20%(which later in life he acquired the shares), the joint business venture of pinball machine that boost his wealth substantially, the key investments in GEICO Auto Insurance, Coca-cola and Washington Post.It also introduces general principles like “Learning from the Best to be the Best”, "one needs to devote his efforts in order to be successful" and shares with us that wealth is created through owning a business. It also teach an important concept of the Down Market Test where the true measure of a successful investor is not a comparison of performance against the NASDAQ, DJI, S&P but rather how well a portfolio performs during down markets.

It then relates the key processes to become wealthy:
- Begin investing and building wealth early
- Have confidence
- Understand accounting and how business work
- Set Goals
- Save, invest, and live below your income
- Read, study businesses over many decades before you invest- Be a business analyst, not a market analyst
- Concern yourself with what is going on inside a business, and free yourself of any concern with what is going on in the outside markets
- Learn to value business and purchase pieces of them for below what you think they are worth- Make a list of traits that you admire and before you know it you will become the person you want to be- Create another set of character traits that you don’t admire which will also remind you of the person you don’t want to be
- Write down the habits you want to develop
- Select your mentors carefully
- Identify what passion you have that could create wealthIt also shows why wealth is created by owning business by giving an excellent example of how the ownership of a business created wealth and how the Barnes Foundation of Philadelphia strict rules against business ownership bankrupt its own funds as inflation drain the funds which only focuses on fixed income securities (bonds).Then it prompted you to evaluate what kind of investor are you and show define what is an active investor and a passive investor, and the difference between an investor and a trader (speculator). It stated that this is important as it will determine ability to create wealth. Below are the definition of investors and the differences of an investor and a trader (speculator).Definition of 2 types of investorPassive investor
- not wanting or enjoying the day to day activity of evaluating investmentsActive investor
- hands on, fascinated, energetic participant who enjoys intensive reading and learning about all things related to finance, business, the economy and the investment worldStock Speculators VS Business OwnersBusiness owner is concerned with what’s going on inside the business
– with its employees, customers, strategic plan, growth and sales, expense and cost reduction, as well as increasing profits and earnings.Speculator is more concerned about what is going on outside the business or the stock’s market price: the speculator buys something today in order to sell it later at a higher price. “The sooner the better” is the motto of every trader and speculator. Speculator focus on the price, and owners focus on the business. Speculators are market analysts; owners are business analystQuestion to ask yourself if you are an owner or a trader.1) Are you concern with the present and future earnings of a business, or are your evaluating the only its price?2) Are you influenced by reading and research? Or do others influence you? (Following the madness of crowds)Value investingWarren buffet and most value investors are by nature independent thinkers and get little satisfaction by being with the crowd. They do their own research and read nonstop. They observe others but do not follow, taking great delight in choosing their own path. Important step is to do some self discovery to determine your investment expectations, your time frame, and your risk tolerance.Next, it guided us to develop our philosophy (plan) to achieve our results and speaks about the principles and methods Buffet use.Warren Buffet PhilosophyRule number 1: Don’t lose capitalRule number 2: Don’t forget rule number 1Buffet Investment Principles1.Know what you own2.Research before you buy3.Own a business, not a stock4.Make a total of only lifetime investments5.Make one decision to own a stock and be a long term ownerBuffet method (cigar butt method)Old economy stocks that have one or two puffs of earnings left (businesses that have low P/E with a lifespan of twenty years or less)Attempt to buy a dollar worth of assets for 50 cents ( buy things for less that they worth)Work out how much a business will pay you between now until judgment day. Discount that back to today and attempt to buy them cheaper.Buy business you understand, with favorable long term prospects, operated by competent and honest people and available at attractive prices.Calculation Method UsedValue Investing – it is about the careful review and calculation of a company’s book value and intrinsic value and its relationship to market value.Book value is the simple subtraction of assets from liabilities.Intrinsic value concept—what will you pay for a machine that generates $1 a year for ten years? You wouldn’t pay $10 because you would be just getting your money back over 10 years. You wouldn’t pay $9 today to get $1 a year for 10 Years, which would be a return of 11/1%, or 1% a year. What you would pay is determined by how much you seek in return on your investments. You seek an 11% annual return, which happens to be the long term rate of return o equalities over the last several decades, you will offer $3.52 for this machine.Other methods: Present Value Calculation or Discounted Cash flowWays to evaluate Business1) First, he looks at the business. Is it simple? Is it in an industry that he understands? Is it a high profit margin business? Any Debt? What is its return on equity?2) Then he looks at its managers. Are they candid? What are their expansion plans? Are they well financed? How much Business do they own?3) Then he looks at the market place. What is the business value? Can it be purchased at a discount to its market value?Finally, wealth building requires that you know the valuation, price or management influence whether you’re buying, you know the management, the competition, and you understand what would be an attractive stock price.
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This article was copied from http://noob-trader.blogspot.com/, which i really likes, how he summarise important timeless investment principals.

Being on the radio..

2008-11-06T17:59:00.000-08:00

Surprise surpise! I was being interviewed by Live 938 Fm for information regarding DBS triple happiness fund. Its my first time ok, i know its nothing big.. but come on! Im probably the first "Ho" family memeber to get on radio right?! Plus with an interview like that to spice up my espically boring life (NS), i couldnt ask for more.
Basically, this Lady journalist (very nice person) found my analysis on the forum , thus she was interested on my take and feeling as an investor of that fund. So i just provided her with my analysis on my take on the fund and then got on radio lor. Well come to think of it, its pretty short, like 10s the most. But im glad to at least have a little taste of what is like being on the radio. Beacuse arh.. for soooo many times, ive been trying to get 978fm to play my songs and hear my dedications, but always can't get thru to them..ahah who wouldve thought a radio wanting to get thru to me ! Quite honored and humbled la, makes me want to work even harder,smarter and gain more knowlegde on finnance and investment.. omg im like soo pumped up about investments-amen to that. I want to know/master/understand/apply the art,techquie and functions of investing wisely and the know hows of the finnacial world. This interview has surped me to go all out to persue my interests and not other pointless activities like tution,aiming for As in my studies, drumming(espeaiclly those that involve japanese ones) and swimming. Well im quite tired of bragging , just for the record, i copied down the scrip from Live 9.38 Fm regarding my interview. :]

-----------------------Updated: 6th November 2008, 1940 hrs ---------------------------
Uncertainty for investors of Capital-Gauranteed Fund
Another group of investors in Singapore is feeling the heat from financial failures on Wall Street.Investors who bought into DBS Triple Happiness Capital Gauranteed Fund, have been informed that their money may not be protected afterall.That's because the fund was gauranteed by a subsidiary of US insurer A-I-G, which is in financial trouble and had to be bailed out by the US government in September.Irene Chan finds out more.So far, investors of the Triple Happines Fund have not been as vocal as the Lehman Minibond investors.Probably because Triple Happiness investors know AIG has received a financial lifeline from the US government.Still, they've been warned in a letter by the distributor of the product, DBS Asset Management,that there is a possibility AIG may run into bankruptcy.So in the event of a default by AIG, its subsidiary -- Banque AIG -- may not honour the capital guarantee on the Fund, and other agreements.22-year old NS man Ivan Ho, who had invested XX thousand dollars in the fund, says he was shocked when he received the letter from DBS Asset Management.He said the POSB relationship manager who sold him the product, had not even informed him at the time that the fund was guaranteed by a third party."I was interested in investing in government bonds, then they recommended me this product, saying that it's like government bonds, very safe, 100 percent return back your capital. So when I first saw the letter, I was in shock, I don't wish to lose all my capital. I would be very upset if the fund actually collapses, because the money is actually for my university studies."But Mr Ho says he's now calmer.DBS Asset Management had assured him that none of the underlying securities have defaulted at this stage and that it's monitoring the situation at AIG.Nicholas Chew, financial consultant at independent private wealth management firm, Providend, explains a number of things can happen under such circumstances.
"If the guarantor goes, then the trustee of the notes can try to get another guarantor. But if worse come to worst, they have to trigger an early termination of the notes, what the investors get back is the market value of the underlying securities less costs. The problem is, in times like these, the underlyings would be hit quite badly."
In the event where investors dispute the outcome, Mr Chew says the course of action for them is to lodge a complaint with the financial institution, or FIDRec, the Financial Industry Disputes Resolution Centre.

Update.

2008-09-07T09:13:00.000-07:00

OK ppl, i will be creating two new blogs soon, updating this one and creating a new one that is dedicated to investments. The reason why i took down the chat box is beacuse some ppl love to play prank and say alot of mean things on it. Well, some ppl also very coward , face look like shit, attitude also like shit. AIya, the more i think about it the more disgusted i feel, i think i will not talk bad about this kind of ppl. Yes im angry..but it can;t be helped. Wasting my time. Alright, ppl who read my blog, look at for the new update and my new investment blog ok hehe. Rex out~

Enough is really ENOUGH!

2008-07-11T22:55:00.000-07:00

Im soo fcking pissed off today, dun mind my language, but really fcked up day. All beacuse of one incident on BUS 157 , i was heading home after an annoying drum job . Boarded the Bus 157 at 12.46pm as at 12 Jul7 2008. As the bus was packed with people, i had no choice but to stand. Took out my business times to read up on the economy and other analyst opionons on stocks, put on my Ipod and enjoyed songs from avril,Justin etc and out the corner of my eye, i notice this bloody idoit old man again. Why bloody idiot? why the quick juggment? Simple, cause i met this old idiot on the bus before, not twice but four times liao since 2007 to now. I don;t understand why i keep meeting this old idiot on Bus 157, i just dun understand, of all the fcking buses he can take, he must be on the same bus with me. DAMN it God!
Soo whats wrong with this old bloody idiot? Simple, not only he is old and idiotic, he is mentally unstable . Yes, mentally unstable, according to my memory bank, the lst time he was on the bus, he scolded an innocent 23 year old girl (very chiong one) non stop just beacuse the she sat too quickly beside him in the process woke him up. Yup, this mental old idiot was on th bus today and his victim today was none other then me.. FCK!
One of his mental habits is to keep stareing at people , non-stop. Stare and stare and stare and stare, not even blinking and thats simply annoying. Ok soo he was looking my way for some fcking reason , which i couldnt care less. After 15mins , he suddenly reach out and poke me with his disgusting long nailed middle finger, said in chinese that i was blocking his cool air coming from my own aircon cooler hole. FCK i tell u, not only he fcking annoy me , he fcking touched me and thats a Big no no... to add it off, after he sat down, he kept scolding me in chinese and a mixture of hokkien, saying " this boy is siao , siao siao siao" say soo many times siao , proves that he really is siao..btw he scolded my for like another 20mins before i got down. (Fck the bus driver also for driving soo slowly)

But what shocked me the most , is the sudden surge of anger. Really, i nv felt soo much hate for any human before, but then, i don;t consider that old retarded a human. What amaze me, is i was soooo angry that i feel soo much heat and negative engergy surging from my skin and my entire mind and body, i think the person standing besides me felt it. My mind was like racing, thinking of what to take and grab, possibliy an unbrella, or that fire extingusher attached besides the bus driver, i want to literally sink..no ramp the object into his disgusting face, just like those horrible cartoons in Happy tree friends. The sound of his crashed bones and swelling face plus a few cancerous bloody clots on his face was very temping. Very temping indeed, i soo wanted to do it but luckly logic kicked in,i could possibly go to jail or fine for causing such carnage to that old fart, somemore i don't have gloves (finger prints) and a cap (hp camerer) to cover my tracks. BUt really enough is really enough, too much have i seen mental people on the trains, buses and on the roads, too long have i endured and showed them mercy and recieve none in return, how much longer must i endure such people? WHy isn;t IMH doing their job? How are these people running amok all over singapore? And God.. if you allow me to be in that suituation again, i have no choice but to surcumb to my sinful nature ok.. enough is really enough liao, if i see that old retarded mental disgusting old man again on bus 157 , I swear i will fellow him until he alights and who knows what might happen? who knows.. but You god will know . ok ~Pissed rex

Cosco...

2008-07-07T00:29:00.000-07:00

Godsakes... its soo hard to forecast the intrinsic value of Cosco.. making me very annoyed and mad...whole afternoon doing up the DCF for Cosco.. think about growth rate, think about net working capital, think so think that, some times the value also abit off..like 90% increase in sales.. ya.. as if the company can continue to do so.. sian... im like very slow in my valuation..hiaz ..God, you the only one can help me now, WHAT should i invest in?!!!
I know that S-shares have fallen soo much.. but how much more can in fall? Aiyo.. headach. ~Rex out

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~

2008-06-29T09:36:00.000-07:00

Alright guys, make this a quick one, as of 30 June 2008 , my real age is 22, yes borned on the 13th hour of the earth tiger year 1986. No! Im not 21 as many ppl have per recieved, No im not 19 also (though i may look 19 haha) and yes today's entry will be what i have achieved soo much and much thanks to God who had a hand in almost every achievement im about to list down.

At the age of 22 i have soo far achieved

1) Getting into local uni, even rejected one of the big three
-Inspired and challenged by my cousin to do well
-Never looking back at those yuhua , normal acedemic days
-Thanking God for every Distinctions and As

2)Opened my eyes to the wonderful world of stocks
-Still learning and will always be learning
-Now investing wisely and properly

3) Cheated Nothing Speical
-Didnt really go tekong if you know what i mean..haha Vorka and coffee
-Life is good for me in Nothing.S , free internet,free gym,having nice bosses,mixing around with high "R" ppl ..good but boring

4)Got my driving license
-As long can drive can liao, be practical

5) 28 Certificates under my wing
-All ranges from swimming to finnical analysing certificates

6)Able to teach drums and swimming to both adults and childern
-Amazing.. under 3 mths im able to do it. Amen ! With more $$ also haha

7)Spritiual growth with God
-Yes, having more time to talk to him
-Relationship with my creator/savior/friend/lord improving

8)Build up quite a reputation on shareinvestor.com
-Lots of annoying emails like more tips more tips
-Anooying..but.. im loving it ;]

9)Body building
-Size of biceps and cheat growing
-Too shy to say la

I think soo far 9 factors to be proud of, though some of them not really accpetable to God and so on. (Like no. 3) Alright, looking forward what i want to achieve when im 23-26
1)Finish the damn degree
2)Find a job i really like and am passionate about
3)Hunting down a girlfriend... YA RIGHT! You wish! I wouldnt lose to you racheal!!!
4)More sociable, establishing more useful high quality friends
5)Able to understand japanese
6)Investing properly and earning lots from my portoflios
7)Pleasing God even more and more more more more more!
Alright time for me to DOTA and enjoy the rest of the day off.
One last note to my future self
-Perception is nothing but and illusion , think and came to believe's on ones own experience and exposure.

Back to the past..

2008-06-13T00:09:00.000-07:00

Alright, today's entry will be a bit different.. i shall not talk about stocks and tips for this entry ..but im going to talk about time traveling. Without further a do , lets start this interesting entry. Last 2 days ago, while i was sitting down infront of laptop, watch Cosco stock go up down, up down , down again, up again ..was waiting to go in at a right price.. then suddenly i starting day dreaming , maybe out of sheer boredom or maybe beacuse im just too tired to read up another 270 over pages of annual reports. But the thing about this day dream was .. it was about Jesus and time travel. I imagined that i was in some kind of future, where technology was soo advance that it almost looked alien to me , the machineries , envoirnment were just soo complicated , people around me were wired , as in wires were sticking out of their ears and into their bodies, buildings were oddly shaped covered with dark glasses of all sorts, there were no birds but flying pieces of mental that looked like Ipods from a far and the weather was dark and sinister looking.
I find myself suddenly in a technological mechanical lap where people wearing all white were surrounding me (sry i lazy to describe in details cause it might take to long to write out the entire story. ), the lap was soo dark that i couldnt make up the faces, but there was a general feeling or rather a psychic knowlegde that all of us in the lap knew one thing ..we have a breakthrough euipment in our hands inother words , we could have possiblity created a portal that could break through time and space.
In front of me, stands a dark multi colored purple shaded portal , hovering over a complicated piece of machinery below it, sparks ocassionally wil fly out of the portal and it looks very unwelcoming to enter , it is as if anything that goes in ,would come out dead on the other side.

My people were doing all sorts all caculations on floating laptops , lazer touch screens were poping up everywhere and of course my people were touching everywhere also..lol. What were we caculating or studying ? We wanted to know whether it was safe to enter the portal, what would be the affects, if so who should we sent, what euipment should be place on the person, what time length was deemed accpetable? Was the time /space mixture suitable for human beings , should we consider sending an animal/robort 1st instead of humans? Soo many questions and yet no answer, the only thing left for me to do as the head incharge (which i think i was cause its MY day dream) was to take a step in first.
And soo i entered the portal , with my people screaming behind my back , something like STOP!, WHAT the FCK are you doing!, Please Don't! etc etc.
Once inside the portal, all my senses were..empty, i couldnt hear myself shouting, or even breathing, all i could see was pure darkness, a total emptiness of sorts.
(OK this part is were i think, i started really falling asleep after my day dream)
Somehow , just somehow i managed to get flushed out of the portal into the other side, half expecting to see my people in white coats reaching out to cushion my fall. But instead i fell face 1st into , natural dirt ..which was quite enjoyable the smell and taste of it beacuse in the future , there wasn't any natural dirt left , the floors,paveways were all covered with thick aluminum.
As i picked myself up, i realised that i was wearing the same white mentallic coat as my people , only was alot of badges of achievement/status/rank were sticking on it. Wiping some dirt away from my face and placing the natural dirt into a exprimental small high density plastic bag, my eyes scanned the enviornment which was barren with no one in sight but only a few woodlike short houses scattered across the landscpe , within each house was a dime candel light , that possibly light up the place. There were some cattle, cows eatting dry weeds.. the sky was dark but beautiful , with stars glistering at a distance with the occasional shooting stars , the wind was gental and calming. Soo peaceful was the envoirnment that i could hear myself ginerly walking towards the scatter of houses. Upon closer exmaination of the houses, they were made of white clay and the roof tops were made of oak like wood, i realised then , i was send backed into the past, how long ago into the past? I don't really know , anxiety started to creep into my heart as i was caculating the possibilty of the people in this time , how they would react, what will they do, will i myself be a threat that might alter the very struction and fabric of the future and time itself. I considered taking off my white coat and all my clothings for that matter incase it scares someone in this dimension. But i reconsidered that move beacuse i realised that my entire body espically the heart area was infused with wires and wercthed looking clips and tecnology. Confused and contemplating my next move, i accidently step over an overbacked odd shaped vessal that layed behind one of the houses, instantly i broke it and it created a noise that woke the people in the house up. I could hear them getting out of their wooden beds and heading for the door. Panicked i ran across the sanding ground , and hid behind a large oak tree nearby.
A few men came out to check , with oil lamps held steadly by their sides, they headed towards the broken vessel (which i broke) and started convering to themselves, their language sounded like hebrew or maybe jweish , but the important thing is.. i could understand what they were saying. They were saying to one another that it might be an animal that ran into the vessal or something like that, two women came out and and started getting pissed over the incident , one of them even got paranoid and speculated that it could be a thief , which made the other 4 men anxious as well. Women never change, i said to myself as i kept my glaze on all of them hiding behind that nice smelling oak tree.
Then this male like voice inside the house spoke, calling the women and men to come back in , assuring them that everything is fine, what shocked me the most is how gental yet powerful the voice of this person in the house sounded like, the tone and timber of his voice was majestic and awesome , yet at the same time fatherly and caring.
Who IS this person in the house? I want to meet him i told myself, the phrase "i want to meet him" turned into "I MUST meet him" when i heard one of the women replying "Yes Jesus..we are coming in" . How could that be? Jesus? Which Jesus? Jesus christ the one who saved mankind from enternal death, the one that over a few centeries that christians worldwide worshiped? I find myself asking alot of stupid questions and possiblities that it might not be the Jesus i expected, beacuse according to my data, there were 17 people named Jesus at that time.
Then that voice , the power of that voice reminded me of how comforting it sounded like.. i grew excited... in fact.. i felt soo happy and thankful that i was send back into the past, if i really met the one Jesus, the one who saved mankind, the one who died for the sins of this world ..what im i going to say to him? What should i do? Can he understand me? Does he even speak english?
More question and comtemping was happening in my head, as the light from that small house faltered out. Now the house was all dark.. time for me to make my appoarch once more to meet this Jesus.
Excitedly i ran sliently into the back of the house, i lowered my body so that i could appear less noticeable in the dark, as i crawled my way to the back of the house, closing near the edge .. i heard the back door open..someone came out of the house.. gave me a shock as i nearly wanted to turn around the coner to open the door myself. What shocked me even more is.. the person who came out said "I know you are here ..Ivan..just come out." In PURE PREFECT ENGLISH SOMEMORE!!!! and then i woke up from my dream =_=.. i realised i was in SAFTI MI..looking blurly at the laptop, as the stock market moves up and down.. im back to my wercthed place again. What annoyed me the most, is what could Jesus have said to me? What did he look like? Aiyo..sian ~ LOL......

IPO - Sino Contruction

2008-06-09T22:52:00.000-07:00

Why I will buy this stock
• Invited to participate in public tenders for the construction of the Daqing Airport and the relocation of Daqing Railway Station, which are expected to start in 2008
• Plan to tender for larger building construction and civil engineering projects with higher contract values
• Securing larger and landmark projects would boost corporate image and reputation
· Expand business to overseas markets
1) The above growth has not yet been factored into this stock, but again this are just plans in the future not happened yet.
2) Good track records, have many ISO certificates and most important their C2 licence
3) Strong cash flow and reserves
4) The continued strong investment growth and GDP growth in Daqing, according to their research such investments drives the demand for more officers, buildings etc.
5) Intrinsic value estimated at least $0.45 , optimistic view is about $0.68
6) At a price of $0.39 important ratio are as follows
- PE: 7.8 times
- PVB : 0.65
- ROE extremely high 21%, 30%, 70% possible?
Why I would be careful of this stock
1) Limited growth, as most of its growth is currently in Daqing, after all the construction and building, the question is what next? For this company.
2) Again, high oil prices affect its profit margin; they stated that they prepaid their suppliers thus reducing material cost and possibility of passing the cost to their clients.
3) There is a possibility that they might not get those big contract by government of other investors, thus might lose their C2 license
4) Under their P/L for 2007, most of the cost not really factored in like financial cost etc. Careful of window dressing.
5) Their account receivables are increasing fast every year. Watch out and be prepared for more defaults. However as stated in their annual report , their clients so far from 2005 to now , no defaults , all payments were fully paid.
Strategy: Buy, but don’t apply for its IPO. Very likely to drop in this coming few days as Oil prices are scarring the market, either you wait for market to factor in the high oil prices or when its reaches $0.30-34 which is a very attractive offer.

Time to bargain hunt

2008-06-08T23:22:00.000-07:00

Yes, im very certain its time to bargain hunt, but just hold your horses !!! Lets look at the suitation now as @ 9/6/2008 , Oil has reached a ridiculous level of $139 per barrel , major US banks are still facing the effects and after effects of the sub prime monster, inflation in asia are as high as ever, food prices as usually increasing (Basket charge me extra $0.50 for extra mushroom on my meepo noodles) its really Sell in May and go away sernario. Yes despite all these factors, its really time to bargain hunt..simple "INvest when fear is the greatest " then the next question is what to bargain hunt? Here are some investment stocks to look at and consider

1)CG tech (cheapest textile firm with strong WACC,ROE, PE etc ) $0.25

2)Synear (largest dumpling producer in china) $0.47

3) Cosco Corp (Largest Ship repair company) $3.25

4)ChinaFlex (Low PE, good earnings per share) $0.30

Now if you guys realise, these stocks are victims of high oil prices (except for Cosco)
if you invest according to Buffet's way which is to invest when stocks are shunned away, then these are the stocks to buy now! Yes i cannot grantee that their stock price wounldt drop any further but how much do you think it can drop? another 5 cents maybe..the risk to me is limited.
But again i say to you, read up and understand the company's nature and future propescts, should Oil prices reaches $200 per barrel as some lame broker house predicted, the stocks above will no doupt drop further, that is the risk and THAT is why people are avoid them.
Acutally im quite pissed with myself, i should be analysing more stocks but i can't seem to analysis fast enough. Zzzz

Stocks currently in process is
1)Xpress
2)Sino Contruction limited.
~Rex out

Found one Gem, KIV two

2008-06-05T19:36:00.000-07:00

Alright as promised, the first stock to enter my portifolio will be "China Milk" bought XX lots at $0.705 , the reasons why i bought this stock is simple

1) The milk market in China is growing , demand for beef/dairy products/milk are all coming to new light. And as stated in the annual report, milk demands in China are soo huge that the company cannot fullfill the orders of 2007.

2) High ROE , very important factor when investing, the company consistantly reaches above or if not more than 15% since 2005

3) Good cash flow and high cash reserves , ensures that the company wouldnt go into liquidty problems

4) Low PE vaule of 8-9 times, reasonable PVB of 1.8

5) Closing year book profits of 23% increase. However deal to derivatives infusion, factoring that out we have an 8% increase in Net profit.

6)More growth to be factored into this stock, like production of own milk products, increase in herd size , more RnD.

Target price for China Milk (at least $1.25, now trading at $0.735 as @ 6/6/08)

KIV stocks

Coscop and Synear

Coscop : China's biggest shipping repair company, more like a blue chip, moderate growth potential , high economic moat.

Reasons why i have not yet buy

1) At a price of $3.40+ doesnt reflect its instrinsic value of $2.80+ which i caculated.

(Using 10 years discounting EPS growth of 10% , EPS of $0.21, cap interest rate at 3%)

2) Beacuse Balstic Dry index has reached new highs this year and the last, the latter suggests a correction is near or immeiant.

