I try!

Hiaz .. you see this logo .. Hiaz.. my ultimate goal.My dream school, i know i should post this in my private Blog. But it seems more logoical for all my friends to know where my ultimate goal lies.Really , after hearing what my cousin have to say about entry into NUS , i feel that it is quite impossible for me to enter NUS Business School le.let alone any course at all.First of all im a Singapore polytechnic student which is already a barrier to enter liao compared to JC students, 2) My results are not excellencent only very good , or at best quite high standard, i don't even think my results is in the top 5% of the cohort lo.. 3) After i graduate , i would be competing with the JC dragon Baby which angain hinders my entry into NUS.. soo many barriers soo hurtful lor.. why im i the one always have such bad luck, 1st i entered a not so good secondary school , now im in SP.. which is quite good la..better then other polys in fact the best la.. but its still a polytechnic le.. why .. very tiring , study so hard and yet my results must be excellent .. now come to think of it , it is quite impossible to enter .. this fact, breaks my heart ... wao kao.. but i know i have to try.. no matter what happens, no matter what the odds,but really if i cannot enter NUS or any of the big 4 universities then i can go and die la.. lolx.. i feel like a loser ...the only thing that can help me now is the interview, my CCA points, my results and God's Grace lor.. hiaz. GOD plz..make a way.So you see , you all cannot blame me for working so hard , or that im a book worm there are great odds for me to overcome le.. Aiya.. the more i write about this the more fustrated i get.. although i know this is one of my worldly desires of mine .. i still have to at least try to achieve it la..sian now.. rex out !