2007... Can i survive it?

Oh well, this is the final day of 2006. Looking back, this year have been full of ups and downs.
This year's downs are/ This year's Ups are

1) i did my sicking ITP /Got an A grade for ITP ;]

2) Didn;t Enter the BSG competition /Got very good results

3) Leaving Poly /Growing in Christ

4) Didn;t get presidency /Have more free time, more time for myself

5) Check blind S.D didn;t go so well /FYP ending

6) Financial Planning Group/ When for Tioman trip

7) Won $$ at world cup gamble
Well, it seems like there were more ups then downs this year. But the question still lies in 2007, can i surivive this year? Im going to do my FCKING National service soon which is in 2007. Some people think it is very amusing to watch me go to tekong. But have they ever considered how i feel about going there? Wasting my time and life there to learn how to defend this stressful country? ..Erh the more i think about it the more sick i feel. A friend of mine said that if i fail Napfa test i will have a higher chance to get a slack job in NS.. i know i can easily pass the test let alone obtained a Silver .. but i CHOOSE this path.. i dun know is this what God has intended for me. But im super confused and fearful of next year. Can i survive BTM? Hiaz.. wish i wasn;t born in this country. Should i not make it pass next year .. then all i got to say is it was a damn worth it time to be on earth this pass 19 years, all the happiness and achievements i have experience will not be forgotten.
Whatever happens i have to try to get thru this tuff period in my life. Countiue to have faith in God and step up for him blah... My last words for this year, i wish everyone i knew even those who pissed me off badly this year a Happy New year.

Check blind spot?

Hiaz... tml will be a very defining or a very breaking moment for me. It will be my"check blind spot day". Yes my cousin and infact my most of my entire family(The males) have passed this for the 1ST time, their achievement do not encourage me..but give me more pressure. Now im feeling very very stressed up . So many expectations and $$ have gone into my "check blind spot" training. I wish i will not fail la.. i really really wish. But, im not confident, to be frank i do not have enuff ciruit training. Sian. If i fail i will be very dissapointed with myself. I know some ppl will laugh at me. But what the heck la.. i'll try my best. If fail..then fail.. the important thing is i do not give up , try again and eventually i will (i believe) suceed. With that said ( Looks at the time) its already 11.37 pm.. got to wake up at 5.45 to prepare myself. Hiaz.. i feel this heavy weight on my shoulders.. and all these stupid projects bombarding me.. super irriting. I keep reminding myself the follwing points

1) Always check mirrors and traffic lights

2) Keep LEFT damn it

3) Signal early and precise

4) Give way and be courteous

5) Confident

Hiaz.. why im i soo not spontenous about this, having such an analytical mind has it downfall. Hiaz. hiaz hiaz. "God i really want to pass god..plz." With that said.. i gtg sleep.. all the best to myself. ~rex out