3) High PVB, High PE ratio, which means if i were to invest in this stock , i will be investing based on their expected growth and not seeking value

Synear: Undervauled stock, good net profit per quarter, dropped below its IPO price ,low PE and PVB, high ROE

This despite all the good ratios , showing in this stock. The reasons why i havent buy into this company is because

1) Share price keeps dropping, TA doesnt state or suggest any rebound yet

2) The company issued a HUGE amount of shares just like Cosco (2000,000,000 shares) , obviously its EPS is low if not very very low.

3)Soo many uncertains lie ahead for Synear, is the company expanding too fast? How are they coping with HIGH OIL prices, high labor costs, government restictions on certain products?

4)Whats next for the forzen industry ? High competition very likely.

Soo yeah, thats my above take and im glad that i found a market gem after a few months of analysing/searching. Investing is definately not easy , you have to take in this, consider that , forcast this, factor that out..zz tiring..but EXCITING. Whats next will be me searching for stocks that will ride the Olympic bull in China 2008 , not that im being baised or what, i think China S-shares are really undervalued and good to look at, however with that note taken, China market and businesses might be facing problems or more problems even after the Olympics, but rest assured i only recommend shares that are strong in business concept, demand for thier products/services/ strong ecnomic moat/ moderate -high grow/Low PBV and PE/ high ROE.

Alright~ Rex out

Happy investing.

Akatsuki portfolio

2008-05-27T00:40:00.000-07:00

Alright today's entry is all about my portfolio. Not any kind of portfolio, not a portfolio of art, certificates, model pictures, nor any other stupid kind of portfolios that other people obtain to get into uni or get a job or whatever , its a portfolio that will earn me $$ yes $$ in the future.... with that said, obviously to start my Akatsuki portfolio i would need to rearch out 10 stocks.. not just any 10 stocks, i want stocks that are of value, of good growth, handled by smart management and of good business, in other words, i want to buy GEMs. And to do that i have to keep searching and analysing reports after reports, screen after screen , soo after all that.. i THINK i found two potential stocks that can make up my portfolio. Obviously i cannot review what they are on my blog (until i buy liao then review lol) but my close friends on msn will know. Soo why is it important to start a portfolio at this age and why stocks, why the hell im i bragging soo much about stocks? Well, of all the wealth books i have read, one of the proper and best ways to get rich is to save, invest and give your tithdings, yes .. soo i have to start early for the sake of my future and my riches to come.
Actually i already started buying one stock (bought it last year, apprently that didnt turn out well) however undeterred, i believe it will list and return back my captail, this is what happens when you don't study what you invest in zzz. There might be a possiblity that i might lose of it or better still gain twice the amount.

Some people.. no no.. in fact most people i know , think stocks are dangerous and shouldnt be bought (just like my mum). The truth is, stocks are only dangerous if you take a gambling approach to it just like most of the day traders/most china ppl(elderly)/most taxi uncles/hawker aunties etc, these are the people who usually when they buy a stock, they buy it with a short term view without doing any or little studies on it and in hopes of making quick bucks. That is one approach which i will avoid (having tried it myself via warrents-OUCH) once bitten twice shy.
Ok enough of bragging and condaming i want to explain what does Akatsuki means before i get all those lame emails like what does nwcigotbetter mean arh? or Nwcigotbetter means Now i got better right? ..zzz So Akatsuki acutally means or rather the word came from the all popular animation Naruto, which depicts a group of extremely, deadly skilled Ninigas (all ten of them) that causes trouble/grieve/terror overall the world of naruto , secertly organised and highly feared their, main purpose is to capture the 9 mystical creatures in order to ..guess what ..gain $$$$$$$$ yes.. MONEY and lots of it! and of course world domination and other stuff. Each Askatsuki member has his or her own style , technique and skill. Just like the 10 stocks which i will be and have been and should be hunting down for, they have to have not only good returns but exciting ones (not like singtel, boring as hell) , well to cut the long story short, investing is the best way to riches also with lots of prayer and guidance from the above one. With that said all the best to my investing life. Lastly i will be mostly using investment strategies related to Buffet's (Vaule the 9 steps), Tey Loong ling's(Low PTB and high ROE) and abit of Adam koo's(EPS growth rate model).

Btw, i already found my Sasori and Dedaria related stocks.. ohh..soo interesting.. hehe ~

Celebrating the 101th Post !!!

2008-05-21T01:40:00.000-07:00

Yeah, soo many post soo little time. Alright, for today's entry i shall brag about my blog.

Yesterday i read an article on Strait times, it says about people with Blogs and the capablity of a blogger earning $$ , i was like soo amazed.. i didnt know blogs can earn you $ , the reason cause many people visit thier blogs for various reasons like lust, food , tips of being a teenage.. pathetic reasons lol. I know many people have visited my blog and some emailed me for more warrent predictions lolx.. soo i was thinking of revamping my blog soon , add a visit counter and stuff like that, make sure i dun make soo much spelling mistakes ;p and of course hope to make $$ from this blog. Soo, i'll be paying $100 for anyone who can help me design my blog, no need to complicated just nice enough for ppl to visit. Yeah. .. anyone up for the task? Add me on msn at nwcigotbetter2001@hotmail.com ~Rex out

Investing is NOT EASY

2008-05-07T20:33:00.000-07:00

Alright these pass few days i have been researching stocks, not just any stocks, but stocks that are undervauled and have good business prospects and growth. With that said, im currently looking into S-Shares A.ka China frims listed in Singapore. Aparrently, somehow when i find a good S-Share based on its frundaments and PE growth rate, just SOMEHOW the market will price it higher me...feeling very annoyed, actually to tell you the truth im quite afraid to invest in stocks lol soo ironic , even though it has no time decay and can hold forever provided the company or its industries don't collaspe. I know i shouldnt put or rather save up soo much $ in the bank as all the finncial books have warned me , putting your money in the bank is litterally allowing inflation to rot your net value of your cash. Yes, i want to make my $ work for me, but its not easy to find the "GEMs" out there.
Take for example i wanted to put in almost 4k into buying one pathetic lot of Cosco, the problem i have with this stock is , its kind of a glamor stock, market prices its fair value very fast, not only that, the managment like very optimistic about its future and also on.
Another stock which i kind of find annoying is C&G, its said to be unknown by many, which is good, however, its doesnt even have a proper english website and Sgx only issue its 2006 annual report.. im like wtf.. how to study its fundamental if like that? If i were to invest in this stock without researching and analysising its fundaments i will be breaking Buffet's biggest rule "Don;t invest in anything you do not know" yup.. which i don't intend to do so.
Arh all these ranting has made me hungry, but thank God i found 1 or 2 Gems in the market liao, and they are .... and .... :] what you think im stupid to review the Gem stocks? Please, i buy liao then review ... ~Rex OUT

GEMs stocks are stocks that
1)Hava good business prospects/models/Goals
2)Undervalued --Low PTB and PE ratio
3)Good debt/cash/investment management
4)High ROE
5)Not soo well known
6)Honest managment
7)Good dividends

Another Emo Entry without pictures

2008-04-11T01:54:00.000-07:00

Yes.. i very emo liao, today STI rose like 2.03% TO 3126.85 and i still holding on to my put warrents, fundamental are very weak in US , but the market still raising ..dun know why. Another problem, CPF asking $ from me to repay my Education fees for poly technic amount to 6k like that, i can repay to whole amount, but what for.. i need to use the $ to invest properly, tony and ernie i think enjoyed themselves in thailand, i had a choice to go, but didnt cause i hate thailand , now abit regret not going with them, i keep thinking about whether should i countiue to give tithdings to God not..cause sam dun do so why must i? Racheal, Alvin and surprisingly Melisar are all doing well in thier respective universities, including Ave and Kris and here i am wasting my time serving this nation, Mr Goh and company..still quite alot of problems..for od sakes please recover asap , i need to $ to invest la!!
Sian..soo many problems suddenly, some more i in NS.. its a hard time for me , yes i know, i can;t do the things i want to do, i struggle to understand the market , yet lose $ (Ya la my fault la) , i feel that going to church nowadays its a bit of a drag..cause soo damn far and damn expensive , i try my best to be open to people in NS but can;t seem to do so, ezoo is taking advantage of me , giving me only $300 when there are like 7 students under me, Edmund no longer talks to me..not that i want to talk to him, but at least keep track of your good friend who stood by you for 3 YEARS!! My mum becoming more irrititing as the days go by ..

yet despite all these things i feel God allowing these to happen to test my faith, my ignorance, my determination and so on.. i hate bad times (such as now).. so in order not to dissappoint him no.1
1) I will countiue to give tithdings despite market woes
2) I will cut loss when STI reach 3200 and by 18th if FA gets better
3) I will invest properly from now onwards , by fundamentals and by TA
4) I will try to go to church more often
5) I will countiue to self educate myself in business, in finnace, in self improvments , in Japanese
6) I will delegently work in ezoo , my swiming and tution business to pay off that debt
7) I will take a break in June and Oct (Malaysia and Japan respectively)
Now market 3126.51 ..ouch ..Move on IVAN!!!

Makings of a major bear?!

2008-04-03T02:23:00.000-07:00

Alright, it seems that my timming for buying put warrents abit off, sry about that, but then again market is as unpredictable as ever..having said that, recently alot of US data came out, some beat analysis expectations some didnt, overall the US data still points to one thing, contraction! Yet peopel are still buying into the market having factoring in data that "beat" analysis expectations.. i mean cmon how lame can they get, analysis expectations are very conservative by nature soo if for example US housing data by analysis says 0.78, then the real data comes out at 0.84 means its good news? Housing data below 1.00 means contracting... thats not all , central bank chiefs all over US already say that US might enter into a recession soon, not only that oil remains above $100 and food and commodities are like craziliy high.. what i think will happen next is that the most important data the US job data which is tml WILL BE very BAD! But then again it may be wrong .. zzz Well then if the data turned out good .. then i think its time to buy stocks for catch the recovering bull..but very unlikely.. i think .. consumers are beaten very badly these few mths soo i think Job data will be BAD. Recommendations to stick with your current put warrents , sell only if the job data turns out good or worse .. better then expected <_<

No market theroires today but ur put warrents thats all!

2008-03-26T02:02:00.000-07:00

Soo today, i had some time to check our my friends blogs and read them. Interesting, some are boring (as usual) , some reminds me of bad times and some are just outright wasting time lol.. not that mine isn;t a waste of time..but anyway i realise i have been focusing too much on market movements , US economy and sub prime, havent been really going to church (shh!) lol.. my cellgroup keep pestering me..but i really lazy to go la.. soo damn far, do i miss my spritual family? Truefully ... nope.. i think the market is damn interesting and will countiue to study and come out with ym theories. Soo far my warrent losses have been mitigated, finally earning some decent profit from warrent trading.. but then again, true success in the market is not speculating but investing, i think the stocks im going to buy are SGX, Sembcorp and a few CHina groth firms which i cannot say out, cause i spent hours studying thier finnacial output and potential returns.. blah blah blah. As for Army? Just say that i have already sealed myself into this route , never going to become anything more a corperal.. do i care? Frankly.. i dun give a f**k anymore, people say me then say..as long as i have my stockmarket with me.. im fine .. lol. Alright time to go home.. its 4.45pm btw.. going to sneak out of SAFTI without my boss knowing lolx ~Rex out

Theory no. 3

2008-03-25T01:35:00.001-07:00

STI 2700 BNP EPW080529 now 0.12 (So-so)STI 2800 SGA EPW080627 now 0.145 (Safer)
Positive News 1) JP Morgan decides to increase price bid for Bear Stearns from $2 - $10, FED havent give approval, but market assume it would and that would mean that whenever a company gets into trouble the FED will bail them out, this confident thinking add to the recent rally.
2) Oil Prices and $US dollar dropping and raising respectively. If this countiues , will give more room for FED to cut interest rate aggressivly and inflation will no longer be a big problem
3)US data on housing which is the root cause of all the problems soo fast, showed an increase in sales by about 2.9%. Experts say it is temporary as prices of homes dropped alot. What the market only concentrate on is the 2.9% increase and not the price dropping drastically.
4)Fed will countiue to do more for the torubled market like pump more $$, cut more interest rates , might even buy back those mortage related investments.
Why i still hold a bearish view1) Credit crunch Problems still on going, people in the US are borrowing more from short term loans which is a bad sign
2) Banks have not yet disclosure thier job loss data and its exposure to sub-prime once the mortage rate resets, i know.. its hard to understand the links between sub-prime and exposure and all these shit.. but shit remain as such...shit.
3)China has yet to do something about its all time high inflation
4)Credit card problems , this factor like no news on it
Soo now do you still old a bearish view? HSI and STI rose like 150 points and 1356.30 points as at march 25 2008.

Theory 1# in details

2008-03-15T19:25:00.001-07:00

Ppl are expecting a huge rate cut by the fed on tuesday, Bush say dun over correct cause it might hurt the economy even more, China yet to do extra measures for its inflation, Mr Oil some how reaches over $110, Some investor think homeclosure already bottom out, Malaysia unrest still yet to be seen?
UNCERTAINY UNCERTAINY
Will then again it never stops me from predicting lol
OK soo i predict on monday (March 17th 2008) morning, great fall in stock prices in STI, HSI etc, possible recovery maybe say after lunch? Tuesday will recover, cause all expecting a huge rate cut the night ahead, Wednesday will again recover effects of a huge rate cutThursday i buy my put warrent and pray for huge crash ;pBut then again all these are just theroies X_X

Theory 1#

2008-03-09T23:01:00.000-07:00

DOW:Ok soo within this 2 weeks from 10th March 2008 - 18th March , the possibility of two rate cuts are say around 60% with a granteed rate cut on the 18th. Whether is it big or not will depend on how the fed decides to balance inflation and credit criss. From the news so far , the fed is more concern with the latter , which brings me to conclude that we can expect a surprise rate cut soon and another rate cut on the 18th. Just like last mth feb. "The Fed will not let market fall to its knees and will intervent when nessary , the fed is ready to take action" this are some of the quotes stated in the news some time ago will it hold ture?

STI: If this theory holds true, then with two rate cuts, there should be a rally soon maybe tml or even today however i belive there will be a great fall maybe from 19th to 21th of march?

HSI:Same as STI, copycats do things the same

But my recommendation is to not buy any call warrents at all! Buy puts once it raises or you can play safe wait until the size of the rate cut is annouced then buy puts after 18th or 18th itself.

Chinese New YeAR 2008

2008-02-10T23:27:00.000-08:00

OK, that was fast, the CNY of 2008 passed soo fast , that my 5 days away from camp seems like the sudden wind of Cambodia. Wtf am i talking, im talking why good times pass soo fast and bad times pass so slowly. Its the unfairness of life, i should say, but yet again this year i organize a Ex-poly gathering for my pass poly friends to check on how they are doing, how they have grown, how they are managaing thier lives and so on. What can i say abouT the gathering? I would pretty much say it was sucessful, the food was alright, the attendance suddenly from 8 jump to 12 people, thanks to Wilson , the gambling as usual astrid won yet again.. annoying lady. But likewise every year sure got people say sick, my parents in the hospital cannot come, got Aids cannot come and so on. I might feel pissed off with this people, but i didn;t la, some how this year i numb already, i purely want to see how my friends were doing and not compare myself with others, cause i know i am very much blessed liao, no feeling of envy , no feeling of hate and so on, ok la.. abit cause when Sw was talking about how commandoes thier training involve jumping out of the heli, running thru forest etc etc, i feel abit regret la, should have been with my "people" doing all these, to experience brotherhood , which i think i will never experience it in this lifetime , to experience suffering soo that can build up my reisistance in life and so on. But then again, it can be really sickening if you are in the forest for like 9 - 10 days without bathing, cannot come home , cannot check stocks, cannot play dota, hardly got time to go out , come back home is either weekends..hmm sickening.. really sickening.. so i think where i am right now is perfectly fine with me ^_^. Anyway back to the CNY gathering, wao lao, that Astrid..really annoying, at first she was losing, like -$6 to 8 bucks like that, kao..last min last game, she got one ace and one diamond King.. WTF!!! some more sw and me put in the most bets... all lost!! ALL GONE! But its a very small amount la.. i guess, the usally Black jack losers are Dingrui , Princstern lol..poor thing, nvm next year will be better i guess, so far this CNY i lose about say $38? Very little la, i think, Ang pow can cover liao, better then losing my warrents like one time $80 or $400 == annoying... still i hate losing $$. But the more important thing is i really wish my poly friends hate a good time, and they will be able to see that i am trying my best to maintain the stregnth of the friendship bonds between all of us strong, then one day i can use them..lol. Well, once everyone left say around 7.30pm, just nice i thought, suddenly this lady appear, her name was.. Cynthia Chua.. dotz.. she came went everyone just left, nice timing gal, lol then i felt quite pity la for the poor soul, come soo late (due to personal problems) , all the food gone, all the actitivities finished, my mum wanted her to eat something but all the food like keep liao soo abit troublesome, so i end up just talking to her for say 1.5 hours? But the talk was kind of interesting la , from Goh shares to life in Army, one sentence i will always remember is that she said "Ivan, enjoy your army life while it last" WOW! What a way to put it, at first when i heard i , i feel like slapping her but cannot cause her boyfriend fitter then me lol, but then again , i realise how one sentence can encorage me to push on in my army life, thanks Cynthia , ps i think your name spell wrongly..but anyway, yeah...luckly i gave her one of my ang pows if not i would feel quilty lol. Arh, i hate to rant about events that i plan, well then the next CNY gathering will be a AVELINES.. need to talk to her on msn. Can;t wati acutally, cause the next CNY gathering, everyone espically the guys, and me of course will be happier...yes happier why? CAUSE it is our ORD year !! YEAH!!! But then again, i might not live til next year cause zw said so...idiot! Alright, back too reality , 18 mths left Rex out~

Arh... soo difficult

2008-01-09T00:10:00.000-08:00

its 2008... so. quickly pass better. Not here to entertain anyone. Just pass by my blog (been deserted for quite while hehe) I want to blog down how easliy swayed or cheated by the market recently. Playing warrents have now been not my hobby but my passion. Yes indeed i learn alot, yet there is more to learn. Take for two examples 1) I predicted that the aisan market will semi crash during early jan and of course it did, crash to 26700++ , the warrent i bought was a put warrent , bought it on 19Nov 2007, then the Fed cut thier interest rates by 0.5 points, causing the market to temporary raise. Fundamentals were weak, yet the market countiued to raise to an uncomfortable level of 28300++ then i PANICKED!! Fck.. PANICKED!! and sold away my put warrents without thinking why i bought it inthe 1st place. Now. See la.. drop till 26700 liao this morning. Ok fine.. i learn that i must not be so easliy swaped by the opionons of the market. Example no. 2. Happens this morning, HSI was at a sarcastically low level of 26700 due to fear. I believe that the coming days the HSI will raise due to another possible interest rate cut by the FED when they meet again on the 29th. Ok fine.. i wanted to buy a call... WANTED...WANTED!!!!!!! BUT...fck again i hesitated! I was fearful like the rest of the market of more possible bear news that will affect the HSI and make it drop lower. Smack my head, the call warrent i was eye was @ 0.115 cents per shares, NOW its 0.160 a cause i wanted to buy 10 lots 1 lot = 1000 10 lots = 10,000
Therefore if i followed by theroy this morning i would have gained $450 ...wtf right. Due to hesitation and hopes of a lower HSI. Damn.

telling myself
1) Follow your own theories and do not be fearful
2) If theory fails, cut loss immediately
3) Plan exit stragetgy , analysis possible gains, possible loss
3.5) What factors to cut loss? If amount drop to how much then cut loss?
4) During 10am -11am this time is usually the best time to enter the market

My next thoery is perhaps .. no i should use this word perhaps , it is very POSSIBLE that the HSI will raise to about say 28500 to 29300 after the FED cuts its rate on the 29th. Then i will buy a PUT warrents once TA and FA is comfrotable with each other .
Reasons: Sub prime is still showing its ugly face, China has yet to act on its inflationary measures, more lawsuits to come, property prices in HK has yet to cool also. This factors i predict will happen during Feb to march like that.
And all God's people say? AMEN!
I WILL buy a put warrent without having the stupid thinking of it will drop some more later
I WILL activate this, on time and on target (set entry price)
I WILL without fear hold on to this warrent for about 1 to 1.5mths.
I WILL cut lose if my thoery of the facts in my thoery has been comprimised too much.
I WILL take profit once it hits my targeted amount

Warrents (Difficulty of the market)

2007-12-16T18:32:00.001-08:00

Seriously seriously seriously, its super difficult to predict the market.. and yes i have been a victim of the market of which i lose like #K #,000!!!! WTF right.. but seriously i also learn alot , words like Fed interest rate cuts, exports imports, the relation between china nd US, bEAR STERNS, UBS, investment capital infusion blah blah blah and so on . The market somtimes like to give very bearish news to cheat ppl like me into buying a put warrents, then suddenly raise due to another fed cute rate. Then somtimes also when the rate cut liao, the credit crisis sticks its ugly head into the market again when i bought call warrrents.. =_+ pissing me off. But again blame not the market , but blame myself for being so arglable. I thinking of whiching into stocks, but watrrents are more exciting and makes money faster like wise loss it faster. Now i have a better defence again losing money against warrents
1)CUT your loss on time 2)Set exit strategy 3)TA and fundamentals must be there 4)Nv buy BNP warrents lol 5) Do warrent caculation on probablity
Now i think im still going to play with warrents , but this time with more care.
Btw i have a dilama with the $400 allowance, wheather to give this a tidings or not hmm ...
anyways back to warrents, i have a few theroies that might work. and hopefully it works, if not then i think im going to change to buffet style stock pickings liao. =_+
all the best to me and my warrents for the new year. Bye bye

Investing..no speculating

2007-11-24T00:33:00.000-08:00

Alright, havent been blogging for a long long time. Simple reason => NS. Annoying, i have a lot of things to complain abt NS but i shall not dirty my blog with this word. All you guys need to know is i hate it, and i am not a person who will die for Singapore. Anyway.. talking about investing, the 1st stock i bought will have to be Mr Goh's Aplha and Omega shares bought at 0.20 cents. Dun ask me why i buy his shares, beacuse i myself i also dun know, ppl say alot of good things abt this stock, plus he was once my lectuturer must support him right..lol.I sincerely hope his shares will do well cause at lot of my pocket $ is at stakes. Espically aveline haha.. with regards to that, im now playing warrents, complicated insturment la. Soo many things to consider b4 you buy into one warrents like , preimums, underlying, commision, volatitly, gearing etc etc, btw just for me to take note.. i didnt do soo well for my 1st warrent trading, genna rape . But now its abit better, my put warrents are currently making $$$ finally.. but they seem to be sleeping... what i mean is, since HSI was like crashing like 3-5% which is alot, how come my put warrents not making AS much $$ arh!!!! All these talk about warrent is not investing.. speculating, which i think im not too good at (having lose soo much $$) lol . Oh well, lesson learnt.ok time to scold ppl liao, FCK LA... Some ppl dun want to return my finnace book..TMD.. soo heartless, lend him out of kindness i genna treated like that..really F up one. Not good to owe people anything and not return , even if ur life suceed you will always have a sense of gulity a sense of oweing some one somthing you know. Fck.. now need to write down again. Currently im sick of losing $$ liao, soo many times i treat others, and get none in return..not that i expect them to treat me, but its good to feel that just some times.. my friends can just spend the extra $ to treat me somthing. Sian. Not only that, when i get rich they come flogging thier way say arh want to go out, erm treat me le... wtf.. when i losing $$ they will some how disappear into thin air lol.. Funny arh u all .. i hope my new found friends (NS bubbies) are a different lot.. well anyway i dun really have much NS friends currently only got like 11 of them. Cause all they talk about is NS NS NS , SEX SEX SEX yup.. another group of ppl i might not be close to. Well then again,i recently have been talking about NS myself.. need to cut down if not slap myself.. ok stop this ranting,going to meet * and zw for dinner..~Rex out!

MLM fucktards

2007-11-07T18:06:00.000-08:00

Sry guys , havent been blogging for about a mth liao. Im busy with other things ..lol..but at least im not scaming ppl in MLM firms. Tsktsk, companies or rather small scaming little firms such as sunshi@ne,vent@ure etc etc sickens me. Now firstly let me give u a simple explaination of what MLM companies do, they attract thier intial victims with promise of high returns from different level of streaming income. Ok these intital victims will really prosper from these scams, cause they invite thier other friends and loved ones to join or buy a certain product. In turn these new victims must find other victims to join thus new funds will come in and pay of the company but only a little goes back to the latter. So, basically there is not service or good products they really offer, its like you scam me, thus i go scam others and others scam more others that kind of techqiue..earlier in my blog , i already told you guys DO not join this kind of shits cause its makes you very untrustworth and very fake. You compromise friendship and loved ones so that they can join your little scam..tsktsk..maybe u dun even know its a scam..thats the worse part. I was actually invite to join them, they talk alot of cock..seriously, they uses all sorts of ways to manipulate you, like using chim english, using all sort of maths caculation blah blah blah, say this you will get 150% return, 5 times your cash blah blah blah.. of course thank god for giving me proper brains i saw throught their scam and of course didnt join. For those ppl who really benefit from these scams, let me tell you.. it wouldnt last long, plus what you have is called dirt money...money that you scamed from your friends and loved ones.
Let me advise you on how to get rich.. but you will need time, of course you need to work hard, work smart, create vaule and solve problems in your current job, give your tidings, save 30% of your income and invest in INDEX FUNDS!! annually yes there my secert have come out.. want to get rich quicker? Invest in Warrent, options do it the proper way. Now MAS have step in on these firms to scruntize thier workings..i mean..its abt time la.. annoying MLM ppl..X[

SMUians

2007-07-14T09:13:00.000-07:00

"SMUians", thanks to dear Kris , she came out with this witty word as i was hanging out with my two best study group friends Ave and her. Well , so today we when to Philipies Surcurites to *cough.. to buy a certain *cough cause we strongly believe that his *cough will flip flip flip into the mainboard lol.. if it really flip into mainboard.. our dear AV is a million air liao.. lol..cross all fingers and hope for the best then. I keep asking myself y dun i put all my 10k into that *cough. Well..as i have learned from my 3 years in Poly..the more risk u take the more returns u get. The thing is.. the risk involves losing all ur money..but the returns can be like 4 to 5 folds. Watever happens..good or bad.. is i really deserve it. Can;t blame any1 really. Well enough about *cough and his company.

So after the visit, the gals and i went to eat Sushi Tei. Omg.. my 1st time entering the restaurant and trying thier food..call me a cave boy, but i usually like to save $$ therefore i dun usually visit such expensive restaurants. Haha..maybe when i graduate and start working blah. Ok having said that, the sushi that the gals ordered were fantastic, there was this mango skin sushi wraped with Lopyster meat Yummy! , there was also one with clam meat fired in japanese chinese YUMMMY!!! However the ramen i ordered.. was like cup noodles standard. Xp. The atmosphere was great , cooling/ peacing/ tranquit. The best of all was that after our entire meal, the deserts we ordered , totalling $9 wasn;t included into our bill. Having left the restaurant after paying, aveline found out and delegated the information to us (in secert). We all had the words "R.U.N!" in our heads. LOL.. so ok la.. we didnt pay..tsk tsk bad example! <-- saying myself. Robinsons was the next stop.. as usual..everytime without fail these two gals will go visit the perfume and make up stations there, Loreal la, Wella la , Maybele la soo many la.. they will test test and test..but end up nv buy.. ok la.. got buy a few product end up costing them $100 over..lol. Imagine all the hamsters u can feed with that $$. Anyways..gals will be gals.

But i love hanging out with these two espically ..cause they are..how to say.. weird and funny . We like to joke around, groof and gossip about ppl etc etc. Its just fun la.. cause now i sound like a damn gay #_#; ........ soo since we were near SMU.. might as well go take photos with the lion head blah... see what i mean...weird but FUN! We took like 20mins to get from Cityhall to SMU.. reason.. kris had to dodge the sun's ray... to keep her white complexsion standards.lol.. Vampire gals.

Having reached, SMU. They both took out thier cameras and start clicking away, posing, doing funny faces, talking cock. Passerbys, must have these thoughts in their mind " Anit they singaporens?, y taking photos like a tourist?" or "Siao!" or " Aiyo..y got one guy and two gals..threesome arh?" or " Win lor... win lor" lol.. overall i think it was a fun day ..better then rotting at home. Oh well..Kris will ne going to NUS biz, Ave to SMU and me .. poor me.. NS.T_T. BY the time i come out kris would have gotten a degree and Ave will still be half way thru. Wish u gals all the best arh. Glade tp have known u all ;]~Rex out

Oh btw.. really want to thk God for letting all three of us 'poly students' (Kris, Ave, Me) into local UNIs , humbled by his grace and thankful our ace.

Why don't i put up a MSN nick that supports god?

2007-07-09T04:12:00.000-07:00

Ya..soo today , i got an interesting question from my friend on msn. She told me at first that my MSN nick is very interesting , always changing and she is always entertained by my nicks. Oh..thank you sexy ;] . But then she asked an interesting question, she said this: Hi ivan..since ur blog is soo christianised, y dun u do/put up a holy nick ? Like ETC: "God you the love of my life, i live to serve you" or " Love thu neigbour as youeselve"

Honestly i dun really like putting Holy nicks on msn is beacuse
No.1 Its not my style
No.2 Alot of my friends are non-christians, and they might not want to talk to you ,beacuase such nicks make you seem as a person whose main objective is to convert other ppl into ur religion
No.3 I scared i genna scolded again..like Mr XXX , suddenly attack my religion, tsk tsk.. i dun wan it to happen again

Well i think there is absolutly nothing wrong with putting holy nicks, alot of my christain friends do..espically those from CHC
Tough i must not be ashamded of God, i believe by not putting it up also honors him..in a way. Xp i dun know what im talking about la.. stressed..waiting for my NS letter that is yet to come .
Oh well.. all the best to me ~Rexout

Alright..

2007-07-06T08:32:00.000-07:00

http://www1.snapfish.co.uk/share/p=71161183735789892/
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yup im already 21, for all the pictures of my part plz go to the link provided by me above.

This cake (from prima deli) cost $87++ after discount , its a cookies and cream type of cake , total weight of 2.5kg. What can i say about the party besides bragging about my cake? Well.. too me it all went too fast , but i realli realli accpreciate all those who came espically ave, kris ,* , Uncle raymond and family etc etc..i think in total 39 ppl came. The party was a humble one..just to put it simply, i didnt want my parents to suffer from finanical disorder just to make my party grander etc: holding it at MOS or a hotel.. not that i cannot hold such a luvish part..is that i dun want to..and no need to..just be humble will do, but i really hope u guys who came enjoyed urselves ..even if u dun enjoy..just shut up ..lol

Having said that, now i want to scold a certain some 1 . Mr XX, bloody hell, i came for his pathetic 21bday at a certain condo at Hao Kang le..super inaccsible, i had to sit a cab all the way there. I some more took the effort to buy him a present and tried to mixes around with his friends. I supported him, even though no 1 would want to attend. I was the only yuhua friend there la. Y am i soo pissed? Well beacuse , I expected Mr XX to turn up for my party with his assurance of his sms, bloody hell again, last min sms me say what he got somthing on , got to leave early, then bloody hell again sms me say meet him at the station so that he can give me his gift beacuse he not attending. When i finally met him, he said this: "Hi dude, sry i can;t attend , my camp called me do duty" , he was wearing outside clothes for God sakes! You think i stupid? Omg.. all these years , i supported u and u dare to lie to me , infront of my friends and whats worse is it is my 21bday le..omg.. and thats not all, he came and tag on my blog.. say what he not obligated to come, that kind of shit, goodness..its like ur brother give u a piece of chicken when ur hungry, then in a same breath , spit at his face. Soo ungrateful.. some more dare to insult my religon and my family tsk tsk..don't know what came over you dude?

True ...my friends are not obligated to come, however if they cannot make it..they at least tell me the truth say not free or dun want to..dun come last min sms me say u not attending..its just wasting my mum's $$ to buy the food..plus for God's sake, i personally invited u le..dont u feel grateful? Cause among all the friends i have , u seem the poorest and the most emo one.

However i choose to forgive you (much that i dun want to ) , cause ultimately i feel sry for you ..cas u see during ur 21st party, u were not the main focus, everyone could tell that ur God sister was the main star... poor thing. No wonder u wanted to trash my party as well, by not coming and by insulting me on my blog to get even? Aiyo.. Well.. do what u want..but i have my limits. Cause i already know who u r..ur ip was tracked and researched by me, it links to ur address. Soo one more insult u will definately get it from me. Other then that.. if u want to apologise go ahead..if u dun want.. its ok..just dun obther me for the rest of my life. Thanks

~Rex is angry!

21 things

2007-06-27T19:31:00.000-07:00

Im turning 21 soon!!! WTF man and women! Soo fast , but if i have a mind heart and soul of a 19 year old im i still considered as 21? Good question right, cause some ppl are soo childish even at 40 over. LOL. But who cares watever u childish a not.. whats important is what have u achieve soo far? And what have u not. Ok so this entry is what i havent or have achieve soo far.. b4 reaching 21!! FREEDOM 21!!!
The 21 issues are as follows

Question Ans
1) Have you gotten a potential marrital partner? No.. like i will lose to racheal!

2) Are you rich? Have u accumulated enuff wealth? Erm...no.. i want more $

3) Finished National Service? No.. of course not.. just starting..FCK!

4) Are you fit in both mind and body? Yes..trying to be muscular

5) Have you accumulated good contacts for your future? Yes.. i hope i did.(Depend on my friends)

6) Have you slept with a gal before? No..and yes(in theory), im a virgin still.

7)Do you still have ur virginity? YES la.. i say soo many times liao. Like i will lose to racheal

8) Created your own piece of music? Yes.. once in daiko, im the creator of Kopanda piece

9) Gotten into any local university? Yes.thanks to God

10) Worked in the coporate world before? Yes. Sickening..but interesting

11) Do you want ur galfriend to call u dear? No..soo childish..im not like some ppl.

12) How many galfriends do you have? I got 7 soo far. None i like, just flirting

13) Do you have many good friends? How many? Yeah, i have 6 soo far..Trustworthy ones

14) Growing in your new church ever since you church hop last year? Yes..say until like that!

15) Own any car soo far? Got your license? Yes..and no car la..i come from a humble famliy with dengue

16) Can you do 10 pull ups , run 2.4km in 9mins and 40 sit ups? Yes..(Bragging)

17) Are u a munipluative bastard? Yes..im not a bastard but a master

18) Have you learn the art of communicating with ppl? Trying la..some ppl i just dun like to talk to
19) Own any stocks soo far? Hello..u need to be 21 to open a CDP account with SGX

20) Climb mount Everest? Nope.. planning too lor

21) So far, are you happy with your life? That will depend on how many presents and angbaos i get on 1 july. LOL!!!!!!

OK.. done with the funny questions, what i still or plan to have in the future is simple
no. 1 I want to have more $
no.2 I want to have a respectable job, a challenging one
no.3 I need to have a better relationship with my father (Not uncle david)
no. 4 I need to go to church more faithfully ;p
no.5 I need to have more good close trustworth rich friends (Like aveline)
no.6 I need to have a better attitude, how i view situations and dealing with ppl
no.7 I want to make an impact in the finncial world
no.8 I want my degree
no.9 I need a dog , a son
no.10 I want to be happy in life
no.11 I want an adventure!
no.12 I want to finish NS quickly

My 21ST Bday WishList!

2007-06-03T08:28:00.000-07:00

My 21ST Birthday Wishlist

1) Black Customised T-shirt of Akasuki
Details:
The design i have already researched myself it looks like this, the final product should look somewhat like that cat wearing it (Shirt form!).. lol
Cost around :$50-60 like that L-size 42-45
Place: Should be at lucky plaze..those design clothes sh0p

2) Handphone for National Service
Details: Must be able to store music, 20-30 songs will do
Must have Alarm clock, plus radio (NOKIA!!!)
No camera of course for obvious reasons. Unwanted colors include, Red, pink, light blue or white
Cost: $200-$300 or lower

3)GNC Myoplex Villana Falvour+ Myoplex Chocolate
Please ask me to come along with you, I got 50% discount and membership
Cost: $110 after all the discounts.
Why i need it? Cause i want to grow strong and punch ppl till they bleed badly

4)(Taken) Thanks Wan li and Lum

5) Converse Sneakers, i want green color ones(if got) , please ask me to come along thanks

6)(Taken) Thanks Racheal

6.5) MP3 , simple one will do, find the cheapest one and buy for me. For NS la..

7)And of course Money, put in red packs, plastic bags, laugauge also can ;]

Thanks alot..please sms me if u want to book/buy one of my wishes..so i can cancel it out.

Thanks again. I really appricate it if i got all these items ..if i didnt..then also nvm..but mostly..nvm...no i think u all better buy it ..LOL.. joking ;) don;t buy me toy displays, bake a cake, socks, photo frames, chocolates, snake powder, chirstian books, omg.. might as well dun buy u know what i mean, last but not least the party will be at Tony's place onthe 1st of july 2007 5pm start, 4.30 meet at Chinese garden those dun know how to come

Kevjumbo

2007-05-31T20:34:00.000-07:00

This entry will be short and sweet. I swear ;] , ok there is this guy named Kelvin on you tude, i have watched all his 18 videos (1st june 07) and come to find it super entertaining and enjoyable. He is by far my most favourite comedian till date. I find his videos very sarcastic at times, but really if u listen to what he have to say, its kind of objective and sensible. His dog is also damn cute.. oh well...just have to watch it and u'll know what i mean ;] ~Rex out

Bye Bye SP

2007-05-24T10:27:00.000-07:00

Alright.. this entry is kind of interesting. Its all about graduating from Singapore Poly. Yup my journey has finally ended. aND i am gald that i choose to study in SP then another other JCs. My journey started out on the 1st of July 2004 (Chris Bday) and ended on the 22nd of May 2007( Lex's Bday) .
Ok soo this is a picture taken with me and astrid aka * . Yeah..look how nice we both look. Model perfection ;]...i can;t seem to find any other nice asian female too take with. This is my most favourite and best picture taken from the graduation. Btw aveline's father..aka tycoon is that guy with the specs behind * . Very kind looking hor. Must get to know him well. ;]

Opps..ps ... i still got take with my other good friend from Yuhua Secondary. We were class mates since graduating from that..old secondary school ...eeee. Anyways..she looks very nice in that gown. Soo happy that we both graudated from SP. Some more same business school .. nice. ..ok so move on.. The next picture on the top was taken when we ambushed Mr K.Tie to take picture with us. Was supposed to be an all guys picture.. but some ppl just like to jump in and act cute ;p..very obivouse who right.. lol.. Ok la.. i know i very tall..but i can;t believe my friends are soo short also.. u see in the pic. Im practically squating down le.. =X

OK..the picture shows my parents.

My uncle and my mum,(Biological father has gone back to the earth)

both of them are soo proud of me, but i havent told them how i cheated in exams to obtain good results ..cause i prayed for God's help..and everytime he will send his angles to wishper the answers into me head. errr..My parents are generally very low risk takers. I dun blame them. But having gone thru SB's techings ..i will be taking lots of risks in life. Thats me ..simply me.

OK now.. the picture on the top.. omg..priceless.. y le.. cause i took picture with the Amazing and wellknown Chiong. Every FT student will know his name and flicth went some1 mentions it..just like saying vodlemort in the magic world. lol . This man has taught me alot, how to trade, the trading principals, discipline my mind..making it sharper and more analytical ..amazing la.. and im gratefull to have met him. Though he cannot drive any more liao.. lol . Bless him

Woah..this pic..another amazing one taken by astrid.. i dun know who looks more prettier ..me or my lecturer.... ... ^_^; She is my Financial planning leactuer..i got to know her well thru Mr KTie. Cause i wanted to transfer from Biz Maths into Finacnial Planning at a very late period. She and Mr KTie.. gave me a chance after loads of begging from my part. Eventually i got an A for her module..making her proud. Muahah ( SHowing off..plz dun mind me ) anyway..thanks to her and K Tie for the flexiblity and the kindness they have shown towards me.

Ok..this is super super rare pic. I got the opportunity to take with all my lectuers..well..to be specific..most of the banking lectuers. Then how about those FT lectuers? How the Cash i know.. they dun know die where liao..i didn;t see Ambrose, or Andrew or Goh..aiyo.. soo nv... the banking lectuers look more pleasant..soo i took with them in the VIP room. Lol..priceless la. Just in case i forget their names.. they are from left to right Mr.Ktie, Mrs Wong M.Shan, *forgotten opps , and Mrs Jnet Fork..amazing smart geniues , super sucessful adults standing with me. Glade to have known them.

OK last picture la.. very troublsome to add more into my blog. This picutre is of Sharon and Mrs Christina Chua..obviously both women had a big impact during my time in SP. One intro me to CHC , was my year 1 best friend, we talked everything under the sun, make fun of each other etc etc..like drawing her face on my lecture notes. lol, the other person (Mrs Chua) was like a God Mum to me, gave me alot of advise, helped my file in my School fees, gave me accounting tips (Im kidding not joking ;] ) , very friendly towards me la and so on. God bless them both. And that dashing young man .. is obivously me. I look like a nerd with those specs on. -_-;

Ok..to end of this interesting blog.. all i have to say is.. thanks to all my lectuers and friends and my parents for helping me through the tough times in SP , thanks to all my other friends who tried to backstap me in class.. but end up..im stronger in the mind, and of course the most important person of all is THANK YOU "JESUS" for every singal damn thing, all the results no C grade and this opportunity to come to poly..if not i would have entered JJC and have graduated one year earlier and would have applied for UNSW. lol .. anyways.. this is just a stepping stone for me, there is still lots of room for me to grow , my next step is obivously university..wheather SMU, NUS or NTU.. the future seems bright for me (provide i survie NS) and i will try to sruvive la.. cause i worked soo hard with the above one. OK.. time to sleep..its 2am liao..~Rex out

Wake Up call

2007-05-21T06:34:00.000-07:00

Ok OK ....last sunday i went to church very early in the morning . I reached at 9am...un-usually early for a person who is usually running late, to hall 8 every sunday. The reason y i was soo early is beacuse.. i drove to church, with my step dad beside me. He keep telling me to , slow down, check right, turn left..aiyo.. plz le.. i already pass liao..dun need to give simple irriting instructions. Anyways.. i dropped off at Expo ..then went to Burger King to have some nice beakfast.. ALONE! Hiaz..
Soo when church started at 10 am. I was very tired already..reason was that the day before i played dota until 3am..then woke up in the morning at 8am ZZZ...so yeah CHC service praise and worship was great as usual. When it came to the sermon (Ps Kong was the speaker) i told myself that i have to pay attention cause whats really important is the sermon , the truth that God wants to speak to us during service. Soo ok...Ps Kong started talking... after 10 mins...abit tired liao... after another 10 mins.. eyes very heavy liao and then... i think i fell asleep. LOL ..so i slept i think like for another 12mins..until i was suddenly awoken..by no one. Just woke up, it was then Ps Kong said somthing very interesting.. he said somthing about being Christians..that most of us are "SUNDAY" Believe in which we act good or be devoted only on sundays, such as forgiving and being extra "good" on that particular day of the week. And the rest of the days go back to our old ways.

Now, Ps Kong warn us not be this way cause Partcial Obidence equals Rebellion. OK...1st wake up call from God Liao. That we shouldn't have a double mind and be hypocrites. Tell others do this and that and on the other hand do an another thing. What we should do is to follow his ways EVERY SINGAL DAY and not only on sundays. We have to be the light and salt of the earth...and if we lose our saltiness or lightness we will be casted aside and thrown in to the fire. Ouch!

OK, next Him mentioned somthing about its all about Attitude, that ppl put thier needs infront of God's, ppl not reading the bible everyday, ppl treating the church like a hotel, ppl when in need then run back to God and plead for mercy. So ya..another wake up call..dun treat his church like that, don;t fall asleep during sermons, have some respect fo your creator. If u want God to set a direction for u .. u not only walk have to walk by faith but also act upon it. Yeah its all about having the right attitude in Christ.

Next is how PS Kong became what he is today, (Being a powerful messanger of God, Leading God's ppl, a History maker and a ground shaker) he said that one evening a long time ago, during his drive from church to home. As a young youth pastor... he was on the road driving an old lorry. God acutally spoke to him in his heart saying the following, Kong will you love me with all that u have, will u live a life of sacifice of prayer and of fasting. Of course he said yes...that why he is what is he now.. wonderful hor. He also claims that he relation with God is of that a friend..of which he gave example of how Abramham was soo close to God ...that God actually consulted with him, ask him wheather should he destory a certain city filled with sinful ppl. Imagin that..God Consulting with him!!! Also another example is Eknock? I dun know how to spell la.. soo lets just stick with Eknock.. this guy was soo damn close to God that one day while walking on the dusty light brown dessert.. he was chating with God, asking him many things, loving him, having a relationship that God possibly said this to him " Hi dude..its going to take another few hours to reach ur house..why don;t u come to my house instead?" Of course Eknock said: "yes that would be great"..somthing like that..then he didn;t die but went up all the way to the high heavens. The only man in history to be every taken up by God. How wonderful is that..omg.. i want also.. i want to be taken up like that le.. (Before NS comes) LOL. I think i will and must reexmind my attitude towards Christ. I want to be his vessal.. i want to have a close relationship with him..just like PS Kong..just like Eknock. I pray for more hunger for his word and continue to shine for him.
And all God's ppl say? -AMEN!

Loneliness

2007-05-17T11:29:00.000-07:00

Ouch..i nv nv nv thought loneliness was such an unpleasant emotion to feel. I have to amid, i thought i could survie on my own, everyday at home, play with currencies,stocks and managaing my own portfolio etc etc doing my own thing at my own time, having my OWN time, no one distrub me, no one talking to me , no smses , no phone calls, no nothing. At first the feeling was nice, but its been going on for 2 weeks now and the feeling SUCKS!!!! I find myself wanting to look for some1 to talk to , to go out with, to share thoughts about life etc etc. MSN is definately not enough, yes alot of ppl come to msn and talk to me..but its just not enough, there is no humanly voice ..and i need that voice to keep myself happy. I have to say im not a person who can live alone.. i need to interact, make more new friends, i want to talk more, i want to just hang out with sincere ppl who doesn;t want my money or my help or my treat. Nowadays, when i go out with some friends , all i do is treat them, treat and treat if not they refuse to come out. Hiaz. And all the good friends like Sharon, Kris, Aveline, Ajay is either working or overseas, they keep working and working non-stop then sat either go out with BF or GF. I le..y am i not working? Simply cause i hate to work, espically admin jobs or sOME business analyst..kao..spare me plz. IM going mad nowadays cause no one talks to me (on the phone or go out) ...and when people are free to go out, i will either be very busy (ETC:TA exam) or busy traveling (Etc: going India during school holidays) Oh man..GOD plz grant me new friends, GOD i need new friends, i need more people around me , get me out of this darkness. Actually i kind of deserve it, looking back, when i was in my poly years, i got alot of duties to fulfill, my friends were either partying or clubbing somewhere i will reject thier offer cause i wanted to go back and study or plan out my events, my old friends will always ask me to go eat lunch during weekends but i will lie to them say i no $$ to spend. Now that i have finally obtained a place in a local uni and got a Certi.O.M, as i have planned..i rather give them all up and have very good friends....then again maybe not.. lol.. HIAZ..IM LONELY!!!!! My cousin Racheal has gone off to HK for holiday, Edmund is in his own world, DR is busy with dun know what, Ajay is in India waiting for me to go there, Hans is in NS..and still having $ troubles and Aveline still havent come back. OMG..Next week will be another Lone X10 week for me T_T ~Rex out

Giving Praise to GOD for my Mane

2007-05-12T08:26:00.000-07:00

Woah..such a weird title for this week's entry. These past few weeks have been abit crazy for me also.. besides slacking at home, drinking milo, eating eggs, playing dota, swimming, running etc etc.. i have been anticipating for my university accpetance letter for almost two months liao. This year is espeacially tough for anyone , espically ppl from polys ..cause the DARGON year JC babies are competing with us. By porportion and probablity, the odds for us is very very low this year, now that alot of ppl r compeiting to go to famous universities like NTU, NUS and of course SMU. Im particularly suprised that SMU is the hardest to get into among the three schools. They claim that 1 out of 8 ppl who came for the interview can get in. Oh well .. i thought to meself, think i no hope also. Then somthing happened, i got a think letter from NUS, i opened it with trembling hands..and found out that i got accpeted. The weird thing is , i wasn;t happy..cause i got into arts and social sciences.. must have been rejected by NUS business. Not surprised... my cousin told me that i was very lucky to get a place liao.. and soo do many other ppl. The important thing they dun realise is, if the course offered to you are not of your interest, it is just as bad as getting rejected! Last time, when i was in Spore poly, i always x2 wanted to get into NUS despite any course..even i will accpet engineering course if it was from NUS.. but it seems that desperate desire is no more, im more picky now really.. holding the NUS letter in my hand.. i asked myself im i happy if i force myself to study arts and social sciences without any interest. Of course not blah. Wth.. soo disappointing.. then NTU letter come liao.. same thing...arts and social sciences.. omg.. sickening.. I WANT BIZ courses!!! However i cannot tell my other friends like Kris or Sw or Nick that i got all arts courses cause i think they will look down on me.. very high standard ppl espcially the latter. LOL.. well God , my Dear lord Jesus Christ have path a way for me..initally i wanted to apply for Japan university but... just b4 i apply online, i got a call from SMU.. they offered me to be one of thier lions. Bachalor of BUSINESS MANAGEMENT OH YEAH!!!!! Well all those non-christians who read this entry and get chills after reading this.. all i have to say is : DEAL with it.
Tired of bloggin liao.. not much lame jokes i can add to this entry..its just what i want to say lah, having over came such a huge disadvantage, i was from Normal acedemic in yuhua secondary school a lazy student who scored 159 for PSLE.. and having to deal with the dragon JC babies.. i some how made it by the grace from up above lah.. thanks GOD thanks alot .. now.. please give me PES C thanks ;p ~REX out

Attracting IMH

2007-05-03T19:25:00.000-07:00

Woah, i really really can;t stand it when i board the MRT or BUS nowadays. The reason? Not beacuse of the Kiasu people or the disgusting people who digs thier noses or people with BO or people who listens to loud music or people with disgusting HP ring tones. But mental people!! It seems that i tend to attract this group of people around me when i board the public transport. Super irritating. Yeah i know im being mean and heartless..but i cannot stand them la. In one month i already encountered 3 incidents and the stories are as follows

Story 1: The fainting Spell
There was this uncle, age maybe 50 or 55 , like all old singaporen uncles, they wear brown or grey clothes and Goldlion pants. Nothing unusal there, so i stand oppsite of him . We both were standing beside the MRT door. I was leaning on the glass door , listening to my MP3 like most teens do. Then this Uncle opporsite of my started shivering, then making weird noises somthing like arh, ARH! HRk ARH!! then he started to faint, dizzy and he drops to his kness and slivering badly. At 1st i thought got some kind of disease on the MRT and i will finally get affected by somthing fatal thus no need to go NS. Hiaz too bad for me. Even more bad for the uncle oppsite of me. Everyone on the train was just looking at him, no one helped. Then i as a good samaritan, press the emergency bell, and talked to the train driver about what happened. After the short conversation , he told me to stay put , the station staff will attend to us shortly. As expected, i got lots of stares on the train..wtf..dun want to help still want to stare. So, in order to punish these people, when the train stopped, and the plateform staff approachs the MRT compartment where the fainting uncle was, i just walked out and went all the way to the far back of the train. I wonder what will those staring people on the train say or explain to the station staff .. haha.

Story 2: Itchi Women
Ok this happened , when i was going e-games lan shop to meet wilson and the long awaited dota pal Ryan. So as ususal , i was on the train minding my own business, reading my TA notes for prepration of the TA exam. This middle age women, make up quite think, her skin weather beaten , chinese, cheast flat walked into the train and stand right infront of me , with her back facing me. OK soo..3mins into the ordeal...she started scracthing non-stop, keep scracthing her neck, her arms , her legs, like she kenna rashes like that. Straight away i can tell she is mentally not stable liao. She kept saying in Hokkien why so hot why so hot? Siao one.. the MRT air con was doing fine. But she wasn;t...as she scracth and scracth , my powerful eyes can see the tiny skin flakes floating inthe AIR!!! Omg.. super disgusting.. the 4mins ride to Dover seems like forever. I need to get out badly.

Story 3: The screaming child
This kid, age maybe 6 -7 , chinese male, quite short (maybe im damn tall la) , grey face and yellow plastered skin. Was with his mother as they board the train next to me -_-;.
This youngster would, just walk around the train aimlessly, his mother would always drag him back to her side saying : come here boy in hokkien . Ok.. so this little boy , UNFORTUNATELY wondered to me. When he looked up at me.. he started screaming soo loudly.. omg..those staring ppl again. Not only that i scared i kenna misunderstood...people might think i rape that boy..omg omg.. he kept screaming.., his scream was a A note on the keyboard. Loud and high pitched, irritating and fucking uncalled for. So.. what i did was very expected from the people who know me well. I just ignore. I simply look out at the window , and mentally block myself from all the activities happening around me. The mother rushed to her boy's side , grabbed him by the neck and cover his month with her shirt , to stop him from screaming. After 5mins, the boy stopped screaming, and started laughing, wondering around again in the train. He didnt get a chance to wonder to me again, cause luckly, expo station has just arrived.

After these three incidents, i really dislike boarding public transport, i seem to attract these kind of people around me..very sian u know. Let the ppl from IMH stay in IMH. ok la.. i complain finish liao lol ~ Rex out !

WORKING

2007-04-26T02:25:00.000-07:00

dOING time in Wood Mackenzie, not macdonles but mac-'kenzie'. After spending two stressful weeks in the company helping my Employer as his trusted assisant doing tiring work such as checking accounts, driving clients, receving calls, presentations , data entrythings that he himself can alone do but wishes to spend more time fliting outside and spending his tremendous amount of wealth. He leaves me in his office most of the time covering for him. Noticed i nv address him as 'boss' cause i believe no one is the boss of me. Yes im pround, and hopefully one day i will BE MY OWN Boss. Having another chance at working in the corporate worldi get to experiance alot of new things. Like how OLs and OMs book thier tables at Lau Pa Sat using Tissue paper packets..dotz.. soo inconsiderate. LOs means Office Ladies and OMs means office men.What do i think of these working people? Hmmm..to me the OLs are really very pretty , well dressed, lots of make up and they look sexybut they dun appeal to me (Most Chinese espically from Sg don't) .. i feel they are like quite spoiled.. alittle bit of sun shine cannot take it..must bring umbrella to cover thier heads.Omg, ladies!!You all have been in the office for 3/4 of your damn day..still need cover..tsk tsk. Really a lack of exposure to nature. Should a flood comes into the city area, i think all will just die away.
Now for the OMs ..what can i say..rich,arrogant and most of them are damn fat with bulging Beer Bellies. Very different from the guys in the west.Again these males lack the exposure of nature. It seems that thier mind is niehter thinking of how to climb the coporate leader or who should i fuck next.Lol, both parties in general really lack enjoyment, passion and life. I see my collegdes in my office, very robortic, work and work.Thier conversation is also all about workWorse still they slang AHHHH cause alot of Ang MoaS In my office. STOP SLANGING!!omg.. soo insincere, i dun understand why can;t they talk like normal singapoernsyes speak properly i know. bUT I really think they sound soo fake when having conversations with people from other countries.Even Americans in general don't slang when they talk to ppl from Britain or Canada. Tsk tsk.. i feel i complain alot about thembut really OMs and OLs are the bloodline of Singapore's Finnacial capbabilites, they all have different aspirations and goals..unlike aunties all around this nation, like to complain and complain..little bit of thing also complain , if suddenly Singapore start snowing due to changing weather partternsim not surprised that they (Aunties/Uncles) will start complaining to HDB to do somthing about it.-_-; Again im Saying about other ppl liao. Hiaz.. how about myself? I find myself damn lazy la, work little bit need to go toliet hide and rest (the toliet is very big and clean ok!)I also can;t communicate much with those rich ppl in my office ..why arh? I think there is a gap between them and me, maybe i not wearing Amarni or Prada oFFICE shirts or maybe they can smell myunderwear not from CK.. LOL..watever la.. lastly i found out im not a desk bond person. I need a challenging job. SOmthing that requires organising, keeping me on my toes , answering lot of callsmeeting my own clients. establishing contracts that kind ...well its 5.25pm.. i think i go toliet again..play abit of water and perfume and sneak out of the office and run home¬Rex out! PS: I got a pay raise of $1.50 more per hour due to my amazing presentation to the clients ;]

Daiko Mania

2007-04-23T06:41:00.000-07:00

Wow.. i very very long nv blog or mention about my past CCA..SINGAPORE POLY DAIKO DRUM TEAM. Its been like 4 mths liao..and i can see the club is not dieing (As forecasted by some people, but rather growing in numbers.) Soo much ups and downs (Mostly ups) during my time there as a daiko player, i will nv forget the good times i had there and the determination to stay on for the FULL 3 years. Well i wish i could go back and see how they are doing , however i know my time there has ended and going back will just create awkward moments. Just as one generation takes over another.. i see the new generation has a lot of potential. But will the potential be tapped on ? Given that this new generation has lost alot of orginal tactics, skill and songs from the past, in Japanese Culture espically the time of those sumuria and ninjas, the newer generation always surpass the older one... however i don;t see that in this group, its seems the standard have been dropping drastically ever since Y.Zhong left. Well...no fears, the only person who can relive the standard of the past is none other then my good friend MZ. The only person among my Joniors who surpassed me in terms of skill and standards. His learns the songs fast, and able to predict the movements correctly.

Well, its really none of my business wheater what happens to them or not. Cause i have already passed on, or rather moving on to greater OR shitter things in life. Then why the Hell im i writing about them again? I ask myself that question..well maybe i have a few lessons left to teach them .. in order to survive in this CCA is one has to have the following

1) Passion, the love to perform, the love for big drums and power

2) Determination

3) Openess

Well.. wishing them all the best.. i'll close this chapter of my life once and for all on this blog. ~Rex out!

Cho Sueng South.Korea

2007-04-20T00:26:00.000-07:00

Soo today's blog post is about this guy from S.Korea. I been working at Mackenzi for the pass 4 days and suddenly this guy's news interested me. He killed 32 ppl at Virgina Tech unverisity ar Blacksberg. Well, since work was soooooo boring and stressfull, i took the opportunity to read every signal news that came up on him, where ,how , when he was born, what he did, why did he become like that and so on. Very interesting also..this guy kind of look like my friend alvin .. LOL... btw Alvin is my Yuhua friend ..not the lsf one.. mind u. OK..my thoughts about this guy..hmm.. i don;t know what went thru ur mind la dude, but you shouldnt do what u did. You killed inncocent ppl and then kill urself..one way ticket to hell for you la. Sorry to say, u didn;t let urself survive and repent if not u'll be in heaven liao..tsk tsk.. but i kind of feel sorry for him cause he must have suffered, he was alone, being persecuted as such..we asians know that espically in the west alot of persecution based on skin color,race and religion . Those ang mo espically thinking that they are high and mightier race. This is what you get for discrimination other ppl...dillusional/confused/upset killers. Mr. Cho even though what he did was really wrong, he did wake up America and those spoiled rich kids out there. The proud were humbled, the rich was stumbled. Thats what i think.... but one thing is..how come when it comes to American masscares they broadcast it until like very big deal like that, how about million upon millions of people from Africa,India and Asian cities who die everyday from these killings? How about the war in Iraq ? How many ppl were killed by Americans and no1 gives a damn..abit unfair yeah. Anyways.. politics is not my forte ..shouldnt dwell in things that im unclear about. I just hope i survive NS..thats all ~Rex out

* Brings good luck

2007-04-16T06:39:00.000-07:00

Well, this entry abit special, soo here u go friends my model picture. Of course im not a gal, please look here ---> ... over here <--- is my friend * , yes * ..she was the one who inspired me to go for modeling. Anyways, i recently look thru her friendster and saw these photos. After i load her photos into my C drive strange things start to happen. Well the be more precise, good things started to happen. The modeling agency.. i mean my agency called me up for an assigment at Taka Ngee ann city go photo shoot for some mens wear. $150 le.. not bad hor ^_^ , next i recieved a letter from my school, and shocked as ever, i got the COM!!!! COM means certificate of merit ..AMEN. I can;t believe i got it. omg.. soo happy top 5% le..have to thank God and * blah ahahah.. soo i'll be closing my Poly life with a Bang during graduation. * must turn up hor.. lol .. ^_^V.. but like all things black and white. Bad news came on msn, some of my friends started to get NS letter liao. I soo upset to hear that .. hiaz.. y y y .. y must i suffer, why must i protect ppl who complain and complain, y must i serve this lame nation..arh.. that pisses me off. Think when i recieve it.. i'll enter into depression le.. damn sian la.. oh well..* arh i nv ask ur permission to upload these photos le. if u dun like sms straight away.then i can take it down ;], dun sue me.. i got no $$ lol... if u sue me..also can.. i just jump down and no more NS for me liao ~ rex out

Blessed Genes

2007-04-11T04:06:00.000-07:00

Its soo god damned Diffcult to upload these pictures unto my blog. Arh. (Note to self: Im a technology moron) okok.. now back to the main topic, blessed genes. Last 3 days, i finally became a freelance model..that is to say, im currently empolyed under a certain agency and if got assigments will call me go down to shoot. Why did i go down? I keep asking myself this question. You think you very good looking meh.. self doubt, hiaz..but what the heck.. i when down to try anyway. Soo it was indeed good experience , one of the lady stylist scolded me for wearing such ugly clothes for the photo shoot.. my god..my pride was like broken. LOL..i mean my clothes doesn;t look that bad what... haiz..so i have to remind myself that this is a modeling agency, cannot anyhow where. So ok lor.. that bitch stylist , when into one of her many cupboard of clothes to pick one for me.

So then..the make up starts, i dun really like what she was doing to my face, put soo much powder, add water color also, toner, fake eye lashes, then use all sort of different brushes to paint my face. She did it roughly and without love.. i can sense it. With that done, i was ready for the shoot, soo i was urshered into this studio, where this young be-spec girl was ready with her trusty camera. She spoke in chinese saying stand here.. i took like 1.2 seconds to recognize the sentence.. then she said relax, right leg and left leg stand properly, dont bend your back all in chinese.. i must have took like over 10 seconds to register lol.. sad la my chinese, i kept saying huh?! and what!?.. it took her awhile to change her communication medium.. that is.. into pure nice english. Having said that, i remember her saying things like, smile, look at the camarer, stand properly, legs point to one angle, smile naturally please, don;t stand like monkey god, don't give me cheesy smile.. those kind of lame funny comments. Overall i enjoyed the experience ..the lessons i learnt is 1) Be confident 2) Wear Properly 3) Don't let others pull you down, if you think you look beautiful then you ARE beautiful. The reason why i went for the model shoot is beacuse i know i am blessed with good genes, i don;t care what other think liao, i just know im goodlooking to a certain extend ;p and Yes it is true that beauty comes ftom within , however i find that sentence too overated. Beauty does come from within lets say about 60% , but the 40% is outside looks such as 1st impression and stuff like that. Btw.. did i spell genes correctly? LOL.. anyways, im looking forward to my university letters from NUS,NTU and SMU.. i really hope all three will accpet me la. Plus i dun know whether im getting the COM thing. If so i will change course to tourism management blah.. tsk tsk. Hiaz.. soo much future lies ahead of me.. and here i am bragging about modeling .. hiaz..the real horror will begin once i enter NS. SIAN SIAN SIAN. Not funny lor, i think i can;t surivie in there le.. maybe i'll lose my mind, go nuts, enter into depression.. ARH GOD PLZ HELP ME!!!!!! If you put me among monsters, my own demon will come out, and i dun want that. Haiz.. why NS...T_T...

no mood to write liao la.. ~ Rex out ..ps Fck NS!

I love Rainy days

2007-04-01T08:48:00.000-07:00

Roar!!!!.. This is the 1st sound that comes to mind when i see this icon. SMU means if any Singaporean Manage to get in that good for U! Yup.. why i say that le.. cause its the most diffcult private university to get in. Pretigous and well known some may say. I recently when for thier interview .. i tell you , its nuts. Firstly.. they gather us into one room. Then talk abit about how lucky we were to get the interview call..saying somthing like this " Well, guys just to let you all know how far you all have come, out of 12,000 applicants this year, only 2000 were choicen for the interview"..i was like -_-' .."then out of these 2000 only 697 places are avaliable..then i was like #_#!!!!" .. ok lor..i mean i was soooo LUCKY to get the interview might as well try as hard as possible to get in blah.

Then they urshered us into another room , this time seperating us into smaller groups. I was with AVEline heng arh! And we were given current affairs article to read. The article was about "STARBUCKs under hotwater- forbbien in forbbien city" Dont know i spell forbbien correctly not ? LOL... ya..back to the incident. Ok.. so we were given 10 mins to read ..soo i read lor. The people around me were nevourse.. i can tell..the compeitive tension was there. There was this gal from SAJC , this guy from malaysia dun know from which lame school, this guy finish army , another business guy from one company and this lame property agent.. omg.. i really hate him ..lol.. This agent.. talk alot of shit, have even start the interview ..talk soo much crap. like oh..my name is lamer ..am a property agent ,i earn $50,000 per mth, the goverment very bad force me to come SMU to apply..watever la dude.. and the worse most sickening sentence he ursher out of his property mouth is this " U guys apply for NUS and NTU right? I only apply for SMU , cause i think it the best university to get into" infront of the SMU admin people.. WTF.. HYPOCRITE!! He sickening behavoiur forced me to read the article more properly..lol.. ok soo.. i used the 10mins wisely.. 1st i come out with a stand. Which was.. i DO NOT agree that starbucks should be in operations in F.City. Beacuse
1) Is disrespectful , to the culture, the history and the citizens of China
2) Spoils the feeling, the atmosphere
Woah..only these two points.. i was like pondering what else to put in.. i called my cousin some more..asking for more suggestions. But before she could give me more pointers.. the admin person called us into another room liao..too bad for me la.. Ok..BATTLE time..as we entered the room shaped like a semi-circle room with a round table right infront of us. The two professors were already sited. So ok lor.. i took the seat closest to the female professor cause maybe..just maybe i could charm her with my looks.. LOL..(JOKING!!) My friend aveline took the seat oppsite of me..wise gal..that property agent ..silly guy..took the seat furthest away...haha ok soo the war began.. the Indian professor started the conversation..so one by one he ask our opinons about starbucks..almost everyone was very agressive man.. they talked alot, rised thier hands, act eager to answer.. i knew i had to get a move and get my voice heard..soo i interupted , if i remember correctly these are the sentences i said " We have to take into consideration of the republican's feeling , by having a starbucks there it would invade the long history and the pride of the chinese" " Can you all imagin, a mac donales mini-stand selling ice cones right in the centre of our WWII monument?" " I have personally been to F.city, when i look around, i see the history, i see the power that once surrounded the place, the blood shed, the tragdey and drama that took place..and then suddenly i see starkbucks.. wouldnt that spoil the entire feeling"
Ya this is all i could remember la.. that property agent..i dun know wtf he talking about..cause his notion was that he agree to have starbucks la.. then he dun know talk about what being open minded, what american firm ..then link it to pounggol land size ...really NO LINK.. just look at my blog tile " I love rainy days" and try linking it to this entry..Really NO FCKING LINK RIGHT!!! thats what im trying to show.. then that malaysian boy ..like to slang. Slang until like some westerner like that.. amen to you dude.. you dun sound sincere at all in my opionon. Then that JC gal.. like to agree after some one made thier point etc: " Starbucks is an american firm..maybe thats the reason why the people of China dun like" JC gal: "Yeah i agree ..blah blah blah " Property agent : "But you all must think, the place is soo big, y would they bother about starbucks only, how about american express" JC gal : "Yeah i agree..blah blah blah" see what i mean.. after the entire interview i was like soo sick.. soo sick of ppl like that ..lol.. just too add on some more.. my friend aveline saw a glimpse of the our interview results..both were an A grade.. woah at least it give me some hope blah .. anyways i tried my best la.

Long time ago ( exactly 3 mths ago) everytime i pass by this unviersity i was like very eager to go in.. the Lion head motivated me to work hard for my POly results.. and it did no doubt. However after i got information that thier degree courses were like compulsory four year!! I was soo turned off.. i mean.. 4 years le.. by the time i come out i will be already 2$ years old.. Hiaz.. soo old by then sure genna mid life crisis. Well all i can say is.. i tired my best.. if i dun get in then so be it. I will be no regrets at all. If this is the path God has choosen for me ..then ok.. if not is also ok .. whats important is i have gained the experience of an SMU interview..and am grateful for that experience. Lastly to Aveline i really hope u get into SMU.May ur dreams come true BLAH!.~Rex out

I PASSED!!!!!

2007-03-15T07:39:00.000-07:00

Omg.. i can believe i passed me driving test ..MUHAHAHAH. Okok ..calm down . Let me begin my story.

OK.. The morning of the test which is today, i woke up at 6.45 and went for warm up with Mr Willam my intructor, we did 1 hour of parking.. parrall and vertical parking. Did it 3 times. Was a good warm up indeed. After that he said that i can pass my TP test while alighting me at chinese garden MRT. Even with his encouragment .. i felt that i cannot pass. I was soo doubtful at myself...as i walked back home..feeling the pressure and the fear of failing was not a good experience. I know myself.. i have slightly low driving EQ as compared to other people .. but what the heck.. i knew i worked very hard for it. And i deserve to pass..and i DID PASS OH YEAH!!! Im soo happy. OKok clam down. Before the start of the infamous driving test, i was suppose to revise all the notes that i wrote down from all the 30+ over training.. instead i didn;t. I just relaxed and couldnt be bother , this time im going to use my common sense and feel to take the test.
OK soo i was ursured into the room with 9 other nervous ppl, we waiting us of names were balloted and called to be distirubed to the respective testers. I took alook at the people around me, their faces depicted the time i took my 1st TP test..full of fear that is. haha.. i also dun know why i soo calm God 's grace maybe.. and then finally my name was called and my test route was route 7..lol how ironic. After like 5 mins, one by one we were called to go down with our testers. I saw that the nervous girl beside me was given a fiece looking instructor and i thank God i wasn;t her LOL.. next was this tall moronic looking guy ( Look like a geek) was given a even fiecer tester and again i thank god i wasn;t him ...Then my turn liao.. i was given to a MOnsterous look instructor..OMG..LOL..I really must thank god liao like that =_=;

Soo fiece looking some more when i said good afternoon, he didn;t give a damn to me. Ask me start .. ok lor then i start lor. Check blind spot i shout to myself.. mentally ..lol..ok soo i made my way through the COMPLICATED circuit. Omg.. i really didn;t know how i manage the circuit. oo confusing.. cause as a private student..our kind do not have as much practice as the school drivers. That is why priavte student's passing rate is a mere 17% as compared to school drivers 30% plus. Oh well.. i did indeed have a hard time in the circuit. I almost failed when i did the directional change again..wth right. I think i turn too late while getting out +_= .. but once i was outside..different story haha.. it was soo smooth that the instructor didn;t even obther about marking down any demerit points when we were outside. Traffic lights were all green.. amazing yeah.. but there was a short jam near the BBK MRT station though. Well too cut the long story short..after the TP test.. i was to follow him to the same test room, there he finally spoke to me..and btw.. i didn;t know my instructor was such a joker. +_=; He made alot of jokes, say he hates working in BBDC etc etc talk alot of shit. THen finally he told me i passed WHAT a relieve.hehe Of course b4 i left the room i asked him how come he soo fiece during the test. His reply was " We people are supposed to look fiece , so that we can evaulate how the student react under pressure " =_= ---> (EXPECTED) . Well, passsing is easy, what i learn from this experience is 1) If u fail, dun give up try again 2) Confidence really helps
Yup yup.. my life as a driver has finally begin. Amen to taht ;] ~REX OUT

Anna and the King/ Prome

2007-03-07T19:08:00.000-08:00

Well, i just came back from Bangkok..Super tired and super boring trip. The reason.. its myself.. i im a person who hates to shop ..i really hate it. I dun blame my friends or anyone..just myself. BKK is seriously boring in my opionon. The air sucks, the enviorment sucks too. Soo much smoke, heat and chaos. But there are times that i really treasure during the trip such as the night gambling with my friends and visits to the Thai Zoo etc etc. But i got to be honest. I nv want to go back there again, a very very stressful holiday indeed. However some of my friends really dissappoint me, having known them for 3 years...i can;t believe how " Sinful" they were when they were in Thailand. Smoking and drinking.. i can accpet but inviting a Gay prositutude is abit to much..some more to our hotel.. touch here and there, message and charge $300 Sg dollar then genna con then give upset look at me... then boast non-stop on how pretty she is.. ya la.. i get it..u feel cheated...dun have to keep consoling urself please.. she is a damn guy for God Sakes. And what is soo nice to keep talking about that gay women for the entire trip? Talk and talk.. come back singapore also talk about her.. shut up la . "Big deal if she is super pretty, Big deal if her breasts are big. But all is Fake .." Hiaz.. im trying to let out all my frastration.. paiseh. Well.. like i said.. all thing will pass and im real glad im out of BBK already. Next trip (hopefully) with my dear aveline will be more fun and relaxing.

Ok.. now for the Prome.. Its my very 1st time attending a school prome. Poly prome is indeed a nice experience. "People get to dress up thier best and do make-up spend lots of $$ to look pretty but end up no one notices beacuse every1 look good as well..see the equation?" Haha.. really deserve it. Waste time and money. As for me.. i just anyhow buy a $100 plus coat and reuse my Step fathers blue shirt and there i go.. cheap and simple and i look good i must say hehe ;] . Well it was an experience i enjoyed. The food was good, the host was noisy, the people at my table were alright. Thk god some people didn;t turn up if not spoil my evening. Took pictures with alot of pretty asian gals. Ya.. like that lor. Now as we SP student go out own way.. i hope one day maybe 10 years down the road ..i get to see them again.. this time as sucessul business men and women. ;] The future holds great surprises.. i will see by then carely will already have a family (LOL) Aveline is having her 2nd child and earning her 3rd million.. Kris still studying perhaps PHD (lol).. ok~ Rex out

Being Host...

2007-02-22T08:47:00.000-08:00

Well, its my first time hosting a CNY Sch of Biz gambling session for my DBF Friends today, was kind of tiring though, i had to sms alot of people, some people purposely dun want to response, well others simply say see how, or i just woke up or i got last mintue interview that kind of common excues.. this kind of attitude is not well looked upon in my dictionary. Anyways, i managed to get around 12 of my friends to come at 3pm.. before that, i had to make preparations such as buy "Yu Sheng", buy all sort of snackes twisties etc etc, orange juice mixtures and many more junk food at gaint. After which i took the liberity to chill the red wine and the wines glasses in the freezer. After all that, i ..singal handedly took the entire wooden table out to the hall way on my own.. quite impressed with thysefl though hehe. Then i took a short nap before my friends arrived at 3.25pm late as usual.

After i greeted them at the door, they started giving me organes wishing me happy new year that kind of stuff. Interesting.. i dont have any Ang Bao to give them ..hope they dun mind.
Immediately we headed towards the gambling table , move all the junk food away and started playing poker cards. Being host i was given the privilge to start the Black Jack game as the "banker" , of course i lost $$ the 1st 3 rounds.. quite sickening... then after that was uptrend all the way ..won like $27 like that then that astrid won me $8 T_T in just on shot beacause i dared her to put down $4 to challeged me. Then ya.. marjong won $0.50, more black jack, more brigde.. all in all quite fun la. I think overall they had a very good time at my house, cause there were abundance of sweet drinks, junk food, sweets, wine etc etc all FREE. There was even pizza , 2 LARGE pizzas courtesy of my mum. Then we gambled and gambled until about 10.15pm like that...i started asking them to help me keep the tables and chairs and do some cleaning . What surpise me most is.. after all the cleaning.. before they left.. they asked back for thier organes they gave me this afternoon.. im was shocked!!! I said this : " What?! What the point in giving me oranges in the first place if your gona take it back?!" Of course,... my friends explained to me its about the luck thing and its tradition for the chinese to do that.. and i seriously lack our chinese cultures and practices .
Well.. after everything.. after they left.. i needed to do some sweeping and mopping and then suddenly i felt very depressed.. mood swing perhaps, i kept thinking of the inevitable national service thing..in my heart i feel very stressed up and disgusted that im going to serve NS soon.. well well..thats life. However i wished that my friends could say at least a thank you to me for all the effort and food and entertainment i provided. So what if the red wine was abit off its from the company they sent it to me. Just a thank you will make a difference to me man. Anyways.. i hoped i played a good host to them also... now for mroe important stuff.. im going thailand soon with my friends, i pray to God to protect us save and sound as we enjoy ourselves there.. having said that i hope to get an accident there too so i can skip NS lol.. ok ..nothing else to Blog. God please give me direction in life and the strength to survive thru NS.. amen..~ Rex out

Local Talent..

2007-02-15T22:47:00.000-08:00

Hiaz.. i just watch " The Dance Floor" yesterday night and was horrified at how the hosts and co-host host the damn show. I mean.. such low standards should not be tolerated on TV, why is it that we are always having lower standards then our America Brothers? Comparing "The Dance Floor" with "So You Think You Can Dance", Amazing Race vs Amazing Race Asia, American Idol vs Singapore Idol.. ya i know.. i watch alot of TV.. but im truely disgusted with the fact that always our standards in Singing, dancing and even hosting have turn out to be inferior to those of America. Take for example that Glen Ong.. dun know WTF he talking during the dance floor, draggy, laughing at his own jokes.. horrible.. and our 1ST singapore Idol..( Btw he is not and will nv be my idol) Tafick Buttisa (some more his name hard to spell) if he ever goes to try out for American idol..sure sure kick out during the prilimary arounds. Aiyo..sing until like FCK. Then that Olianda (look like my cousin) i think she knows she cannot make it , lucky she go advertise her fatness to earn some pocket money. lol.. Back to "The Dance Floor" Wao kao.. i tell u the jugdes also another one, scream and shout like babarians, only li lin knows whats she talking about, some more when it was time to jugde the old couple 3/4 of the judges like took pity on them saying " oh, you reach a rape age" " It takes great effort to be able to dance like that " or " Your my man " WTF.. be honest la.. like Li lin say somthing like this
" DAMN BORING, OLD PEOPLE ARE NOT
SUPPOSED TO DANCER ON TV" lol ..no offence to old people but really you all should just retire dun bother coming on TV and show your slow moves. Go cook somthing for ur grandchildern perhaps.. ;p
Well all is not lost, i heard that the best local talent ever is Stafunie Sun, followed by people like Rain , or Sun Ho somthing like that.. my best buddy like Stafunie Sun beacuse of her breasts .. but i only like her singing nothing more. If only she sings more of english songs that would be great. Hiaz nothing else to blog, just that CNY is coming the Swine Year , i cant invite my Muslim friends cause everything is made of Pork. Luckly im immune to pork, but i seldom eat it cause it will make your lips thick which is scientifically proven by me , what i dread most of CNY is the greesting of relatives, i hate it cause everytime i greet someone they might think i want their Ang Bao only.. plz lor.. i greet cause im forced too and it is also a matter of courtesy. Yes.. im a person who loves $$ but i will not go to a level of begging people for MOney.. damn relatives.. lol .. well these are thoughts to myself. ~Rex out

$$$$$$$$ THE AWARD BOARD $$$$$$$

2007-02-06T08:35:00.000-08:00

Gentalmen and Ladies, 2004-2007 School of Business (Singapore Polytechnic) Award List goes out to the following candidates that hav/had or had reasonably impacted my life through out my time in SP. Thanks for everything wheather good or bad. Award winners are to seek me out ( if you ever get to see me ) and collect your $10 from me. And without further ado...
!!!!!!!LET THE AWARD CEREMONY BEGIN!!!!!!!

Best buddy award
Edmund Lee Jun Chen
For being there for me through think and thin, best best friend,
making my time in SB great and asking me to fuck off.

Best female buddy award
Aveline Nuralisum
ITP very good friend/advisor, hopely future business partner /study buddy

Supporting Best buddy award
Lim Zhi Wei
Drum expert, Dota Alx leader,China buddy, lucky bastard, my very good friend

Supporting Best female buddy award
Cynthia Chua
Talk non-stop, good christain, happy girl, FMRP helper , PM leader

Best Competitor and Rivial
Chris Koh Si Wei
Smart, competitive, classrap of 2004, dota buddy

Best supporting Competitor and Rivial
Kris Oh Sz Chet
Cute, Lovely, Brillant, compeititve , my classrap sucessor, very good friend/study buddy

Best quirky, flirting friend
*
Lovely to talk to, joke with and share problems with, good listener, lovely girl.

Best good friend
Sharon Tan
CHC introducer, good friend, crazy, kind and earthly person

Best Smoking Friend
Ming Chen
He Smokes only, adventurous, future Everest partner i hope, dota neutral farmer.

Best Daiko Bubby
Ming Zhong and Fernado
Tioman trip, treasury hunt and many more

Best Daiko Junior
Jack
Commited, Loyal, best social person, down to earth

Most Hardworking friend
Faziuls
Write too much, FP project friend, too hard working.

Best Lecturer
Mrs Chua
Most friendly to me. Gave me accounting exam answers and tips ( kIDDING NOT JOKING !!)

Most Scary Lecturer
Ambrose Merandous
Gave me good advise how to suceed in life, MA, Brillant person, super smart love saying Bullshit.

Best Gang Award
ZW, Ed, DR, XM
When out to eat alot of times, talk , play bridge, gossip, steal things , unforgetable gang .

Best Study Group award
Ave and Kris
Suffered together, research alot of shit, PM exam tips, exam saving group

Disclaimer
Efforts to make Names exact have been taken into consideration, the award commencer will not be liable for any breach of litigation arising as such protected under the 14.55 "Freedom of speech act". The recipant , if unstatisfied having thier names stated on this blog , shall inform the award commencer within 7 days of noticing it. The commencer will gladly take it down upon the request of the recipant. Further more , the recipant and the commencer have known or ought to have reasonably known that this entry's solo purpose is to praise those who have impacted the commencer's life in his study life in polytechnic. Any arising deteriment should be brought forward to the commencer immediately without due delay. Other things constant.

My Daiko Life

2007-02-04T09:21:00.000-08:00

Alirght. i promised to have the award show after i blog this entry .
My Daiko Life.. hiaz.. and wow.. its been 3 years liao. I been in that club for 3 damn it Years. So much ups and downs. Many quiters and losers. lol.. well well.. a little abit of what ive been thru these few years in that club where the drum beats so loud it wakes up the rain God.

Year 1
When i 1st entered SP.. i was siting at the convention hall.. as they flashed out the pictures of CCAs they have at SP.. somthing caught my eye.. the Daiko group. So i when for the CCA drive and got myself..enlisted.. ;p
Back then I was.. a noob drumer. Really noob.. was taught how to stand "5 O'clock direction" , how to hold the sticks and of course.. how to shout. Training then was diffcult... very diffcult as compared to the ppl in charge now... slack and under disciplined. Back then. the trainers were very fiece, there was this bitch. .. if u remember i wrote on one entry in 2005 that kept scolding me.. say i no stamina to countiue traingin blah blah. lol.. she taught me the daiko style funk.. which i felt like fuck... the president that time told me this : " Ivan once youre good enuff , i 'll let you perform" it was the Misubitsu performance that time, good old days , good memories. Back then there were like 8 guys and 11 gals... my clan was big i really wanted to quit... but i told myself if i can make it these 3 years with them.. its will be my accomplishment.

After a few months...
I got promoted to Assitance Quater master. I was thrown to friday practice with the gals. And then there were ppl like HR, J, XXX,XXX omg.. i forgot thier names liao.. lol...they were the famous F5 guys older then me by one daiko year. Yes some of them thought they learn daiko songs fast.. but they in my opinon lack the basic style. Quite as i was that time.. i didnt mix around much with them.. nor with the seniors. The seniors back then were YZ, ALY,JL,LM those ppl .. treated them " the F-5" like Daiko cream of the crops. Back then .. i remember being treated like an insignificant person.. its like i nv existed when ever i go help them carry drums or go practice or go attend the AGM. Even the gals in my clan were more able to connet with them (Seniors) cause they like to convers in Chinese. Except i remember JW was quite friendly towards me. Other then that.... all treated me like nothing. Then the diease struck ..this diease is called the MIA diease.. slowly one by one fell victim to the MIA diease.. as they slowly disappear.. like 1 - 2 mths nv come.. then come back again..then disappear again for a long time.. then come back again..its like wtf..treat the club like a hotel. Got once my clan the gals one of them .. i think, embrassed to come back..ask the mother to come down with her...to see her train.. disgusting man.. Ya soo .. slowly ..the gals in my clan and the F5 guys began to say bye bye to the club.. it was then ALY started to talk to me.. we both were to learn the old version of DOH... i remembered clearly.. i started interacting with the future committee. And thus i entered year 2 of daiko.

Year 2
After YZ left, ALY became president...and i was PRJ.C cum quater master. My entire clan... gone. Except left me.. i started feeling significant and ppl in the club were talkign to me.. " Of course la.. left me only what.. then what? Talk to the drums arh" lol ... I remembered being tasked to get the New rules up for the club house and its was harvest for the new generation of daiko players.. So like after the CCA drive.. my 1st CCA drive.. we harvest ppl like ZC,MZ,MO,JCK,FURN,LC,XX,XH.. and of course my dear sharon.. once Sharon join my daiko club liao.. i felt more at familar in my club. So ya.. we trained them.. and ALY they all trained me..soo been thru a lot of performances in Year 2.. i really spent alot of time to build up the club... as there were very few senoirs then.. and my clan left only me. I really did alot of stuff like organising, recording down perforamances , going to se Hope, checking Mail box, cleaning up the club house.. all the dirty work the president "ASK" me to do.. and i did it willingly.. its called boot licking.. yes .. i have to confess.. i wanted to be the next president..i really wanted it or the VP position... either positions will make me happy. However, life is always full of surpries.. during my ITP.. i got news that two of my junoirs got the VP, P positions.. Sharon got the QM title and FND got the PRJ.C .. i was reduced to ordinary memeber.. lol..i remembered feeling very betrayed , upset and angry. it was then i really wanted to quit.. but i promised myself to hang on one more year blah. I still havent forgive them though..only time will heal all wounds. Then we enter year 3

Year 3
After the transition.. i told myself to be humble and just contiue to support the club.. as i love drums and performing. So i decided to support the New President... after a few months i began to realise it was a blessing in disguise... end up all the work or rather most of the work were given to the "P" person to do it.. there wasn;t any1 helping him.. organsing, planing every damn thing all give him do..i always thought to myself.. lucky i nv got this kind of responsiblity. hehe..
There were alot of conflict through this year..the P didnt manage things well at 1st, lot of complains from the memebers and from MR E.. Break his drumset soo many times... and it was partly my fault cause i nv guide or assit him the least bit...the alumni had to come down and settle the problem.. lol.. Once the problem was settled.. the MIA dieases come again..some ppl felt they were too left out of the group then quit, some ppl genna insulted then quit, some ppl just quit cause they very lazy to come. I was also surpised that the VP insulted me on her blog (Yes i read ur blog that time).. say what i nv come la.. i nv support them la.. blah X3. I wanted to scold her cause it was going to exam .. i cannot always go back mah.. eventually.. i didn;t la.. i forgave her. Totally forgave her. We even when to tioman .. and i remembered the good times i had with my junoirs. That time will nv be forgotten. We had fun..real fun.. tracking forgest, exploring, snorkleing, JCK eatting then shit after that.. the Rock FALL!! I remembered.. omg.. i missed that time. Ya..soo good things nv last soo long.. FND suddenly quit.. i mean..his one of my good friends.. just quit like that after the DAIKO amazing race. The alumni actually came down, those 3 -4 generations before us.. wanted us to show them our standard.. They were NOT impressed.. i wasn;t surpised. They (Alumnis) even though play like shit.. they had the coolness and the basic technics right.. i was soo happy when the 1st President who founded the club.. priased me for my daiko skills and performance.. he said in chinese " Ni de Da Fa wan de Hun how" Means u played very well .. lol.. Of course.. even though i dun like to shout.. after training for like 3 damn years. my daiko skills is uqiue , basics are all stable, stlye and speed brillant...I have to compliment myself.. as i was the only among those NOOBS!!! got praised.. HUmble plz ivan Humble!!! bUT...
Hiaz. suddenly the P disappoint me again.. purposely avoided and excluded me from the Superstar concert TMD.. i feel damn betrayed.. had can u allow the alumni to take up all the performing position? I specifically told him i was free and was able to perform.. i was soo looking forward to it. Then went i sms him.. he tired to avoid me.. saying what exam crap.. dun want to distrub Blah X4... Omg.. what if i nv sms him at all? He will just leave me guess wheather im performing or not.. sick!!!! Some more say i overact.. =_+; You throw ppl asided when u dun need them.. ANyway i saw the Superstar concert... Pathetic.. and i thought u all will go onto the main stage.. i cannot understand this kind of actions.. well .. i knew some how the Presidents and i dun see eye to eye. Oh well.. goodbye then I graduating soon. I feel i have done all i can, my entity of a Daiko performer has come to an end. I will miss the club house, the drums, Fernado, JACK, the wooden sticks , the small drums...etc etc. Its too bad I and the P have left off on a bad note. I dun see that its my fault..then i will not apologise to him. I had it... its time to move on ... i think i will not attend thier concert blah... the daiko team nv celebrate my Bday b4.. and nv wish me seasonal greetings.. not say i want to complain but .. its good to wish those who supported u for 3 damn years.
and lastly.. even though i dun get a goodbye farewell party like most graduating Daiko members do.. i feel the club itself or rather the spirit of the DAIKO club wishes me all the best in life and many thanks. One day if i rich enuff i'll empoly the daiko team come do an opening performance for my chain of business. hehe..
Thats all i have to record...~REX out

Ps. I have benefited from the Club also
1) I got $2000 thru out this 3 years
2) I recieved the Exellence in service award.. maybe this year also
3) I got to meet lots of famous ppl like Taufik..FAN WOng ..
4) I got to experiance backstage setup and crews
5) I made good friends like MZ, JCK, FRND, JNET, and many more
6) My Kobanda made the song list
7) I got a total of 92 CCA points from there ;] total CCA 145 muhahah

KEEPING NUS,NTU and SMU in view

2007-01-29T09:17:00.000-08:00

WellX3 , im been soo busy these few days, TO, FP, FMRP, BD exams. Sickening ya.. i know. Im kind of struggling with PM notes.. seriously his notes are soo vague. I really dun understand WTF his talking about CML, Capital Asset model ..SMLJ.. Well if i get a C i won't be surprised. I seriously have no strength left to study. Everytime is like.. suffering, trying soo hard to absorb information that will not be used in my life.. Whats the point. And if i get a C.. and the 3 major university some how do not accpet me even though i got like 11 competition/commendation certificates plus 139 CCA points and 4 testimonials .... then so be it. I mean.. im kind of know why Xiao Shi when into Moccah university. Should i enter NTU business school .. i would have to spent 3 years again to study this kind of shit. I have to consider man.. i dun want to suffer again. I want to earn $$$$ .. not keep studying and nv grow up . Hiaz.. after all the effort put in to my studies.. i find that if i dun go into the local university will be a damn waste. Hiaz.. dun know what to do.. should i register or not.. I ask myself.. are you really happy ivan? Is this what u really want .. when u come out of the university you will be like 26 years old.. WTF.. damn old and only obtain a degree? That thought just sickens me. There is an alternative thought, i could just study in a private university and get 2 years Examption (<-- Paiseh my spelling wrong like hell ;[) ... but some people will think i not good enough to enter local uni woah. People and thier expectations.. lame.. btw do you know NUS business school is rank top 115 AS OF 2007.. plz le.. they soo thick skin reject students whose GPA not 3.5 and above? WTF is this.. Universities like KAPLM top 70 still accpet le.. whats going on here. Is Nus AN EMPTY vessel making the most noise.?
Well.. there still time to think about it. My Time in Singapore POlytechnic is about to be OVER. IM kind of sad and happy at the same time. i WILL not get to see some people every again yeah! but also i will miss ppl like * , GM, EDMud, ZW, DR, AV,COL, KIS, CYN, XM, SHARE, RUD,HIT,LY, and many more after i graduate. Like Uncle Cheong told me, that time pass very fast and soon we will all go our own way, but he advise me to keep in contact with them as they might be future business partners and make profit out of them ..... LOL..After knowing my TO teacher.. i find him to be a very decent man. Although abit weird la.. As for my class .. I will miSS u all le (most of you).. MY dear class DBF 3B/06..all the times we have been thru and the shit that the lecturers throw at us.. although you all always want to backstap me at times... i also nv complain.. i hope you all will have a bright future ahead... some of you might pass away in 10 years time.. but nvm la.. thats life blah .. The next entry will be a dedication of thanks too all my dear friends, Best friend, best bubby, best gang , best "girl-friend", best clown friend, best competitor and last best lectuture.
Alright.. tml got to wake up at 8.am to study with Kris and av.. for PM... all the best for to me..
PS. God plz forgive me cause i nv go CHC for like 4 weeks liao.. i know i should put you 1st but hor CHC is soo damn far and exams are killing me.. plz forgive my sins and my disobidance. Amen~ REX OUT
I want to earn money for GOd..to be his financial Funnel ..and earn $$ for myself also la.lol..

2007... Can i survive it?

2006-12-30T23:34:00.000-08:00

Oh well, this is the final day of 2006. Looking back, this year have been full of ups and downs.
This year's downs are/ This year's Ups are

1) i did my sicking ITP /Got an A grade for ITP ;]

2) Didn;t Enter the BSG competition /Got very good results

3) Leaving Poly /Growing in Christ

4) Didn;t get presidency /Have more free time, more time for myself

5) Check blind S.D didn;t go so well /FYP ending

6) Financial Planning Group/ When for Tioman trip

7) Won $$ at world cup gamble
Well, it seems like there were more ups then downs this year. But the question still lies in 2007, can i surivive this year? Im going to do my FCKING National service soon which is in 2007. Some people think it is very amusing to watch me go to tekong. But have they ever considered how i feel about going there? Wasting my time and life there to learn how to defend this stressful country? ..Erh the more i think about it the more sick i feel. A friend of mine said that if i fail Napfa test i will have a higher chance to get a slack job in NS.. i know i can easily pass the test let alone obtained a Silver .. but i CHOOSE this path.. i dun know is this what God has intended for me. But im super confused and fearful of next year. Can i survive BTM? Hiaz.. wish i wasn;t born in this country. Should i not make it pass next year .. then all i got to say is it was a damn worth it time to be on earth this pass 19 years, all the happiness and achievements i have experience will not be forgotten.
Whatever happens i have to try to get thru this tuff period in my life. Countiue to have faith in God and step up for him blah... My last words for this year, i wish everyone i knew even those who pissed me off badly this year a Happy New year.

Check blind spot?

2006-12-14T07:30:00.000-08:00

Hiaz... tml will be a very defining or a very breaking moment for me. It will be my"check blind spot day". Yes my cousin and infact my most of my entire family(The males) have passed this for the 1ST time, their achievement do not encourage me..but give me more pressure. Now im feeling very very stressed up . So many expectations and $$ have gone into my "check blind spot" training. I wish i will not fail la.. i really really wish. But, im not confident, to be frank i do not have enuff ciruit training. Sian. If i fail i will be very dissapointed with myself. I know some ppl will laugh at me. But what the heck la.. i'll try my best. If fail..then fail.. the important thing is i do not give up , try again and eventually i will (i believe) suceed. With that said ( Looks at the time) its already 11.37 pm.. got to wake up at 5.45 to prepare myself. Hiaz.. i feel this heavy weight on my shoulders.. and all these stupid projects bombarding me.. super irriting. I keep reminding myself the follwing points

1) Always check mirrors and traffic lights

2) Keep LEFT damn it

3) Signal early and precise

4) Give way and be courteous

5) Confident

Hiaz.. why im i soo not spontenous about this, having such an analytical mind has it downfall. Hiaz. hiaz hiaz. "God i really want to pass god..plz." With that said.. i gtg sleep.. all the best to myself. ~rex out

SOG.(Holy entry Non-believer plz dun read)

2006-11-15T02:19:00.000-08:00

Gosh.. I dreamt about SOG yesterday night ... im stunned that God allowed this dream to enter my head while im sleeping. Btw SOG stands for "Servants of God" getting the chilles already .. lol. Ya..i dreamt that i was back into that band , which was orginally formed by Alvin and Zhi Jian? Ya.. its was long ago until zw set me free from the band. Well the dream was , i saw that i was the drummer again , and performing for a big crowd. Tony was playing the organ as usual and Zj was the basis. People were cheering for us as we rock the house down with gospel music. However while i was rocking the drums.. i saw this person among the crowd. He was dressed in soft brownish kind of white clothing. His clothings was simple and gental , he wore no asscories <-- how to spell this word!! ARH, he stand there still like a stock. Watching, contemplateing with an angry look.

While the people were cheering non stop and thier voices were getting louder so does our music , the adrenline level was increasing. People yelled, cried and cheered and this man was just standing there ...super creepy. I wonder why Tony didn;t notice him , cause he was just about 3 meters infront of him. Then all of a sudden, his man saked his head . his face now portraited great disappointment and sadness.. then i was like "WTF" should he be enjoying the music we were playing for the cowrd? After we played finished a gospal song, the cowrd cheered soo loud for us , we felt soo invisivible and arrogant like the young gods we were meant to become that kind of feeling. The this man walk infront of us, and put his fingers to his lips. The crowd and us were slicenced, its was like he used some sort of magic he put on all of us, and when he spoke, soo great was his voice that resonated with great athority.. he said to the us the musicans of SOG band this with great disappointment in his face as well " Is this how you all use the gifts
given to you?, For your own pride and glory?" DISGRACEFUL! he shouted at us. And then i woke up.

Its funny how God can suddenly give you an answer why this and that happen, true.. i was out of that band for about 2 years already cause me and the leader got argument over small issues in that band. Plus im already a cityharvestor, things have changed since these two years, and i ownder how is that "SOG" band doing now? Im i upset at myself for quiting the band or leaving my old church ? AM i still angry with that leader? No and but sometimes yes..what when wrong? i always asked myself.. and finally i got that answer, i was not doing things for the glory of God but for my own pride and self indulgence.. then the Big question is why did i leave church? Was i too embrassed to face up to SOG as an ex memeber? Certainly not... i felt that it was time for me to grow.. you see i was in that church for over like 4 years, every sun i didn;t pay attention to PD or PIsa or PSop or PJim or any other pastor or speaker as a matter of fact. I was a stagant seed refusing to grow . Even my cousin when in later then me and she grew "Spritually" fasterr then me. WTF right.. lol .. to tell you the truth some ppl in there .. i really really hate, their soo arrogant and delusional, but i have forgiven them..just like what Jesus whould do if he was still alive. Well anyways , im now at CHC, they quite strict about attendance and mad over God .. oh well .. i feeling that im learning more about my religion or rather my relationship with the above one.. hehe.. ok i know my purpose in chirst liao.. i think..
REx out ~

BD oh BD!!!

2006-11-09T07:29:00.000-08:00

BD means Business Development, a final year project that most business student embark on in thier final year of studying. Ok.. today was my very first BD presentation, i had 40+ slides to present to three important people, 1) The operation manager 2) Marketing and Communication excutive and 3) Mr Boey our lecturer. Soo i finally presented to them . I got an A grade and im pretty satified with myself... thank God. :] ... to tell the truth ever since year 2 .. i was pretty afraid of presenting to the excutives..i was anticipating this monet ever since.. omg.. its finally over and i believe i did well .. hE HEHE! So it all started at 2.35pm today.. i was super nerous went sze said "now i pass it on to ivan" Wao kao.. my heart nearly stopped.. but then suddenly this wave of confidence came over me.. and hehe .. i spoke with athority and clearity. muhaha the satifaction is priceless man.. ok soo the presentation when on and on.. for over 40+ slides until my saliva level dropped to an uncomfortable level, i spoke "chim" english vocab like rejuvernate one's soul, vitility, longgivity, extravangant and implementation. Then after that , that bitch ask alot of questions to the Q n A people who didn't answer very well in my opionon. Yes .. i believe i also cannot ans her questions cause it was too complecated .. luckly got the operation mananger to help us.. kind man . yeah then after every thing.. Mr boey annonce the results.. ya then i got 80 marks lor.. praise the lord!!!! But he commented on my presentation say i no enthusiam when i presenting.. TMD.. i got alot of Enthu ok...TMD TMD.. well i just know i did well and that is all that matters. I believe i should get 85 like some of my team members ..but what the heck 80 is good enuff. Some people like zhi wei if he see this .. he would say that i have no life worrying over futile things like school results.. ya true.. there is more to life then just BD results.. there are still other sudjects to worry about also ;]
ok la.. i think im boring myself writing this entry.. its over means its over.. ok ..
Lastly i know that BD will soon end and my time with my BD will also end sooner or later.. time pass really very fast and soon we will all go our seperate ways..will kind of miss all of them but.. life is like tat .. nothing in this world is forever, HS,SZ,AD,ED, will be names stored in my brain and slowly these names will disappear maybe 5-10 years down the road..really got to tresure the time im having at SP.ok la.. gtg ~Rex out

Gosh...

2006-11-08T18:07:00.000-08:00

In another 4 hours, i will be presenting to a group of marketing personals and the entreprenuer director from Select company on our BD marketing phrases. I have like 40++++++ slides to present. Intimidated? I guess, not really.. i will try my best not to chock or to anyhow present. I have done my preparation, hopefully it will be enuff. Its difficult for me , cause i nv like to present to people that i do not know , especailly in the lights of managerial people from a real company. Competition will also be tuff, i will be compeiting with this girl who is very natural in presenting. God! Serious disadvantage for me. Nv mind ..claim down.. i have defeat the odds before and will do it again. Ok cannot blog more.. going to meet them liao . All the best for my presentation .. i'll blog my experience later... huh who u talking to .. i wonder in my head.. who reads my blog ? My cousin ? Kai yin? ZW? Edmund? Ajay? Justin? aiya... you all dun Kpo la.. go away plz.. thanks REX OUT!

Driving

2006-10-26T10:04:00.000-07:00

Sianz..today..Edwin really surprised me, after BD we (Guys) were like talking and drinking some barely.. then suddenly he said why not i drive u all to the MRT... i was like "WTF" , he can drive.. fck man.. while we entered his car.. i really was very envious , I wish i could drive too.. the way he drove his car was like nuts.. never check blind spot, nv signal , nv adjust mirror..just drive like no tml.. wow .. im impressed and envious. My driving test date is on $5/@2/2006 which is coming soon.. I really wish i can pass le.. soo can drive my friends around. I can imagine already, ZW, ed,dr were like arguing one day on where to eat , Clementi or Holland V during a 2 hour break perhaps. After 20 mins , they finally decide to go holland V .. then they hesitate cause they nv thought of the distance before deciding .. then all of them suddenly want to go FC6 to eat again ( yes they are soo lame) .. but then i come to the resuce ..hehe.. i said NVM come follow me .. soo they....followed.... yup.. i will bring them to my hidden car , perhaps park somewhere near FC6. .of course far away from Cheong's car.. scared get bad luck. Then i suddenly surprise them , say" Idiots, im driving you all to Holland V" , then ZW will say like" SMLJ, WTF", yes i desired to see thier shocked and delighted faces. However.. this is just imaginary. I wish it was true.. but i get this feeling i wouldn;t pass the TP test 1st time round. Choy la.. i know.. but im really trying hard.. its all up to God's will. Maybe some ppl dun believe in God's will but i do.. notice i nv say that god dun want me to pass.. im just saying if he doesn;t think i should get my license on $5/@2/2006 then no matter how i try .. i would'nt pass.. But i got to try la.. I WANT TO DRIVE!! I want to drive Astirx home , drive zw/dr/edmund/ home , drive to church every sunday, i want to knock down some ppl in my class and kill them in the process ;] hehe.. I WANT I WANT!!! Hiaz..
Today was the interview with the CSB teacher. I believe i did a very good job in the interview, i showed my EA and BD work to her and she said was impressives.. and would like to keep contact with me once i graduate. lol.. Educated and cute indians are always like that ..
anything much lor.. then just 10mins ago.. at 11.56pm some gal commented on my blog, say my spelling CMI.. i feel like telling her to mind her own business, but better not la.. rude..MY blog is for my own reference and if the spelling is wrong so be it.. lastly people in SB like to disrespect me when im kind to them i realised..but when im evil towards them they like repect me abit.. werid right... hiaz.. going to graduate from SB liao.. good faster the better.. dun have to see some Fckards anymore..

Tioman Trip..

2006-10-02T09:57:00.000-07:00

Yes.. Yes.. this is the very 1st photo and my very 1st trip with my Daiko Team. This trip to tioman was orginally my idea, which was directly inspired by my cousin as her group of friends went before thus it was my turn to go with my friends. Well its quite difficult to find ppl to go travel , cause most of my friends are either not adventurous or a cityperson.
Total cost of this trip is $156 less off school subsidy of $100 lol..super cheap lucky i went with my Daiko team.
This photo was taken at 11am after 4 hours of bus ride , yes we woke up damn early at 6am i believe, had to wait for Jack and moo to pick me up from the taxi. Ok this photo was taken in the middle of south malaysian sea, super windy , the air was refreshing and tasty. It rejunvernated my skin and soul. Yes i needed a break from damn Singapore. See my poutch.. i always carry it with cause inside got my passport ,wallet and hp. I wonder why all my other friends just leave their valuables inside the boat.. not scared ppl steal.
2 hours later we pass by this remote island. Absolutly vacant island with mystery embbed in it. I stand beside the glorous J.net and Daiko President Zhi Cia. Yes im still carrying my pouch !!

OK this is moo's feet.. she gena attack by sea urchin..damn funny. Actuall its partly my fault she got into this.. cause i wanted to cross the shallow sea towards the other side forgetting that my cousin once warned me to always wear a slipper or some foot ocver before going to the corals.. but who can blame me.. i was mesmerized by the corals and the beautiful sea of greens and blues.. wow.. so beautiful

OK la.. actually i want to write alot of on this trip..beacuse i was truely happy while i was there, such happiness is priceless to me. Yet i tell myself all things will pass, i wonder when will i go on a trip with this people again? Maybe nv? Its ok.. i of all persons should very well know that everything has a begining has an end ;] . OK rex out

Unexpected

2006-09-14T10:14:00.000-07:00

Yes unexpected is the word to use .. pior to "consoldation day" refer to last entry .. everything turned out the way i expected and even better.. i finally got my results.. this sem was the worse i ever faced, i was not consistant in my work and didn;t attend lectures as much as last time and yet i got good results..not just good la plz le ivan.. its VERY GOOD lor.. i know i dun deserve it.. my GOD! .."A" until can go mad.. My prediction was like 2 Cs and all B+ but God was mecifully and indeed very generous .. must give thanks to hIM la. But even though he didn;t give me good result.. then i'll be angry but still i have to obey him blah blah blah.. ya now can really enjoy my upcoming trip with my daiko team to tioman.. specking of tioman...im feeling abit homesick liao..WTF right.. its only 3 days lor.. plz le. why is this sickness like this..hiaz.. im not this kind of Hmuji person le.. i want to EXPLORE i wan to venture i wan to take RISK.. damn it.. I think this sickness is due to the wild childhood i had since young .. if u know what i mean.. Anyway..the IMF .. meeting.. Singapore is doing very well hosting it.. everyone is impressed , 4 million smiles welcome the delegates. After the IMF meeting.. there will be 4million Frowns for the upcoming years cause every one in singapore loves to frown ..and forcing us to smile for this whole week is nearly an impossible task.. but we have to do it ..just to put on a fake show to the delegates..so dun be surprised when u see everyone frowning non stop everywhere u go..espically suntech area or the ppl working there.. ppl there will be frowning when working, when walking when talking when going to the toliet .. lol.. Hiazz.. One more week left till the school term starts again.. im damn relactant to go back to school ..hiaz i wish i was in NUS or NTU or SMU..i keep repeating this sentence cause.... i really want to enter this university..its just a goal... just this goal only i prayed like countless times to God lor...i think God is sick of this prayer to enter NUS or NTU or SMU..one fine day God will appear to from a tiny hole of the roof and say this to me " IVAN!, Please stop repeating yourself day after day , im quite sick of this request, the angels are restless and satan is going nuts ..plz go check ur letter box tml and you see the NUS appectance letter " lol.. ok im talking rubbish liao.. im going to sleep liao.. got to wake up at 4.30 now its 1.28 am.. lack sleep.. ok~ REX OUT

13TH Sep-Consolidation date

2006-09-12T02:24:00.000-07:00

Tml will be a very interesting date, it is the date when my results will come out, IMF meeting starts, Wei Qiang will be coming out of BMT , Naruto will air its 200th episode and there will be my driving test. Well its up to God to give me good result or bad ones. I hope its good la.. Anyway i would like to tell this person who said i like to beg god..that to mind her own business and whatever i write in my blog is personal and should NV be used against me ok? You say that again i will really hurt you through msn, and i wouldn;t stop there i will destory you mentally so dun! .. i dun like to hurt my close friends. Ok i got that off my cheast. Now 13 th Sept 2006 will be declared according to Ivan's Cornicals as the Consolidation date , it is a day when all important things happen .. it will either destory my happiness or my sadness. Seriously , if tml turns out badly it will be like this

1) I got 2 Cs for my exam
2) My Driving instructor scolds me for reckless driving
3)One or two IMF important deligates got murdered by a Singaporen/Malaysian/Hawwain
4) Naurto will stop airing on You-Tude cause its protected by Copy right now

Then it will be a damn sad day la.. But hopefully not, i got a feeling everything will turn out right.
Talking about things going right, i recently got good news from the daiko ppl, they say they got the SAS to sponsor our tioman trip by 50% !!! Omg ..thats quite dissappointing to hear, cause i believe we deserve 90 or 100% off! Its our club fund money btw ..Nevertheless 50% is good enough for me , must thank God. I just read my cousin's blog, the more and more depressing her blog is (Right racheal?!), plz le i already tell u to go see IMH or seek help blah. If you pasieh to go .. then i go for you lor.. anyway i will be going there to "talk" to someone first, please don;t judge me , im not a perfect person. Yesterday , i had a session with my CGL( Cell group leader) , he was giving me bible study "introductory level" as he calls it.. seriously.. its not need for me because i believe im quite knowlegable about the bible , then he keep saying my mindset not right , must be in tune with God.blah blah blah. Ya la i know la.. some C/H/C ppl are quite irritating, they are very persistant in spreading God's word.. which is good la.. but irritating. Wah liao, and my CGL wants me to commit my time to going to cell group every sat plus sun .. Like tat i no time for myself liao.. its either daiko, church, school , driving .Cannot cannot.. i need to plan out my time right . Hiaz.. i seriously hope tml will turn out right. But if it doesn;t then.. what can i do? Cry over spill milk? This time around i will not declare my results wether good or bad to anyone only to very very close friends like Edmund or U Racheal..Of course if it turns out bad i will try to advoid ur questions lolx. Hiaz i dun know what to write about liao.. , my sentences are becoming more like singlish lor. Wtf.. if u notice i always write like an ang mo from the starting ..towards the ending write like one true Singaporen..Anyway i gtg liao.. want to go running and do more body sulptering <-- how to spell this shit word! LOL ok ~Rex Out!

God's WILL?

2006-09-06T10:12:00.000-07:00

Recently, someone famous passed away doing what he supposily loved doing , his name is Steve Irwin the famous aust croc hunter, he died while fliming a series called the most dangerous underwater sea creature near the barrier rieft, got stabbed by a rare stingray , its bard went thru is heart and KO byebye Cro hunter, research indicates that this kind of death is very rare and stingrays seldom attack people . I mean , im really shocked to hear that he died in that way .. its really God's Will in my opinon that he has called him back to heaven ..is he a chirstain ? Did he accpet god into his life? I really dun know.. all i can say is God will do what he deem is right , he does what he want and when he wants, damn scarry just take away a life that played with crocodiles , fooled with posionous snakes, embraced wild animals and toy with death almost everyday and yet got KILLED BY a DAMN Stingray?!!! Last time i used to watch his documentry about crocdiles this and that , then after when i enter poly i nv watch liao.. Suddenly his death can affect me soo badly is a mystery.. I cannot imagin what his wife is going thru now , the hurt, the pain , the sorrow must be overwhelming, people say that he died what he loved doing , but for goodness sake la, Irwin will not choose to die in that way leaving his wife and childern behind blah !! Hiaz.. now i damn depressed,I feel for his wife , perhaps she can take comfort that he died loving what he does best.
It is from his death that i once again realise that life is very fragile and preious , the people around us will not live for long, all things will indeed pass, anytime God will take away. And yet some people have no respect for God and keep criticising him , watch out la you non believers , some people think they are god and anyhow make fun or create thier own religion..Fck off from me plz, the bible says to try to bring these people to know christ ..but really i tired liao, they always make fun of my God and like to redicule chirstainity, i think i give up on them liao ..cause some people are meant to go to hell .. really .. that what is hell for huh?! To keep heaven warm is it?. lol, i also better take care of my salvation la. .. anyway results are coming out soon, i hope to do well.. but even if i dun do well so what?! If i dun make it to NUS or NTU or SMU so what?! As long as i make $$ for god or have a purpose in life then im happy liao..but really la.. I want to go NUS or SMU or NTU !!!PLZ GOD PLZ !! lol .. Anyway.. my deepest condolances to Steve Irwin's family and friends , a great nature lover person just go like that really is wasted.. hiaz God plz allow Irwin's soul to enter heaven thanks..
-This entry is damn holy..even my hair also stand .. but this is how i feel and for thoes non believers try to bear with me lol.. okok ~Rex out!

EXAM IS over...

2006-08-23T10:41:00.000-07:00

What a tuff tuff semester.. first i have to blame myself.. WHY weren;t u CONSISTANT?! ya la.. i tried mah.. lol , aiyo.. this term really i put in alot of blood and sweat into EA and FIA.. wah i tell u , these two papers are killers , seriously i nv study soo damn hard before, i have to blog this terrible time to myself so that i will be CONSISTANT next sem or be CONSISTANT in my life. My god, 9.30am start studying , reading the notes word by word , my eye roll over every sentance ,every formula espically EA formulas.. My god topic 4 , topic 5 why DUN i know them ..panic sticken , i read on and on , giving myself 5-10mins rest .. skipped lunch , study until 4pm non STOP Fck!!!! Until i counldnt take it.. had to rush down to hawker to buy food. As i ate , my mee pork .. No taste , No subtance wao lao.. food dun taste like food 4 this few weeks. then went back to study some more until 10 pm .. 10 pm is my favourite time beacuse i get to STOP studying .. my principal is nv study beyond 10 pm + - 30mins variance. Then after that i play dota.. when i play dota.. my mind kept recalling all the facts.. FCk.. still no rest.. when its time to sleep, i cannot sleep..my mind kept thinking of formulas and sentance ought to rmb.. hiaz.. this vicous cycle repeat for like 3-4 days until the exam .wao lao.. bad for health. very bad for health indeed.. i was sealed away from the outside world like the nine tails in the naruto anime. and why did this happen? Beacuse i was not CONSISTANT!
FIA night mare.. omg.. when it was turn to study FIA.. fck.. i only had 1.5 DAYS to study.. no time.. soo i study NON stop..my mind constantly cried out for a break and i wouldn;t let it.. my brain fought back by remiiting strange noisies around my room and my enviroment.. wah ..that was really suffering.. and why did this happen? BEACUSE I WAS NOT CONSISTANT!
The best part is.. when the exam paper came out.. most of the questions didn;t reflect what i studied .=-= disgusting right.. yet the papers were hard.. like rock.. Fck.. pardon my words.. if i get C for FIA or EA.. it will be my fault .. but i hope that wouldnt happen la.. i tired my best liao..GOD plz plz dun play with my results plzplz plz... i wan to go NUS or SMU or NTU.. thats my heart;s desire besides honouring you.. hiaz.. next term.. i will stop becoming class rap.. i will be attending all lectures unless otherwise stated.. i will understand ALL subjects on time and understand them well! .. ok la.. lets go to more interesting sub... now that exam is over .. i have BD to doo ..CRY@!@!#(u@(8 no rest again.. nvm nvm.. claim down .. i seriously need to see a psychologies. ok ..time to go back to church liao.. Rex out.~

Today Missed the NTUC "Best" Game

2006-08-03T01:42:00.000-07:00

Wah damn sian..today i missed the NTUC best game beacuse got to finished up EA..Seriously i really hate EA... soo troublesome don't know what Ah Goh wants from us. Well, tml is TA CA2 test and FO finally trading, i know that FO trading im currently top 7th in class , i could well be in top 3 .. but i choose not to.. sooo irritating that Ah Cheoong always think his opening out cry very superior to the other trading methods ...d.....o..t.s. I guess i will be hearing his " BUY ONE ARH! , SELL ONE ARH" for the very last time tml..thank god :) . tODAY , he called me like twice, while i was busying rushing my EA with nick..wao kao..wait till he knows we never turn up for the NTUC best game.. his face will be black like anything .lol... I wonder if Aveline and Kris got into the next stage..hmm pondering.. well who cares. Hopefully tml myTA ca 2 will be sucessful. Hiaz.. nowadays my trading luck abit bad.. dun know why i keep holding on to losing positions.. FCK! Oh ya.. before i forget , yesterday was our BD presentation.. FCK.. i got the lowest among the group...though i have to be grateful for getting a B+ but i think i should get more lor given how much effort i put in hehe ..seriously.. i get the feeling Christopher EE does not like our group..wah i dun really feel like doing the BD project anymore.. kao.. soo much work T_T but then Mr Boey head will be on the chopping block blah.. ( Turing to look at the time ) its already 4.47 mins.. we all waiting for Guan to finish up her writing , omg ... she better hurry cause Mr Goh will close his doors exactly at 5pm le... ok now i shall tell them to hurry up. Oh the other hand better not lah.. i see her work soo hard also abit qulity .. lol .. now... exams are coming nearer and nearer.. i have to study up CF,TA,EA and FIA.. terrible subjects.. making all my hair white.. omg.. its 4.50 liao. I wonder what Ah god will say if we hand up at 5.01pm..."Oh i very touch arh very touch!" lol omg.. just got a call from Bradon.. tell chris that Kris group ( My group ) got into SEMIN Finals!!! OMG.. Good job GALS!!! But fck la.. lose $4 ,.. hahah ok bye Rex out .

Update Update ....

2006-07-22T07:27:00.000-07:00

n it OMG. How long have i not blogged?... lol.. soo damn it busy. Well, my life have been rather sickening so far, Business Development is draining me , got blacklisted in MOO's blog, lost the National Management compeition and AH #@@# bugging me during lectures... wah fcked up man. Let me start with Ah.#@@# damn it keep disturbing me during FO lectures.. I mean. can u just leave me alone not... there is no need to keep showing my trading transections to the entire FT cohort, it such a minor mistake lor. This shows how digusting and inaccurate opening outcry is , open outcry is not effienect and is dieing in the financial world anyway... soo for goodness sake Ah #@@# change ur lecture structure!!!! I also dun understand why some ppl love to boost about their FO scores.. i mean its a dieing trade liao.. no need to boost right , everyweek must go down to the lame trading pit and trading Nikkie futures hiaz damn sian , then some ppl get soo stressed up with they make negative losses! HELLO! If u dun make mistake how are u going to learn?Plz la learn what is improtant for your future and not some dieing trade!! Next, MOO ... wao lao.. i saw parts of ur blog in PDF format lor.. "MY GOD" since when i ever insult u... well anyway after the daiko meeting liao.. i hope u understand my position , im a damn busy person with "CLIENT" project to do also and my course i believe is also tuff or tuffer then yours.. otc. ANyway whats pass is pass let bygones be baygon, sincerely hope u go back to being friendly with me ;P as for ST..aiyo...i know u got hurt during this incident, but never ever run away from problems like tat..just simply quit daiko, abit too drastic blah, anyway u already quit liao so on behalf of the club we wish you the best in life lor.. lol .. but i think u quit also good la..grow strong in the lord then next time sure go heaven lol.!.NEXT...National Managemnt COmpeition, wah liao i tell u arh.. acutally we can go semin finals one.. but.. i think its fated la.. I have no gurdge againest my friend who keyed in the figures wrongly .. lol by 9999k!!!! Rather im inspired by his brillance ..omg.. how can he be soo smart ?! God u damn unfair lor.. can make me more smarter not.. lol .. NEXT.. BD... i tell u arh BD.. fck!!! Regret taking client project.. should have given it to Chris group.. wah sian.. I TOLD U RIGHT EDDY!! Soo much work , i spent like 4hours per night to look at the computer screen until my eyes go nuts. Then wao kao, mr Boey also the standard soo high.. i had to redo like 4 times liao, then i interviewed like 60 over people already super sickening .. see the potential customers face feel like puking...Hiaz.. Oh ya one more irritant in my life.. this friend of mine always like to talk about christianity and Jesus, he keeps making fun of my dear lord and my faith ..WTF...PLZ if u are my true friend , just shut the hell up.. stop commenting or telling jokes related to Chiristinity, its not funny at all, seriously stop converting me to any other religion there no point in doing that..I think God has his paitence lor ..u keep insulting him , i think one day he will snap and break your life, For God's sake i also hope he will have mercy on ur soul lor. Ok thats all .. need to record this for future reference ..notice i didn;t put real names down....REX OUT!

ALPS- AIA

2006-04-14T01:11:00.000-07:00

Finally , my itp is OVER.... what an experiance. Looking back at the entire attachment process, i have done some foolish and funny things. At first i hated doing adminstrative work for people who pay me peanuts and expect me to work long hours, at first i hated every one in the office, at first i didn;t give a fck about my itp marks and as a result i gave such a shitty attitude.lol... I still remember anyhow scanning their documents , anyhow keying in the data and throwing some documents away even lol... i think i should have deserved a "C" for my attachment. But my supervisor was always so kind and protective of aveline and me.. for example : there is this bitch in the office who like to put blame on others, of course attachment students were her favourite target. So when anything that goes wrong , she would put blame on us. really bitch.. but my supervisor always gave excuse to her like " they are new", " it wasn;t thier fault " something like that ...soo kind right.. aiyo an come to think of it , i was the one making all the mistakes lol.. (Fcking PA got locked Three times)

Well , i shall not dwell no my past mistakes again , who could blame me? I was under alot of stress. Stress that i couldn;t pass my driving test and stress for daiko concert. Plus the work load at ALPS was terrible, certain days there will be alot of cases to key in , scan, file, signing etc etc can do until mad.
But really after the entire experience , i finally realise it was all worth it. I made new adult friends ... or rather more mature and rich friends . This new circle of friends are all agents... dotz...one of my favourite is charles..what a funny bastard.. wants to bring me to MOS to party.lol.. even bought me and aveline v.expensve chocolates. SIan now no more itp , i will miss them.. but not so much as i missed SP lol..
I think i also found a new cell group from my attachment program..in fact i got two offers , one from Sembawang the other from the east side.. interesting- (god have u made a way for me to grow?)
Oh before i forget.. i think i want to talk more about the boss.. what a proud man.. i have never seen such a proud person before. The way he talks is soo soft and rude espcieally to people who have low ranks in the office like admin staff. I mean , at least show some repect to my supervisor or to aveline or me. Dun keep asking us do stupid things for you and please address us by our name and not by sound ( you think we are dogs?) One thing i learn from here is being humble. Humblity portarys greater might. No matter how rich or powerful you are , you are still not GOD. How can you demand people to clean ur office for example. lol.. Well at least he is god loving , yet this god loving character of his is another weakness will . I personally feel that christinility shouldn't be forced on to others , espically to non-christians. I dun understand why the boss would be soo forceful on aveline? Why does is he soo direct also .. weird.. i wonder if god is proud of his actions ? Let me illustrate to you, he invites ppl to his house, some non christians . He does a magic show for his audience, did praise and worship and showed us an old video about how someone 's life is changed by christinality and ask for ppl to convert straight away in his house that night.. i mean..WTF.... ur using ur effort to convert ppl and not waiting for GOD's timming.. i wonder how many non chirstians were turn off by his actions.. Anyway i m in no position to jugde.. i still think that some people are really meant for hell , while others are meant for heaven.

Well... these are the qualities/attitudes/character/ablities i learnt during my attachment
1) Paitence
2) Think positive
3) Hold on to principals
4) Be God Loving
5) Telephone skills
6) Scanning Skills
7) Day dreaming skills.
Lastly , i think i also have a new goal to achieve.. i want to be my own boss if possible, i dun wan to work for others anymore.. its sucks.. so im going to year 3 poly liao..damn fast..how time flys.. may my results be of glory to my father in heaven ...lol...holycow.

OMG im finally posting after 3mths

2006-03-25T17:43:00.000-08:00

Can u believe it , i haven blog for soo long , long time readers like racheal and sharon and other ppl i think all dun read liao... GOOD... now more private for me :P. Anyway, this is the follow that happened, i finished my exams , finished diako concert (sucessful) , doing itp now and starting on my driving. Waoh soo many things happened... too bad i didn;t blog all this down... was soo DAMN it busy with everything in my life like daiko,classrap duties,SB duties , driving lessons and studying for exam . it seems that my plate is always overflowing with things. Well since im turning year 3 ...omg ...OMG year 3 le soo old liao meh..i still feel like a freshman le wtf... polylife is passing soo damn fast. Coming back to my overflowing duties i should repliquish some duties , got to concentrate more on BD ( Business Development) muhahaha, i got everything planned out liao , plan A if this happens i will do this , plan B if this didn;t happen i wil do this ... aiyo... headach think about all this. Well at least got some good news , i finally got back my results. Its was FANTASTIC!! not prefect though.. i really like to thank GOD and GOD only for his gracy and mercy . When i opened the SAS result thingy on the net after i came back from the exellence service awards thingy , i was like to damn shocked , "A" until u go mad, and mericulously i didnt get a C for FF ( Finnicial Fuc*kers) i knew i did badly for the finally exam but what the heck la B i damn happy liao muhaha thank god :) , besides thanking the mighty one i must find some way to please him back.. but how? any idea?
Well in anycase , when school. reopens im going to take a break, soo sick of itp ... makign me very unhappy need endurance for 3 more weeks.. sian..scanning , filing , data entry Fu*ck them la they think they who ar ... for example when my supervisor says: " Ivan , u must summit after keying in what , you must know the seriousness of this data entry "
In my mind i said this:" What the !&#*!(& you think whatever happens to the company matters to me? i really dun give a shit to you all lor , who do you think you all ar , i have Zero loyalty and commited to this company , you pay me peanuts i give you peanut work damn it!" I know it the wrong attitude and thinking but what the heck la , ppl like edmund tell me to have the right attitude when doing itp , but really if you are soo unhappy why must you go suck up to the people or job you do not like? Its not as if you are getting paid highly for this , maybe they might employ you in the future , but i rather be my own boss..sian... REX OUT!!!!!!

31ST of 2005

2005-12-30T22:26:00.000-08:00

Well well well.. the very last day of 2005, how time flys ! Very soon will finish my poly and go on NS then the universities. Here is my new year resloution for 2006

1) Be more confident in whatever i do, making desicion even wrongs ones, presentations,specking or performing

2) To countiue to grow spiritually in Chirst, and countiue to stay in daiko

3) Scored well for exams but dun stress too much

4) Finish up driving and then go for erhu course

Well thats it..so simple ..so fast.

Looking back at 2005 , it seems that everything is a blur to me, too fast liao ,have accomplished not too much in terms of music and sports, when to China with class, became class rap( regret!), build raft SB guys, learnt to played erhu to a certain standard(lol) , 1st time encountied the most difficult project ( FMKT shit) , didn;t score a C so far ( amen thank you god), got treat by edmund, stole flower pot and styroform from goverment places ( =_=;) , jumped church and created a new daiko song.

Well interesting year, hopefully next year which is like 8 hours away will be a fruitful, exciting and meaningful one. Other then that i pray that all those ppl that irritated me will leave soon and that all those who were my good friends countiue to be my good buddies and blessed are thier lives.otc. ok ..gtg later going to meet up with a few ppl to count down to 2006 WOOOOOT!!!!~rex out

My prefect Christmas

2005-12-20T23:57:00.000-08:00

Well.. Christmas is coming once again. (I hope I spell Christmas correct) I mean 2005 is about to be over... Way kao, wondering what I have done this whole year? Lets see Study,Diako,erhu,swimming,running,drumming,pianoing... A bit lifeless le.. lolx... Well since Christmas is coming VERY soon, today's entry will on my perfect Christmas. Firstly I shall talk about celebrating Christmas in Singapore..........It sucks to come to think of it, It so hot here, but thanks to the monsoon sometimes it feels really like Christmas. The people here just shop and shop giving away gifts that will soon be thrown away or get stored up somewhere in the house to rot. Wasteful Singapore. True its to season to give.. But the really question is give to who? Yours friends, family? How about those children in the homes? Old folks? I think they deserve a gift more then family or friends. But what the heck, some more even worse .. Supposing Jesus is the reason for the season ( Shivers) I mean.. Ok la.. I know ready, dun keep reminding me la holy people.lol. I dream of having Christmas in...
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A place called Finland , deep in the pine woods, where it is all quite and peaceful. I live in a wooden house the size of a bugle. The house is desired with a country theme, there is a stone fire place WITH Sharon's head as my main living room display (joking la, maybe Furnado's head), lots of comfortable chairs with sofa custions and pillows, a big frige stacked with healthy food like bacon,Ham,potato chips,apple chips,machinelike,fizz drinks,dead turkey,sweets,puddings,pasta sauces and exsortic fruits. The wooden Italian carboards are packed with flour( used to make pancakes), dog food,spices,plates,bowels etc etc. There has to be a big flat 4ft long TV in the living room and 4 smaller ones inthe other four rooms, my holiday home will have to have alots of windows as it will give the appearance of not having an walls to begin with LOL.. Has to have a beautiful view of the blue snowy mountains just across the house.Not forgetting a t3 internet connection in my private room and big beautiful marble bathroom all cleaned without lizards or cockroaches ANYWHERE AT ALL! AMEN!. The surrounding will have to be near a big beautiful lake, tall pine trees like those in red riding hood story and when the snow falls everything will look white and cold and peaceful and untouched by humans. For safety reasons , my house will be surround by a tall mental gate sercured with electricity during the night in order to shock off unwanted intruders like my mum/sister or animals value of my holiday house will be $US 1,760,000.My Ferreira will be still be in Singapore , but the jeeps will be in my garage. Yah. Best is to have like friends who are well educated, rich and good hearted , god loving and well mannered and replays to me smses to come join me during these period 14th-28th Dec. We all will have a good time , camping, hiking, skysufing and exploring caves and untouched forests. Then when the eve of Christmas , my friends and I will hike up to a not soo high mountain with our capes ( the ones that were used for Harry potter) and our leather boots climb up the cold mountain while the strong winds blow into our faces with the smell of thick snow and pine oak and upon reaching we lay down a big green mat and lie our backs down to watch the munificent northen lights WOW.... The stars will be singing brightly and the full moon will be silently floating making the surrounding more peaceful. At about like 2.20am we made our way back to my holiday home as it was getting colder by the min, hot chocolate and roasted turkey was waiting for us back home, there were white wolves in the woods that took a peep at us as we walk back to the house, padfoot which is my baby haski dog will be tagging along behind. As we entered the house , the smell of great food and warm beds are waiting for us. At 3.45am , I couldn;t sleep as all my friends were already sleeping and padfoot is sleeping on my lap. Sliently I craw out of my bed and when down into the living room, my Christmas tree lights were glowing sliently and all the socking on top of the fire place were still empty. With a click of my fingers the fire place lit into life warming the entire living room in an instant. I took out my wallet and put in $US 300 in each sock. Then I sat besides the fireplace quietly and think and think and think and wishing that this period will not end. As I was getting sleepier, I suddenly heard a choir singing Christmas songs and hymts. I walk towards my window and opened it . " SHUT THE HELL UP LA!" I shouted at those ppl , as thier singing was off tuned and not well practiced. Apprantly my music standard has improved greatly and could well detect the timber in each person's voice which weren;t anglic but demonically amature. Yup thats my perfect Christmas. Hopefully I will get to live it one day.

A night out with ED and ZW

2005-12-18T08:40:00.000-08:00

What an interesting night .... today i just when ot with ZW and ED of class DBF 2B/06... interestin X2 at first in the morning i was begging ppl to go out with me to dinner.... all those ass hole friends... XP ..well... in the end , end up with ZW and ED we all go eat at Marina bay steam boat. Had lots of food to eat, butter prawns , beef, chicken, fish meat, icecream , delicous decent soup and other sea food items.. nice weather cooling and we sat at a exclusive place away from the nosiy ppl and talk non stop for 2.5 hours... we touched on topics about sch about who were ASSES and Pigs, to religion ( zw u better go back to GOD), to ghost , to entreprenurship and other personal matters... after tat... we all decided to go for a walk at marina all the way to the MRT station... end up we actually lost our way lol... we walked into a big dark park and still we were talking about all sorts of rubbish , imagining some kind of ghost will come and grab us into the forest..ya crazy people..then we end up walking under an express way the opposite view is cityhall and just across the sea is suntech( im referring to the place were the show shooting star was taken the grassy area"... so we walk X3 throught the soft semi tall grass and the only 2 sources of light was from the lamp post and the moon.. beautiful..eventually we reach the shore line and sat on the cool marble tile at the edge of the Singapore river, everthing looked blue and soft.. the wind was strong yet gental in the way it was enjoyable. ED and ZW were both sitting on the very edge of the marble titles... and below them is like the river like 5 meters below them.. and they just sit there like as if they weren;t able to fall.. =_=' wao kao... why suddenly they all soo brave... i imagined if any1 falls over.. they will have to swimming across the Singapore river or get help from the police post guard..aiyo... but luckly
never la...well i almost fell when we decided to walk the circumferance of the Singapore river along the very edge and the path. Ya.. then there were some songs both ED and ZW sang, some were in english and most were in chinese.. its like abit painful la.. lol... out of tune and hasky.. lol.... but very sincere singing... i like. Finally we reached this consturction site.. after walking about 3km. BY this time i was feeling very urgent already.. wanting to shit badly..but on the other hand i had such a great time exploring the place soon to be the intigrated resort that i didn;t expect somthing even more interesting... we saw this pile of styroform <-- is that how to spell it? who cares.. ya... ZW ask me to look out see got any consturction workers in the vincinity and he GRAB the one STAck of it with the help of ED... aiyo .. naughty naughty ..one piece of styroform was like 1.8 meters and 8 pieces were stacked into one... its worth like $72 in total.. TSK TSK... best thing... we all walked out of the consturction site and even passed by a sercurity guard .. apperantly a naive one lol... and we split 4 for me and 4 for zw... ED who was involved in this night operation didn;t want any.. so ok lor.. i can take 4 and used to build raft...then i had to remind them that wednesday we meet again to go for KING KONG premier a high tea fuction blah... and had to carry all four of those stuipd styroform... sickening..lol...thanks two both of u guys for making my night intersting... god bless them lol..
rex out.~

Woah soo long never post...

2005-12-02T09:18:00.000-08:00

Yup.... its been a looooooooong time since i wrote my last blog entry... busy busy like prefect student lol... lets see what has happen ever since the last blog entry 1) DIako performance for international student 2) Diako again for the CHILL@SP 3) Got my music scholorship WOOT!! ^_^V 4) Stress over blaw and all its rubbish 5) got the $6.50 from Ambrous 6) Attended talk with edmund 7) Finished playing warcraft frozen throne campainge 8) Finished FF and EPI and IHRM projects more to come :( 9) Treated my soon to enter army buddy to a movie 10) The pot of gold finnally came 11) Saw Harry potter 4 12) Cousin racheal boosting her finished Alevels 13) attended NTU talk <--waste time 14) Failed to open a store for the fle market with lydia and gang 15) Wanted to go join talent time but no guts yet..16) CHC moving to Expo.. even more sian.. 17 ) Haven;t set up my christmas tree.. will u all remind me if i forget..

Ya thats about it... my life.. busy busy life... no time to even cultivate my musical interest sian.. not like some1 who always get the free time to play his drums and piano =_= how about me? Now , the more i find being a class rap SUCKS!.... I hate it when people dun get my sms in time and still ask if i got sms them...i hate it when teachers just throw me assigments and expect me to give them on time.. i hate it when the class fund is running out of $$ and i have to BEG them to put some $$ in it... but....BUT i love it when my smiles when i do somthing for them , i love it when some1 in class thanks me for my effort.. ( so far only one) lol... i love it also when lecturers ask me to make decision for the class... ok thats about all. Tml got diako training again..this time no junoirs coming.. i wonder what they going to do? Well to be frack , im a bit tired of my CCA . dun know why.. lossing interest perharps.. but got to perserve .. 1 1/2 more years to go. Then after that going to Army and fighting to get a position in NUS or SMU or NTU or NSWU speaking of Army.. i abit scarred now.... need to find some mental medication for myself.. LOL... *im serious!

Coming to sports.. yes i just swam in my own school , water very nice cool and peaceful. I felt soo regenerated after the swim . Hopefully got more sunny days soo i can go swimming with my swimming partner. And yes i got more stamina then u Ernie! U want to be lifeguard right u got to train with me 1st muhaha..

Coming to music.. sad to say.. my friend like no more time to teach me liao.. too bad for me.. got to find a real teacher .. perharps after my driving lessons .. need to buy the self taught books perhaps..

Lastly coming to Blaw.. from what i leant today is agin about offer + accpetance = agreement
What are things like gentalmen agreement and being a close relative can default the agreement
Then again there is somthing called the postal rule which is under one of the offer laws that the offerer and the offeree must have commniucation between them, then the offer must be in the mode specificed by the offerer zzzzzzzzz this module and law in general makes life complicated.. lucky i dun aspire to be a lawyer... F them la.. lol.. ok ...gtg.. ~rex out

$6.50... Class outing.

2005-10-29T07:38:00.000-07:00

Hiaz.. finally come back from CHina.. look out for my next entry as i try my best to remember what i ve experience in China lolx... ok... now.. school is about to reopen soon... sian.. soo fast.. ya... and somthing is troubling me... according to Jack ( from diako ) as a class rap in DE he told me today that the classoutting $$ collection date is already over.. -_-;... I WAS UTTERLY SHOCKED!..omg..i mean im supposed to collect back or rather claim back $6.50 for 12 people inculding myself who when for the class outting last month after FA exam..what is my class going to say or feel? Its really not my fault if Mr AMB refuses to give me back the classoutting $$ i mean what the heck is my ptm doing!!! He didn;t even inform about any closing date , i tried my best to organise the outting plus i did inform he thru slipping a piece of paper, informing him about the venue and time as such! Plus i even tried calling him in his office the day itself.. i mean.. at least call me back on my Handphone saying that he is not coming mah.. in addition i even reserve a sit for him! This is terrible..you know...i mean who is to be blame for this? If the class outting closing date was starting of the holiday.. then i would have no way to claim it back as every1 was busy doing their UCCD, CRM,ECM projects at that time and there was no point organising on the 15th of oct when onli 8 ppl are turning up! So.. on the 28th Oct was the very best date i could set it to..after that my friends would be having thier own things to do like giving tution and perparing for CHIa Trip hiaz@(&()&$)@(&$)@(&$#)@*#_ having my class best interest at heart.. of course i would like to claim back the F**king $6.50 lor..sian... what to do..hiaz..im NOT going to use up my savings to pay back the class as suggested by Rick!Plz la.. its not really my fault..i wonder some people have been class raps before in fact 2 of them ! and none of them obther to tell me that this will happen....+_+...i wonder why.... could there be an under lying purpose...Hiaz NVM!...If i had known the collectiong date line then things would be different i would have set at qan eariler date which maybe onli 5 people might come only! LOLX.. hiaz.. see la on Mon i'll try to settle with my PTM.. i hope he is reasonable... damn!...~rex out!

WHATS wrong with me

2005-10-09T09:12:00.000-07:00

Seriously.. i dun know what is FUcking wrong with me.. last 3 weeks i was desiring to go to China .. and now.. im feeling homesick and experiencing extreme cultural shock.even before the trip. Why like that.. i thought this mental illness was gone already.. aiyo.. soo sian.. its back again.. i seriously need professional help when i come back.. sian.. the thing is .. other people like Brian, aveline etc etc.. are all excited about the trip.. and im here worrying that im going to die in CHINA.. sian..yes the ivan you all knew is not perfect.. i have flaws too and they are mental ones. i KNOW I should not be like tat , its not natural.WHY God !.. why did you put this problem in my life.. how im i supposed to go army like tat or climb mt everest for that matter. I love to travel yes i really do.. but i miss home , home as in the usual places like SP, My room , My hamster, My usual hangouts etc etc. im soo scared that i will lose my english standard over there, im also scared that i'll get SARS and other related diesease or end up in a haunted Room CHOY.. *cries* who can understand me? im soo scared to tell my friends and family about this problem.until now.. im soo frasturated i need to write this in my blog. If you all know some one or some where to go for mental conselling perharps or medication plz tell me and send me via email.. but dun misunderstood im not mentally unstable rather i have this HOME sickness thing that is 4-5 times greater then normal people's homesickness ya.. sian.. and i also pray to GOD to not onli take care of me but my ploy results which will be coming out soon.. ok.. im going off to CHINA liao.. bye ~rex

Gateway to China

2005-10-08T18:47:00.000-07:00

Yes.. i'll be going to China tml morning at 10 am fly off.. I believe it will be 12 days of fun and enjoyment , at first i was a bit afraid of going to China for soo long .. but then i realised its onli a miserable 12 days.lol Plus i will be away from organ , diako, erhu lessons ,LSF, SP and my family..not surprising to say im a bit sick of everthing la.. soo maybe i need a break away from all these activities go enjoy myself.. anyway plz pray for a safe and fun trip for me ok all CHC memebers ( Sharon) lol...ya.. i just read http://chinapork.blogspot.com/2005/06/food-for-thought.html the 3rd blogger that is going to be charged for racistisum. blah blah blah.. how do i feel about his entries? Well i think its rather interesting to read them , however even though some of the facts are ture .he mostly made the mistake of sterotyping other people /races which is a bad bad thing to do. However one should not become angry beacuse of his silly entries, but rather cast it aside as a seriously distrub guy lol..
And one more thing i want to make clear of this blog .. this blog is not for the public to view its for my close friends to see only. In fact, the MAIN PURPOSE of this blog is to debit in all the emtions/feelings/personal motive/mood etc etc as at that particular time and credit out when i reread them again understood.. you all may be surprised that apparently so far 387 people have seen this blog webiste before =_+....
Lastly... the Damn SP results are coming out soon on the 19th oct.. sian..did i do well? did i do enough to maintain B and above? can i make it to NUS? sian... thinking of all these spoiles my mood.. here are the list of things to do when i come back from China
1)Sign up( prepare) for GEMS
2)Go for erhu/diako training the next day ( SMS hui zhen)
3)Check ur results<---------------hiaz
4)23rd outting with Fundi /ajay
5)25th night safari with zhen quan
6)24th-26th Charlet
7)Submit new backbone diako song
8)Swimming /running

Oh well all the best for my trip... Bon voyage myself.. lolx.. ~rex out

OVER...

2005-09-28T08:01:00.000-07:00

Yes finally... my last paper Finnanical accounting is over.. waoh.. tuff semester this term.. make me almost go mad( look at the last entry) ..finally got time for myself and my other trainings.. next term will be less stessful i hope beacuse got gems Yeah!.. anyway... today when out for class outing to Cartel Cafe.Interesting, some people suddenly dun want to come, it demoralised me abit at 1st beacuse it was supposed to be a CLASS OUTING not friend gathering duh!! Ya , eventually 14 people turned up and we had a jooly good time together..WOOH.. we ate delicous Pork Ribs , Meat steaks, Pasta , Seafood Platter etcetc..the atmosphere was nice , but the CRM Cafe Cartel is terrible lolx.. more importantly is the people im with that made the whole thing very enjoyable :) .. finally im smiling after a whole month of mental torture. !! After that we as a class when to esplanade to enjoy a nice walk long the beautiful city sernory and listerned to some boardway music.. How nice right.. like one big family like tat lolx.. if only i didn;t feel soo tired during the entire thing, the whole event would be perfect! Ya...FA already made me soo mentally tired , plus i when out with sharon and firneds to far east to eat lunch at Sakura.. lolx.. walk and walk, play and play.. aiyo until i soo tired.. lolx..After the class outing , zw , Mc, DR and me when to raffles MRT to take a train back, on the way back.. we saw coffee club .. so we enter... beacuse we thirsty mah.. and damn it! I paid like $5.80 for one glass of ice blend exsotic drink.. omg.. it tasted horrible ... like Antibaortics mixed with cold water =_="...and please people its $5.80 for that damn it drink!!..Its called Ice lusion! Never try it.. its horrendous.. other then that .. all when well today.. Luckly FA wasn;t soo hard after all muhahaha.. God's Mircale.. lolx.. well got to play GB with sharon liao.. bye ~ rex out!

Accounting Terror.

2005-09-25T08:14:00.000-07:00

WTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...IM SOOO DAMN IT SICK OF ACCOUNTING...:(.... Really can;t take it anymore, FA is finally talking a toll on me.. and i feel soo frustrated on the contraction accounts, i swear i never want to be an accountant in my life.. OMG.. Fcuked up subject... ARRR!..Dun mind me, im wiriting this entry to release some of my stress... its too tuff..i have been reading and reading about those stupid accounting entries, my brain is crying out, brain cells bleeding and tons of voices in my head , terrible terrible.. i didn;t feel soo stress before.. wanting to beat up anyone who distrubs me...and sometimes i ask myself is it worth it ? To study so hard and end up not getting into NUS?( Choy!) .. Really this term i suffered alot.. in desperate need to relax ... Hiaz...HIAZ.. H.I.A.Z!!...The fcuked up accounting test is in 2 days time.. i know im on track.. but its killing me..i pray that i get A but not at the expense of my great unhappiness.. Soo sick.. really soo damn Sick.. of everything ... How come businesss trading course is like tat.. im surpposed to be learning how to trade and NOT ACCOUNTING Companies.. ~_~....now i very bad mood.. dun know wheather to countiue to read the FA book anot.. i pray that next term is not as stressful as this term if it is.. i hope God will be there for me unlike now..( Turns head around and shouts) WHERE ARE YOU ARH!?... Sian..later im going to touch on The ratio analsisy.. which is also soo fcuked up...
Rex out---------------------------

SIan...ECM teachers Aiyo!

2005-09-16T02:36:00.000-07:00

ok.. what does ECM stand for ? Electronic commence ..where do the ECM teachers usually hand out ? In in thier own room or canteen i guess.. WRONG!...omg. I spent 3 hours finding them but to no avil.!Damn it..wasted my entire afternoon going up and down my school. I frimly conclude that they spent thier time in the computers , hopping happily in the intranets and sending viruses in to my F**king brain... =_+... Hiaz... well.. at least i read up B2B and B2C inthe school library already. When for an afternoon swiming with the SP life savers...waoh im so envious, they all look so fit and musclar. and i look quite skinny lolx.( need to motivate myself ) ya then i talked to one of them , i asked them what thier CCA is all about ?.. they said every week come to the pool , run around , do pumping and drink the swimming pool water lor =-='... lamers.. ya had a nice time with them.. then i when back to school of Biz to find those ECM teachers... still not there.. pissing me off.. then i walked pass Mrs June and Christina Chua..then June Chua siad : " OIE ivan.. ms Anne Chong Boon.. looking for you.." then i said" What CB?" lolx.. i looked quite angry i think beacuse of the ECM teachers missing or hiding in their coms.I think Mrs Christina think i also angry..thats why i never smile to them ... regret!* ya... was quite rude to june also la. ..sian.. hope they both forgive me ahaha.. ya.. then i wanted to go find AMbrouse... to tell him about the class outing.BUT,when i reached his room i believe i sense evil energy ( Karma) flowing out under his door..it was purple in color i think.. then i retreated slowly and walked back to the MRT... an eventfully day perhaps ...but i didn;t do anything useful as a classrap i guess.. sian.. ok got to study BFI soon ~rex out

Enocenticsim...

2005-09-14T06:12:00.000-07:00

Hiaz.. today had my UCCD test.. KNN.. almost cannot finish, end up screwing up question 2b and question 3b... FUCK!... 15 marks confrim gone.. sian .. bye to my A liao... say hi to either B+ or B-.. and also.. i made alot of spelling mistake in the paper.. hope they dun minus marks... this semesteris killer la.. sian..its like studying for 4 MOB mouldes.. Crazy ppl.. arh.. now i hate most is rwps that fat bitch better give me B and above if not.. damn her soul to enternal hell... sickening women.. no discipline, no sincerity ... damn it.. make me soo angry lolx.. hiaz...now after uccd i abit more relaxed la.. tried.. soo mentally tired.. wanted to go club house today to put on the notice for the dover thingy.. but no1 was apprently there.. lolx... wah if forget to perform then jialat( a term used to say seriouse shit) =_+.... well... among all the stress, there is good news.. im going for the China Study tour with my friends for 12 days .. omg.. im so excited.. lolx.. beacuse im in the paticipation stage , then will enter the spectator's stage, then the participation stage and the shock stage ( hopefully not).. ya.. you see how useless these terms are... uccd terms are mostly USELESS!.. hear that... UCCD should be all about have practical experiences.. not learning all those Fucked up terms.. lolx.. hiaz.. soo sian these few days. MA1.. omg.. i dun know what to say... ver high percentage of Failures , great studying people like Shu hua and Mr C, and Mrs Ly.d all failed aiyo.. what happen to you all.. and yet i pass but with a low 63% onli.. im i supposed to complain about this shitty result or be grateful i didn;t fail ?.. hiaz i dun know.. Nicklaos always tell me to not compare urself with others.. but to challenge oneself to be even better next time.. lolx.. food for thought.. thanks for the advise.. yes indeed is important to challeng oneself. Bu ti have an advise for all those people who failed MA1 ..... dun give up.. yes its a diffcult test, the main thing here is not to give into depression and blaming urself for failing.. you all ought to hold ur heads high and not despair .
DBF DBF DBF...( a min of slience for those for didn;t make it for MA1)...........................20 seconds............................30 seconds..............45 seconds...... 56 seconds......1 min.. ya ok .. MOVE on.. lolx.. On a happier note.. the class outing will be on 26 th step 2005 .. at swensens after FA paper.. lolx.. ok la.. dun know what the fuck to write liao..oh wait.... i read a certain some1's blog today.. and saw somthing that says being rude or that kind of thing.. i wonder are you talking about me ?.. if so.. when was i rude?... misunderstanding? .. lolx... rex out!

POLY 50TH...

2005-09-04T09:37:00.000-07:00

Haiz hiaz...exam cumming again.. so sian... so fast also.. soo many crap to study.. CRM, BFI, MA,UCCD,ECM,ECM AND FA... so sain all like MOB type module.. Memorise/ understanding that can of shit module..like waise all these are just acedemic subjects not appliable to the real world.. you dun go around saying oh this culture is collective, difused or according to the customer life cycle you need to take 515-555 sections and divide by 2...!!!!-_-; damn sickening..dun know how come i end up in this course.. soo stressful... aiya.. I know god will see me thru... anyway.. ya.. about the closing Singapore Poly 50th anniversitry they got this time capseal thingy... interesting though. they seal in books, a letter to the future administion, a face of taufik -_-; , poly can drinks and other shits.I wonder where, who would i be in 50 years time? and as i see the capseal get sealed up.. i wonder if i return back to SP 50 years time..or may be there wouldn;t be SP anymore beacuse maybe Singapore alrdy sink into the waters, got bomb by terrorists , got fu*ked by malaysia or kena rape by Typhoon Kiasu.( Kitrina)... anything can happen la.. i also dun know i will live till another 50 years? Hopefully la lolx.. i want to like forever if possible.. Quick la.. some crazy scientist go make life forever option let me drink la hahahaha.. Sian.. i also dun know wtf im talking about... soo tired of all the work , projects, presentations and studies... thats the life of every Singaporen.. stress and more stress..
Now for some Diako updates.. lol.. got 6 demerit points.. and hope is damn ugly.. shhh!..ya... how can like tat aiyo.. 6 and must have like 120 credits to fu*ck all off.. omg.. i also dun really care la.. beacuse i will ensure no more of this demerit points happen to my batch la..and ya.. i learn a lot of new songs.. i think 4 new songs blah.. i also think abit too much.. must ask aloy. what he wants me to learn 1st.. i cannot absord lor.. soo many at once lolx... ya and i had my 1st leasson with my erhu teacher.. very interesting.. very fun.. hopefully can learn fast to play in future concerts.. likewise my friend sharon already in Diako.. at first i thought she will quit after a few lessons.. but surprisingly.. its beacuse of strong friendship with 2 gals nad 2 guys that made her stay.. aiyo and she growing fast in diako had her 1st performance in the historical SP closing 50th..and she plays yoshino like a duck ..shhh.. lolx... aNyway she not my gal firend or anything.. she just my very good friend.. and lets just keep it that way ok! (for CHRIS , ZW , edmund, HITDIEYA and Rudual!) lol... anyway... SAS was kind to me.. and selected me the Music scholorship( X,000) and i will be passing up the thank you card to them on monday.. if they say its a mistake again.. i will personally lick thier faces... ..... ... . ... AHAHAHHA!... better not la.. the money i will need to pay hui zhen for her kindness and buy my NOKIA N90 too lolx... anyways..im going to China soon ..hiaz.. miss alot of leadership camp the 1 for Class raps ( Batam~lydia going le.. damn it) and the curise thing...sian... but im excited la.. very indeed... 2 weeks of independance and no Singapore.. lolx... Sad la.. right sharon ?! if only you would just let me pay for you.. but already too late la.. sad sad... if not it would be the perfect trip lor.. +_#...lastly i have to confess. i have not been going to church la.. either to CHC or LSF... the transition is kind of tuff also.. not that CHC is a bad church plus i made a few friends there lol, its just that i will miss SOME of the LSF ppl if i transfer so fast.. man.. later they think im a back stabber or somthing... dun forget i already there like 5 years.. listening too all those old chirstain music.. makes me kind of sick of it.. there needs to be a new change , a new begining for me.. i know god will make a way lolx.. time to grow.. but im not going to church grow what right?!... like lor... what to do.. all those exams.. force me to stay at home to revise.. god forgive me la.. lolx.. .ok.. thats about all i think i talk to much in 1 entry alrdy... but i have one more thing to say: Ppl in New orleans are suffering, ppl are also dying there.. Singaporens better not take our safety and peace for granted.... amen...
Rex OUT!

EXams.. Stress..

2005-08-25T08:16:00.000-07:00

Hi hi... not been posting so much anowdays.. soo much to do.. yet a lot still not compelte. RWPS etc.. dotz.. i really hate biz school now.. so stress ... if i cannot go NUS or NUT or SMU or NSWU i can go and die liao la.. put in soo much blood and effort into my work.. still cannot go?.. siao want la.. yet im still waiting for my F**king music scholorship.. i think wouldn't be mine la.. but at least still got hope la.. SAS also a screwed up shit.. ya anyway.. today was UCCD presentation on Vietnam, Korean students came with thier professors today into our humble school and into my class room... cool batch of ppl.. but.. the gals were sad to say.. not to my liking.. so ugly.. at least the guys looked decent enough... ya... more importantly.. we actually scored an A for our UCCD presentation, its beacuse of all those stupid questioned asked by our fellow classmates.. ( i will not mention who) .. ask sooo many rubbish.. so not even paying attention... then end up we got like B+ or B- beacuse we never ans what the teacher expected us to ans.. another bitch lol.... ya.. i feel that my class is somtimes too competitive.. in the end all you get is hurting ppl feelings and hardwork just beacuse you want to get that few participation marks.. anit that selfish?.. i mean..yes its ture that you can ask questions.. but if you knew we missed out some points here and there and you knew it would pull down our marks.. you all purposely ask it.. omg.. heartless brats lolx... you traded ur interigty for a few PM marks??!.. omg...nvm about them la.. i still love my class , they help me grow to face the upcoming working world at least. anyway..i finish like 4 major projects liao.. i think 2 more to go.. then got 7 exams to take.. and plz.. ppl its 7 exams ok.. dun be fool by teachers who claim that their module is CA based.. if its CA based why is it like 35% of the total score? .. omg.. its an exam la.. lol... ya..and lets come to my CCA= Diako... how come im losing passion for diako drumming?? i also dun know why... may be i perform too much.. lolx.. but i still love my CCA la.. meet new friends , get mistreated by sas offices and drum lor.. ahahah... ya.. and still they dun trust me.. crap... nvm lor.. dun give me then dun give lor....ya.. and there is gal in diako.. i also feel very sorry for her la..i didn't know that she felt mistreated la.. aiya.. poor thing.. lol... . other then that... ok la... im busy with my life.. and busy with everthing else.. plz god help me.. thanks.. bye.!

rex out~

The City Rocks .

2005-07-24T02:31:00.000-07:00

Wow, today when to cityharvest .. my first time enterting the Big Hall which is 2 floors below ( That Hector , never tell me got such a big hall ) lolx. . ya, its was very big aiyo..got all the instruments drums, gutiar all places on the awesome stage almost as big as my house lolx.. i think even bigger,.. ya.. there was a strong Choir of about 80+ ppl standing on the stage and praising and worshipping GOD.. wonderful la.. some more the harvestors were so enthu about GOD.. really its like going to a Hillsong concert .. but of course Hillsong concert better.. much better in fact that i can't wait for FOP... coming soon ..WOOW! Can see my holy Idol again " Darlene"
I think i have to prepare myself , for the FOP.. i believe there will be a lot of jumping and shouting .. so i better bring my ear plucks, wash my sins and jumping shoes .Anyway back to todays event, yes , cityharvest also celebrating thier 16 th annie on the same day as Hillsong concert .. but its different timeing , its at 10 am - 3 pm..lor... aiyo.. so it does not clash with FOP.. just to inform those ppl keep complaining abt Cityharvest involvement in FOP .. plz. la we are all GOD's ppl le.. so what if CityH wants to celebrate it with hillsong? Also nvm one lor .. IN addition to that , Cityharvest next goal is the build a stadium for itself .. wow..again ... the church is calling for a total of $15million++ within 6mths ..which the picture i loaded in my blog . " Rise and Build 2005" then they were like calling for fiath pledge.. if only i could plegde.. but i didn't bring enough cash and im not a member YET! lolx..but i got some problems with Cityhar, the worship hor, too loud la.. aiyo.. i nearly went deaf.. my god.. louder then Diako Room lor...plus .. when the pastor talking , i think its thier culture to say " Yes,Right or he is right ! or Amen or oh yes! " those kind of vocal gestures , i find very irritating ..lolx..can do it once or twice mah.. no need soo many times..plus.. the pastor .. i can;t help but say that every time i go to CityHar always got sermon based on money if not somthing about talent and potential( todays sermon was about laws of potential) lolx ...lastly .. i met some of Sharons Church friends there, all 16-17 years old teens.. quite friendly la.. one of them reminds me of tony can;t remember his name la ... talktive ,bright and very friendly a drummer too. And also got this gal name Elimiate, lol.. talk alot.. omg.. gave me headach.. but overall very friendly ppl .. almost like family like to each other . If it is God's will , my transection would soon take place and i will excel from there, i'll try to reach my own established goal in Cityhar, which is to enter the worship team there la.. and like i said its all up to God's will ..if i end up as an Ord memeber also can.. but more importantly is that i countiue to serve God and maximise my full potential la.. amen..
~rex out!

BUsy soo busy...

2005-07-15T09:09:00.000-07:00

opps.. very long never blog liao.. hmm.. why do i talk like a Singaporen lolx.. good english plz.. ya so. time to update on my life la.. its seems that i have been promoted to Project Coordinator in my Diako Club and currently i hold 2 position in the club PC and Assistant Quater Master.. moreover another Biz compeition is coming soon the NTUC.. dun know what shit ti do again. Just finsihed 2 texting reports one on Customer Relationship Mangement the other is Cross Culture shits.lolx.. damn sian.. next week got to do RWPS test and presentation of Macro Economics 1 which is a stupid econs subject though at university level -_-' i wonder why the heck SP buiness would want to introduce this difficult module ... its university level for goodness sake.. let me give you a taste of it C0+C1(Y) Y= T0-T1(Yd)G=G0 I=I0-I1(R) R= I/R = H1(y)-H2(y) H1= income sensitivity of income H2= income sensitivity of intewrest rate.. X=X0 M=M0+M1(Y) .. yup... thats only one part of the whole econs shit.. ya and worse there this Ambrose guy who is a total idiot at teaching econs.. hope he pass away violent during reserves la.. lolx.. backto my life , yup.. i was also choicen for the SP "Smart team", purpose to go to other secondary schools as ambassidors to promote the school of busniess lor.. wah.. so boring .. i where got time to attract ppl to come to my school .. i rather discourage them to come lor.. for both my benefit and thier benefits. lolx.. enough traders inthe market already .. ya.. as usual im still struggling to get to NUS or NTU or SMU .. i found a new band .. going to meet them for the 1st time this sunday at 4 pm .. quite nervous lor.. plus i dun even know what to do during the 4 Hours in church ...DAMN sian .. i think i will study FA or do my B/fi lor.. should be la.. well all the best to me .. i got back my Bfi test though 80/100 4 th in class. Not forgetting , there this guy in my class irritating me ever so often about my class rap duties , i scared i will suddenly snap and kill him.. so please pray to God for me to have self control plz.. thanks lol ... Rex out!

The CANI company...

2005-06-24T07:52:00.000-07:00

Hiaz... after 2 intense weeks of the SIM competition , we end up being 2nd and didn;t qualify for the finals.. damn sad la..well after all , my team and i learn a hell lot lol.. it has been an eye opener and some experience i wouldn;t forget like the 1st time our team met at SIM to have a briefing, we sat among managers and professionals and NUS, NTU graduates, with 300+ teaM, we started our virtual comapny called CANI, which stands for Chirs,Aveline, Nickalos and Ivan. we passed the qualifying rounds with ease and got in to the semi finals with 36 teams left .Burden with assigments and lots of projects works , we still took time to wake up early in the morning , came to school and make desicions in our company panal board. We also ate into our lecture / tutorial time to do this compeitition ..lolx.. though it was suffering , im glade that i got to know nickolas and aveline more..all thanks to Mr cheong who selected us from 200 over students in SP Biz sch to take part in this compeition ( feel honored) i even when over to his house at tana merah last sat for a brefing, his house was beautiful .. even more expensive then mine ( envious) lolx.. yes yes and we lost in the semin beacuse of one fatal mistake, we set price too high ! $68 per can of drink omg!! who would buy even though our marketing effort was like $450,000 per market.. lolx.. one important Biz lesson to take note * no matter what you do, do not set price too high even though ur marketing is high , beacuse ultimately the consumers are the one to decided. and yes.. we got a -8million defecit! omg.. but eventually we came back strong.. but not strong enought .. so we end up second.. hiaz.. all the effort all my perious time, killed by one stupid mistake in period one .However on A happier note , we will be getting CCA points , a certificate of participation and recognition in the ceremony of achievers.But too me all this recognition is just to encourage us to do even better next time.. and we will beacuse Mr cheong alrdy decided to put us in next year SIM compeition again, and this time we will unleasing our full fury!! Watch out all! aahahah.. yes and i hope , i can enter more compeition in the future like the trading internation , marketing competion aiyo soo many .. I want I WANT! plz god.. place me in these compeitions .. plz.. #_# ...hiaz.. at least now one more major responsiblity is done with ,.. i got some time to actually do some intensive studying, well .. that wouldn;t be the end of those " responsibilities " there are more major things to come like fufilling my class rap duties, meeting my new jamming group , more daiko IC thing and learning you know .. chinese thing .. ahaha .. ok well .. may God bless me .. and you who is reading my blog.. lol
rex out~

Diako Surprise.

2005-05-31T07:46:00.000-07:00

Wow wow wow.. What a wonderful week :).. i dun know why im so happy.. maybe the suituation isn't that great after all.. Hiaz.. lol.. Well anyway i was elected to be class rap this acedamic year, i also dun know why i wanted this position badly? I mean if NUS and NTU was looking out for Leadership qualities then the class rap thing in my CCA records will definately show it i think..hiaz.. not easy being class rap, must do this do that.. Lame.. some more i need to fufill my promise to some people who just refuses to attend class.. not easy and i feel that im not doing a very good job either maybe beacuse of my lack of experience la not forgetting its also quite sickening and worse its only my 1st week!Man! gOD plz give me strength and support from my class. Well at least im determined to try though lolx.. On a more lighther note, today i when to support my Diako CLub( the drumming club la) for CCA week, 5hours of standing and asking people to join my club.. saw all those sick faces lol..But luckly i got 4 new people under my charged to join and 3 of them are Guys! Not thaT my club is gay or anything lol , is that we lack guys in Diako Team thus next time very difficult to carry the Big drums around if only girls dominate my club.ya then after that i when back to my club ... blow abit of aircon.. then howcome end up training with the TP [performance team ] .. well i thought i would never heard new songs from my team,however to my surpirse they played somthing new instead of the usual " drum of happniess la, song of Kinowana or Victory for that matter " but i heard something that sparked up my interest in Diako once again WOW wonderful! At 1st i was thinking of joining other cca ( the SP jazz band) la sorry to say.. beacuse i felt a bit bored also .. evertime play drums and some more my friend always like to criticise my club also..but i also got put in alot of effort and time into my Club..so I will never quit!until i finish my years in poly lol..

Hiaz..Poly Year 2 !

2005-05-29T09:08:00.000-07:00

Why do i feel so.. how to say.. sick of it.. ya.. must climb that stupid hill again.. I feel that good times pass so fast and now my 6 weeks of holiday has ended :(... soo damn fast.. BUT! As my year 1 in poly is over, and no alonger a freshmen. ,now should be called Middle man and the 3rd years are Rotten Men AHAHAH well , the thing is im going to Finnaical trading i heard its tuff and very stressful.. but thats the course that will lead you to earn big $$.. Hiaz all the studying begins, all the stressful project works, econs, Accounting Again! Report writing ! Wao kao.. so sian.. but i know GOD will see me through this tuff year again.. now let me say a virtual prayer to god" Dear Lord J.i pray that as i enter my 2nd year in SP i do pray that you'll 1stly have to help me find a way out of my , you know.. "Personal Problem" and of course please grant be good results , no C grades plz.and grant me understanding responsible kind and caring teachers.. . thanks god.. :) amen.well all the best to my 2nd year in Poly.. Go ivan go!

Creepy Sentosa.

2005-05-27T07:38:00.000-07:00

Well im back from my short holiday in Sentosa lolx. Stayed at Costa Sands resort as my friends are not very rich .Had a good time though, the day ( yesterday) was filled with interesting activities , firstly we went for cycling down at Palawan Bitch i meant beach.Ya, the Bicycle rental fee was expensive $7/hr.So we cycled to nature walk , Musical Fountian etc etc, the usually site, However we came to a place we had never seen before, and thats where the really fun begins, we stumbled upon a row of abandoned chalets.Interesting!, i had never been to a real Haunted place before .. or so its seems, i label it haunted beacuse , it was simply abounded lolx ya.. so Afundi and Ajay and me parked our bikes besides a tree and entered the place.. Really Scared THough , we 1st entered the small apartment, the celing was borken and old paint was coming off , the floor was littled was old brown paper and the whole place was just over grown with weeds and moss. We went to the second floor and we came upon a creepy room but fortunately it was locked by a rusty gate..if not we would have ventured futher, we would have stayed longer to explore the loomy place but was eventually bored and then we cycled towards another abandoned building.. this time however , we only when in 5 mins and we got the feeling that we should get out , even though the sunshine were a source of our confidence it was not strong enough to withstand the strange and creepy feeling that the place was amitting, the place was horribly ruined, there were the usual moss and weeds growing from the cracked walls and old newspaper "decorating" the place, there were even burned Josstick there . damn creepy.i though i could lead my firends at least to the 2nd floor, however i have to amit im really was very afraid of the place as at that particular time.I didn't know i had so little courage. and fundi made as turn back when he said that his mother once told him not to go messying around in this forsaken places. lolx.Eventually we had to cycle back to the Bicyle Kiso as the time was almost up, then i though fundi how to swim and he finally knew how to. When for BK for dinner and headed for the 8.40 Musical Foutain Show. Then we when for snake walking ( near merlion) and night exploring and eventually ended up relaxing on Slioso Beach, it was 12.30 am by then , the moon was glorious it gave that kind of werewolf effect , and so we chilled out on the cool sands.Before we walked back to our chalet i though both my friends how to look at the stars for North and south directions(Southen Cross and Orian Belt) all thanks to the trip i made last 4 weeks with the SP astronomy.Ya .. so when back to our room , took a shower and watch a bit of TV.It was like about 2.15 am, by then Ajay was akready sleeping , fundi and i both when out again to the beach , and this time the back gate was locked.. so we had to walking out by the front , as we walked down the road path both sides were looming with tall trees covered with darkness.As we walked , i heard this soft sound behind me , as if someone was walking or rather tiptoeing behind us.. WAO KAO.. so damn creepy.. of course i turn around to look who was it.. not surprisingly there was no 1 there. i didn;t obther to tell fundi about as he was busy enjoying himself ( shouting WAO SI MI LIAN JIAO or NI CEE BYE ) lol.. suddenly i got flashes in my mind of that Haunted place again..can;t believe.. evil places effect me the most i still remember the time when i went to Ubin and willing go into a cemetry to take alook.. :P well anyway.. there noting interesting to write any more.. the rest are we both when back to the chalet after moon watching. When for sun tanning this morning , whne back home lor. . lolx.. Rex out ~

I try!

2005-05-20T08:33:00.000-07:00

Hiaz .. you see this logo .. Hiaz.. my ultimate goal.My dream school, i know i should post this in my private Blog. But it seems more logoical for all my friends to know where my ultimate goal lies.Really , after hearing what my cousin have to say about entry into NUS , i feel that it is quite impossible for me to enter NUS Business School le.let alone any course at all.First of all im a Singapore polytechnic student which is already a barrier to enter liao compared to JC students, 2) My results are not excellencent only very good , or at best quite high standard, i don't even think my results is in the top 5% of the cohort lo.. 3) After i graduate , i would be competing with the JC dragon Baby which angain hinders my entry into NUS.. soo many barriers soo hurtful lor.. why im i the one always have such bad luck, 1st i entered a not so good secondary school , now im in SP.. which is quite good la..better then other polys in fact the best la.. but its still a polytechnic le.. why .. very tiring , study so hard and yet my results must be excellent .. now come to think of it , it is quite impossible to enter .. this fact, breaks my heart ... wao kao.. but i know i have to try.. no matter what happens, no matter what the odds,but really if i cannot enter NUS or any of the big 4 universities then i can go and die la.. lolx.. i feel like a loser ...the only thing that can help me now is the interview, my CCA points, my results and God's Grace lor.. hiaz. GOD plz..make a way.So you see , you all cannot blame me for working so hard , or that im a book worm there are great odds for me to overcome le.. Aiya.. the more i write about this the more fustrated i get.. although i know this is one of my worldly desires of mine .. i still have to at least try to achieve it la..sian now.. rex out !

Dover

2005-05-09T08:59:00.000-07:00

HOt HOT!. Today was the day that My diako team and i ( only 3 people) are supposed to go to ite dover to play afew motivational beats at the Mr Nathan Soccer championship, to motivate our SP soccer team. And yes , not surprisingly we lost, 2- 0 wonderful, wasted my time .i was so looking for to beat the diako drums with my team and hopefully "motivate " the SP team to win.However , i didn't feel shoik enough , as the organiser just told us to go here, and wait for instrutions, we couldn't even play our usually songs , we just played some pointless beats.. Almake.Then even worse , the SP couch always screaming at his team " HI, you all want to play anot " " Damn it , spread out " " WTF, **** move out !" this i all i remember among the horde of sentences he used ..so boring,..my diako president was, i think also bored la.. aiyo.. the whole event was terrible , not only we weren't allowed to play our own songs, we cannot even make noise ! beacuse it seems to distract the soccer players.One would have to wonder why employ us " DIako Drummer "in the 1st place, if we weren;t allowed to even make a single sound ? Then what are we supposed to do ? stare at our drums ? .. then of course , the scottish flutebag players and thier team wanted us to coordinate with them, so ok la.. played awhile also... didn't coordinate nice enough.. then eventually, we just sit down.. look at the game, keep watching the ITE dover people trash our SP team.. very "encouraging lor" ahahaha i bet even Mr NaTHan also bored, i saw him siting in his black sofa like chair with his wife , they both look like indians le.+_+.!! anyway, ya he was bored la, evertime the MC keep saying his excellency x2 .. why not just call him by name ? The stupid MC kept saying his exllencey is about to sit down to watch the match, his excellency is about to leave, his excellency will be heading towards the main office for refreshmens.. ZZZZZZZZZ hiaz.. this is perhapes the worse performance among my diako duties ahahaha... hopefully the upcoming SGH one will be better la.. mental note to myself" its for the CCA points and the passion for drumming la"
haahhaah.. ok Rex out !

OIL to my FLAME

2005-05-04T23:09:00.000-07:00

ahahahhahahaaahahah... finally got my results..firstly before i begin wirting about these pass few days i would like to thank GOD for his grace .Yes i didn't get a C for any of my modules so far phew*...there is still hope for a better chance to enter NUS or NTU or SMU for that matter.. these pass few days i beento pasi ris charlet beacuse a whole lot of my class can't afford to go far..so we just book a normal room and had BBQ the 1st night .Interesting though , most of the preparation is done by me.and 40% from sharon the rest all didn't do anything onli came down to eat and laugh.it was the last and finally gathering of class 1b/23. lolx. Well , most importantly i enjoyed myself.That very night a few of my friends who were staying , Priscila , Sharon , ZW,Ding rui and Ming chen we all when to the beach and sat there and talk nosence, usually i dun part take in such activities as these talk are of no use. But really, even though no work is done the meanless activity was rather enjoyable..i got to know a few funny sotries.lolx ya the night star was nice.. i saw jupitar again.lolx the following day, five of us when to ubin for cycling .. interesting also.. i got to bring to newbies to ubin island and showed them around .Very hot that day, the sun was like vomiting its rays on us.We saw the querires, ate good food and saw monitor lizards .After like 5 hours of cycling and drinking non stop we decided to call it a day as our skins were fryed. Hiaz i could have brought them to more seductive places in ubin man.. awww.. well.. after the cycling trip , sharon ( the cityharvestor) and i when for Wild wild wet just so that we wouldn't waste the tickets , well wild x2 wet is quite fun , espeacilly the "Slide up" was my favourite the other sides were kind of similar to fantasy island , or jurong east swimming complex. Well i think i was new to the place and everthing looked nice and new to me la.. after that we both bought dinner for those lazy boys sleeping in my chalet. lolx.. then we watch Tv and so on... damn it amazing race Rod and amber keep winner i really hope they lose..theb sharon and ZW fell asleep.Feeling a bit bored Ming chen and ding rui and me when out for late night supper , brought me around pasi ris , when to look at people fishing in the pond and eventually when back to sleep, well i didn't sleep much that night. worried for my exam and quite sadden that this happy time will soon be over.. and it was over. Now im here writing about these chalet thing .I know it will not happen again , well at least not with the same friends la.. its TIME TO MOVE on.im going to Finnical trading while a whole chunk of my good friends are going to banking hiaz.. GOODbye la.. well coming back to ..2day.. i rushed back home , prayed a bit to GOD telling him to be faithful to me and doupting him , and then POP. open the SAS, saw my results, nicely done.. while my other friends did slightly better then me , a few more As or distictions it didn';t affect me much , beacuse most importantly is that the other fileds in life must also be maintain , the 4 fileds are "ACEDEMICS", "SPORTS", "MUSIC" and personal intergrity .. which i try my best to maintain la.. somtimes at the expense of friendship also =X.. lolx.. ok .. .next week going to watch movie play bowling, go hiking, go for another chalet, swimming and then i 'll be in FT liao.. rex out.

Star Gazing

2005-05-01T00:36:00.000-07:00

Yup, today i when for the SP astro star gazing session. Which lasted from 7pm to 6 am.Very interesting indeed, fristly i met up with a few friends( Rudual, Sharon, Hitdiya,Zarkey) at the carpark and waited for the delayed bus for 30 mins, then the president of the club ( Jeridin) said that SAS scwred them up , eventually all of us took a cab down to east cost park and met up with the rest at the jetty area to start our star gazing event. We were given a bieft introduction on different star clusters and different names of the start patterns,...as we proceed into the night , i saw jupitar,the orian cluster and many other star systems through a high powered telecope.. simply amazing la.. how wonderful that God was the one who made all these. Jeridin told me how to look at the sky for direction ,the southern cross that has four stars assembled in a rumbus form points to the south and the Zion Bend which look like three stars reprensting a bended shaped points north..these points are important to me as next time i will be exploreing the world and will need this knowlegde and extra confromation while travaling.lolx Coming back to jupitar .. amazing i could see the three moons and the distinct strips that the planet have...however didn't get to see saturn as it was setting fast int he north part of our earth.well thats about it.. very beauitful la.. indeed indeed.However the later part of the program was terrible." SLEEPING TIME" .. was so sickening hor, the hard floor , the noisy people and the hot ground all 3 combinations could make a person's dream turn into a nightmare. Yup i could'nt sleep at all .. and i was sweaty .. reminded me of the time i when for the bekala forest trip with SP adventure team.. yucks la.. luckly got good company like Rudual, Sharon ,Hitdieya and Zarkey. we crap alot , laugh alot and bonded with each other in a clen way ..........ahahaha .. ok.. im quite tired now.. supposed to go church today.. i really i dun give a cross now.. 1stly its too fast and secondly if i when i will be bored to death lolx..ok gtg now..........

Eastsiana!

2005-04-26T08:13:00.000-07:00

Today was quite a sickening day.. very hot, the sun was pouring its rays upon jurong as i headed towards chinese garden at 12.45 pm knowing i was indeed late to ,meet my friend "Zhi wei"at bedok my long lost home.. well to give you a short history.. i spend my 1st 3 human years in bedok.. ya.. so i was.. heading toward bedok hoping that the east side of Singapore will be less hot and irritating like jurong.But.. as usually.. the weather is always so irritating.. lolx.. once i stepped out of the mrt.. it was as if the sun Pour out its Mighty rays upon that place/region scorching the already baked ground.. ya .. there i was waiting for the fcked up bus that refused to come relief me from the busstop.. ok... then finally it came.. then i when to ZW house to watch free privated movies.. we both watch Freheti 9/11 which showcase the bad quality of leadership G.W.Bush in leading the americans these pass few years.. but really im a person who will look at both sides of the story... the show mostly forcus on G.W bush bad points .. but one must ask urself.. the world is indeed made more peacefully or safe for that matter right ?! i really dun know this polictical stuff.but the people of America has suffered also under such leadership.. the sotires that were showcased touched me ( not physcially la!) hiaz.. poor things.. anyway.. then we wanted to watch the Marixs. however the expected characteristics private dvds made the show unbearable.. lots of image distortion and high piched sounds.. we eventually gave up and headed towards the drumset and the computer in my friends room...i played abit of piano and chat online for a while.. utter i think i wasted my whole afternoon lor.. but it feel good to chill out with my friend... by 5.43pm my friend chased my out of his apartment beause he had to concentrate on his drumming trainning... then i walked back to the MRT after depositing my book at Bedok libary. Totally boring day la.. didn't pracitce my " E# ##" la.. got to need pris help man.Thank God for her.. if not i will be spending $$ again.... on a more interesting note.. i'll be getting my insurance soon ya! nice figure.. going to invest in Gov bonds la.. hopfully tml will be a more interesting day etc: Diako and cell.. otc... rex out!